My name is ai, im a half japanese and half filipino, my dad left me since i was 4yrs old and my mom was the only one who take care of me and my siblings, my mom already had an new husband and daughter but of course she still take care of me and my siblings and im happy that we had a new sibling.

Im a 2nd year college with a course of accountancy, actually i dont know why, but my reason before when i was in highschool i want this course because i love money (such a weird reason)

When i was in highschool i live in my grandmother in province and now im here with my mother because schools here in the city is good thats why my mom decided to bring me here in city with them

I have an part time job to help mom. I work in a cafe and i have a friend there her name is lyne, we both really loves anime, but we cant accept that we cant marry a fictional character :((

Im here at the cafe doing my work, its weekend i dont have classes.

Lyne: hey look...a couple, how can they even do that in front of usss :((

Ai: stop it you're just lonely idiot.

Lyne: what???? You're also lonely, arent you jealous?

Ai: why would i? Being inlove will hurt you in the end

Lyne: how could you tell that? Did you experience being inlove?

Ai: of course

Lyne: Really? How could you? Why you didnt tell me -~-

Ai: Why would i?

Lyne: tell me pleasee!! Please please pleaseee!!!

Ai: okok fine

Lyne: so when was it?

Ai: i was in highschool, 3rd year highschool....

When i was in highschool someone courted me, i was 16 years old, he is a nice guy we are really ok, we are happy, he treated me like a princess, i tell him that can you wait until im ready?, he said "yes, i promise i will wait until you're ready", thats my first time that someone really is serious to me, i fell inlove to him, i love him but... im not ready for a relationship, but im not worrying that he will give up because he promised that he will wait... i talk to him "hey do you know before i really hate guys haha, i saw my mom how broken she was when dad left, i dont want to experience that, im scared to be like mom...thats why i really hate boys, but its crazy that i fall inlove to you...i dont know why, its just you're the first boy who made me experience what does feel being treated well and you're the first boy did the things i deserve that my dad didnt do, so thankyou i really appreciate it*.... i fall inlove so hard to him. After 5months i slowly becaming ready to say yes to him, but...... he ghosted me, i beg to him to answer all my question in text why he left without saying anything...i was so broken, until one day i stop texting him i accept that he got tired of waiting, but after 3months he texted me, he wants to continue courting me...but i refuse i didnt say yes, i havent moved on from our past, i still dont accept all what he did, i believe what he said but all what he said was a lie.... its 8months already that i finally move on, i was happy...but after that i didnt get a new boyfriend i got really traumatized.

Ai: so now you ok?

Lyne: but you didnt ask him what was really the reason why he left

Ai: why should i need to ask?, he left and thats the final it was still wrong...

Lyne: so wasteful, i hope you will meet him again.

Ai: what? Why should i need to meet him again?

Lyne: closure is the key ai.

Ai: but why do i need that? To get hurt again? No way girl

Lyne: ai its good, you really need to talk to him about that.

Ai: no, its been 4yrs. Im just 16 yrs old that days

Lyne: did you really already move on?

Ai: huh?....of course.

Lyne: then why you cant even talk to him?

Ai: *silent*

Lyne: see, *sign* you're really idiot

Ai: lets just go back to work.

To be continue...