“What do I have to do to get his majesty to love me?”

Atanasia stared the person in front of her with a face stained with tears. However her father, the emperor Claude only stared down at her with no emotions in his eyes.

"Do I have to be like Jennet? If then, will you love me? Just like how you act towards Jennet, gently calling my name with eyes filled with warmth? If I work hard than I do now..."

Her beautiful step sister. That lovely Jennet gaining glory that Atanasia has never had before, yet haven't taken enough and also stealing his dad.

Having the nerves to mention that name in front of him, she was already mentally messed up right now.

"Instead of throwing me out, will you welcome me with an embrace with those hands of your's?

"Never a chance even if I die."

"How come?"

However, Claude didn't hesitate to answer. He was not in the slightest surprised looking at the always calm daughter being that pitiful in front of him.

"I also am your majesty's daughter. I was here with you longer than Jennet has."

This took all of Atanasia's courage to beg her first wish, and was her last appeal. However, her king, her dad kept his emotionlessness 'till the end.

"Foolish human."

The hands that were gripping onto Claude's legs lost all it's strength and fell to the floor. The strong words that will make Atanasia's mind and thoughts skewed. It was cruel enough to make her ears bleed any moment

now. "I've never had once considered you as my daughter."

The clear ocean blue stained eyes of Atanasia possessed a deep desperation....

"Gasp*!"

Crazy.

The sudden thought of a certain part of a novel made me extremely speechless that I had dropped the ding-ding sounding thing. (Note: aka 'Baby Toy Bell' The shaky thing.)

Why did I suddenly have a thought of the novel I have previously read before? It was a romance novel she had a glance at when a customer left at the gaming centre she had previously worked a part-time-job at. The novel had a very irregular title and fitting to it well, the plot of this novel was also very irregular and childish.

Is it because the 18 year old princess who ends up getting killed by her own father's name is the same as mine? Argh. I'm very unlucky. Shoo, shoo! Get outta my head right now!

"Jeez, what is it? Who's making me mad repeatedly dropping stuffs?"

Just then, the sleeping women sitting on a chair woke up due to that bell sound. Then she threw a stick at me. Obviously, this made no sense at all.

Repeatedly? I had only dropped it once! What else have I dropped to get this treatment. Also, babies drop stuffs frequently!

"Stop being noisy and play with this quietly."Even so, you wouldn't even wash the toy that has been dropped to the ground? I don't know if it's a piece sh*tty world or are these people just simply not paying attention to me just because I am the lowly treated princess. I think I am a former princess... Sniff, I do not wanna believe it.

"Wahh!"

I had dropped the bell once again to the ground.

Even though I am a baby who can only crawl, this is just not right.

Just then, the bad maid started to calm me down. Even so, there was annoyance shown on her face.

"Why cry? I am busy since have a lot to sew. Here, I'll grab it for you."

iswh. (This)"

I don't like this toy! I had already dropped it twice so it's dirty, moreover this is not my style! Even though my physical body is a baby, if you realize how old I am mentally, playing with this bell wouldn't be so fun!

"Is she sick of it now?"

She tilted her head a few times, then placed me who was playing on a carpet, back in the crib. She must have left off to the 'Maid Place' (Sorry, no words available to call this 'Maid Place'. My apologies!). If you are going to bring another bell, then don't even come back. Wah ngh."

I calmly lied down and shifted my gaze. When I did, I saw a hand so soft and squishy under the moving mobil.

Sigh. No matter how many times I look at it, I can't get used to it.

I was sure that I fell asleep after taking my sleeping pill... When I opened my eyes again, I was looking like this in this shape. Does this make sense? What is this, earth is not even a fantasy novel yet I have turned into a baby.

Moreover, the who maids who works for is me, who is the princess of this country. The world definitely went insane to it's furthest.

"Princess!"

Ah, this maid is always like this! Are you allowed open the door of a room where a baby is so suddenly and loud, and also scream as you want?

"The head maid had said that we are lacking budgets. Just play with what you have here."

The maid had forcefully made me grip the bell with my hand and went back to sowing.

"I won't try to calm you down even if you cry this time. I really am busy."

The words and her tone she chose to use was always very unkind and harsh.

​I. Am. A. BABY! Are you thinking that I would be able to understand what you are saying? Wahh, that is soooooo unfair!

Maybe this is it even for the real princess. Being an orphan in my previous life, I was grateful that I was born as a princess who had a gold spoon in her mouth, but... Why does it have to be a mistreated princess! Wahh!

I was an orphan.

An older girl from the same orphanage as I went to my past life once had told me that when I was a new born baby, I was wrapped in a piece of clothing and was laid there in front of the orphanage.

When I first heard those words was when I was a year before the age to enter the elementary school, February, and that older girl was at the age of 19, the age you'll have to leave the orphanage.

Since my mom didn't even give me a name, the head of the orphanage had used a phonebook (A telephone directory) to give me a name, 'Lee Ji Hye'.

When I heard that, I was like 'Okay, then.'. In the orphanage were a lot of kids who were just like me, and it was to late for me to feel the feelings for my absent mother. The eight year old kids from the orphanage weren't even a kid.

In the small, and barely fitting orphanage, I could only fight with the orphanage kids for food.

So when I thought of the older girl who had left the orphanage, it gave me a small bit of hope and excitement to leave this cr*ppy place.

However, reality was not something that can know of just by your imaginations. Even more so for an orphanage girl who doesn't even have money, and... well, anything! After leaving the orphanage, there was nothing I have not done to earn money. I've washed dishes until my hands went numb, and I've also worked at a gaming centre where there were cigarette smokes all over the place.

I've eaten out-of-date Korean sushi and had worked in the superstore. Not only that, I've washed cars under the burning hot weather and even got a heatstroke.

I've dreamed of living as a normal student, like study and go on a date, but as for me, I didn't really have time to spare. I've only worked my life off, so I couldn't even set my gaze off my work for just a second.

Wow, there's really no hope for me. In the winter, I was scrammed inside my unheated house, shivering from cold and thought of stuffs like that.

The very next day, I had work in the midnight but couldn't even sleep because it was cold. If this were the case, the summer was much better. I was worried I would get frostbite if I slept in this state.

But while living, it wasn't just once I've stayed like this. It's been like this for days after days.

Leaving me with no choice, I've ended up begging the landlady and had the sleeping pill I've gotten the day before. The sleepiness made me leave all my worries.

And\~ when I opened my eyes, I was a princess.

***

"Abwa."

Today was the same as any other days. For the whole day, I ate, pooped, and blankly stared at things. I was still confused if this was reality or just a dream. Our beautiful princess Atanasia."

What's fortunate is that there weren't only bad maids, but good ones too.

I smiled at the maid shaking the bell, playing with me. She was a young and beautiful maid with brown hair and pure blue eyes. She looked to be at the age of early 20s, and it seemed like maid who will care for me this month is this girl right here.

Why don't I have a nanny but a maid when I'm a princess? Pfft! That's because I was this certain mistreated princess.

"You should grow quickly and healthy."

She was so beautiful that when I first met her, just staring at her face would make my head go blank and drool. The innocent maid's name was the majestic Lillian. Ah, just how well her name fits this extreme beauty! So I (mentally) call her Lilly for short. It's awesome to have a maid with such a beauty who would make people staring at her mind go blank. Sigh, isn't this already a successful life.

"Uwa, bah."

But calm sadness had eventually filled Lilly's face who was looking at me. Oh no, it felt like my heart was ripping into pieces when I stared at such a beautiful girl in front of me to look this sad. When Lilly looked at me, she would be reminded of something and would frequently make that face.

Sister (Korean people call any older people either sister or brother.), don't make that kind of face. You look the best when you smile.

"My my, princess. It's time to sleep."

But the happiness was just for a moment, by Lilly's statement, I ended up struggling in disagreement.

Telling me to sleep when the sun is up there in the sky, still very energized! Even though I felt sleepy when I had already slept for very long because I was a baby, this was a different situation. Play with me more. It's too boring here.

"No way. You'll only grow up young and healthy when you eat your foodies and sleep soundly."

My struggle did not work. Looking at me playing with the bell under her own soft 2 hands, she once again smiled.

"Lillian!"

At that moment, a voice was heard out of the room. That maid always do that. I'm weak and small so I get 'surprise surprise' easily! Lilly, who also heard those words, had wrinkles form between her eyebrows. Her hands that were gently patting my chest in case I got scared made me feel good.

"Princess Atanasia, I'll go out for a moment and will come back soon."

I waved my hands on purpose of signalling have a nice moment. Even so, it will look like I'm struggling in her eyes. Sniff.

​Left alone, I rolled my eyes that were staring at the celling while lying down. I looked around the gorgeous room, and observed the patterns on the celling. Moving my eyes over more and more, the sparkly furnitures and decorations entered my eyes.

I was always curious when I saw them, but are those real golds? I'll have to try biting them later when my teeth grows. It's another story if I still am alive by then of course.