I was only 17 years when I fell in love with this dude.I had never fallen in love before and with that I had no idea of how it feels to be in love.I can't say I had no interest in any guy the reason was my parents. In African homes, it's illegal to have a boyfriend at an early age.It's a crime like a serious crime. And with that, I had the fear of falling in love because I never wanted any troubles with my parents. On a normal day in the evening,I was taking a nature walk with my dog Rex,as I strolled around,I heard someone whispering my name,"Hey Hellen" I was shocked ,I didn't expect anyone to know my name in the neighbourhood since I'm always indoors. I decided to rotate my neck and see who was calling. Frankly speaking, I had no idea who it was, but I had to be kind enough. The face never looked familiar to me.He was strikingly handsome,a vision of masculine beauty.He had this kind of looks that stop you in your tracks.I warmly stretched my hand towards him to great him.He complied with a smile on his face.I found myself blushing with some unknown reasons. He grabbed his phone from his pockets and took my digits. It was so obvious that I couldn't say NO. "Was this love or lust? I kept on asking myself .Or was it love at first sight,I had so may thoughts on my mind,I guess the answers could be retrieved soon or later.On my way home,I could notice the change of mood in me. At some point ,my mom noticed I was totally a different person from the image they are used to . She thought maybe I had won a lottery or something. On the other hand, my sister was flabbergasted. she couldn't believe it was me. She's used to the Hellen with a resting bitch face all the time.As I was taking my dinner,I saw a notification from an unknown contact,without asking who it was ,I could tell .That night we really had a long conversation. The more we talked ,the more I fell in love with him.We had so much in common from our favourite movies and books,to our views on life and the world. Our thoughts were almost the same. As days went by,Glen planned for our first date. I was nervous,I had never gone on a date ,so I had no ideas on what to put on.What if I messed up while we are on the table. But as they say ,there's always the first time for everything. I had to compose myself .There was no way I was going to allow fear and anxiety to take over me.I had to stand out no matter what.

Yes! yes! yes!, finally. I could no longer feel anxious just as before. If you would have asked me if I have ever went on a date with a dude, definitely I would have told you NO!! Like I know it would have sounded embarrassing, but either way, that was the truth.

I would never allow myself to get embarrassed. There was no room for that. Like hell no!!

That day, I was grinning from ear to ear all night because of how much fun I had. I can say it was a perfect date for me. I was feeling like a million bucks right then. Can you guess what conspired that night? It was the beginning of something new, something exclusive, something that I had never tried before. Of course, he did ask me out to be his girlfriend. Guys, it was love at first sight, so definitely there was no way I would have said no. That was the only chance I had to say yes. And yes, it's the same night I got my first kiss. It's crazy, right? Yeah, I know. I was desperate for love. I needed to explore something new.

The next day, I was so exhausted, and every time I remembered what happened last night I got goosebumps. I could find myself smiling. I could remember all the small details of him, like his birthday, his favorite song, musicians, and so many things. Days, weeks, months went by, and I was still in love like yesterday.

I remember there was a time I lied to my parents that I was going to church for a youth program from morning until evening, only to end up at his place and spend the whole day there. My parents never had a clue. They only knew I was in church. Not only that, there was a time I lied to my big sister that I was going out with my girlfriends, only to end up at his place again. I was now becoming a liar. Did I feel guilty? No!! Guys, I was in love back then. Truly, love is blind.

At this point, for me to go out, I had to lie. I was starting to get out more often compared to the previous days. I would go even for a week without stepping outside. The funny part was, we lived in the same estate, only a few blocks away from our cottage. In addition to that, I started making new friends within our estate. My sister saw all this, but she just played it cool. She would even cover up for me in case my parents asked for my whereabouts. Wasn't that sister code? At this point, nobody could tell...As time went by, I would buy him gifts randomly. Anything that I could see online and it could probably make him happy or he would like, I definitely bought it. I know you are probably wondering where I got all that my money from. Those were my savings. Did I get anything in return?...