I ruined a marriage. Yuck, I know.

a girl I worked with fell for me; she was 12 years my junior, hot and really smart, and married for just a year, and I did everything I could to tell her it was a bad idea. Except, I couldn't stop flirting with her. I mean, I would tell her we were just friends, but the flirting continued, but I'd refuse all her more agressive advances (which were in the forms of attempting to get alone time). I should have told her we simply couldn't be friends, but of course, I enjoyed the attention. Many times we discussed things and she confessed she thought her marriage was done. I told her she needed to get out of it and finish that chapter before anything could happen me. but one night, she called me and said she was on her way home and asked if she could show me her presentation she was working on. I said yeah. When I opened the door she was all whored up. Big time. I let her in and we had ANOTHER long discussion about how we should just be friends, and I thought the situation was closed, when she poured on the sluttiest, but admittedly hottest, most agressive come on I've ever been the target of. Out of the blue she started rubbing my crotch while she went in for the kiss. She then peeled her whore uniform off. Fuck, I caved in.

Things were good for a week. She told me she was getting a divorce. I told her I couldn't promise her a relationship, and she insisted she understood that. That she needed to get a divorce not because of me but becuase of him. That it was a mistake. Etc. We didn't fuck again but we did talk quite a bit. It was only after she told him she wanted a divorce that all hell broke loose. She stopped coming to work and stopped taking my calls or emails. Finally I got a hold of her and she told me her life was ruined; that she had broken her husband's heart and that he went out and slept with someone else. That his family hates her now, her own family is giving her a hard time, and she couldn't bare to look me in the eye or go to work so she's been calling in sick, and she didn't think she could ever see me again. I appologized to her and told her I thought things would get better. I wanted to desperately tell her I told her so, but of course, it doesn't matter. I knew she had to come back to work eventually, so I quit the job and finished out my contract working from home.

The things that piss me off are:

I knew it was wrong to flirt but I kept doing it.

I told her a million times how badly it would end, and she didn't listen

When I caved I knew it was going to end bad. I actually thought about that while having sex

But the thing that pisses me off most:

It was one the hottest periods of my life.

Screwed a married woman. She lost her marriage. I lost my job.