Liv looking back on her reflection on the photoframe with polaroid photo in it,that she hold tight.It was last night's farewell dinner party with her cabaret friends,working in the entertainment industry it's her favorite.Even though it was tiring,depressing,mentally challenging,but atleast she met a lot of people even the famous ones along the way,that can help her career.Being a sudden superstar here in the UK is not only an achievement for her but she make a history.

But now it's the right time for her and of course she's ready to start her new journey,and find her freedom.Where is she going?what's her next step?we'll know where she's heading.

Liv put last night's photo into her bag,and take all her belongings and ready to head downstairs.Liv is dropping a tear from her eyes,this appartement already been a witness for what she's going through everyday,now it's time for her to say goodbye,she realize its time to go,now.Because her heart is already hurting and she's kinda getting out of breath.

While dragging her suitcase and bags,now she head downstairs with mini lift that facilitates this small simple appartement ,liv arrives at the ground floor in this not so mega big apartment.It's a simple,homey,comfy small apartment around north london.She smiles towards this small apartment owner mrs.polly.

"Everything's done?"mrs.polly trying to help bethany checking her things.

"Yes mam"

Mrs.polly looking at liv with a proud and sad eyes.

"Be careful okay,don't you forget about me and this whole place.comeback if you can"

"I will miss.Thankyou for everything,your hospitality i just can't express it how thankful i am towards everything here"

"Me and my crew will miss you,so take care okay."

Liv nods and smile while holding back her tears.

"But miss,can i ask you a favor?"

"Sure,what is it my dear?"

"I want you to keep my unit,maybe for a year forward don't give it to someone else first,can you do it miss?i pay if it needs a monthly renewal payment"

"No,no need darling.Because you don't use any electricity and water at all while you're gone so that's fine.I'll keep your unit for a year forward"

"Thankyou so much mrs.polly for everything.I will not forget about you"

Then they hugged each other after Liv hand her the key.

"Remember,be who you are,chase your dreams.But don't forget to come home,especially to your parents back in indonesia"

"I will miss,i will. Don't forget about me"

Then they hugged each other again for one last time.

Until liv's phone is beeping means that her uber driver is here to take her to the heathrow airport.

"Goodbye mrs.polly,thankyou for everything"

"Take care sweetheart"

Liv let go of mrs.polly's hand and start to drag her suitcase and carry her bag,and head outside the apartement.

The uber driver's helping her to put her suitcase and bag on the backseat.While liv take a glimpse to this clasic small apartement that she put so many good,bad and weird memories there.Not wanting to tearing up so bad,liv immedieately get in the car,and drive on to her dream destination.

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Disclaimer:all characters in this story is pure fiction,sorry for the wrong grammar,pronounciation,cringey moments,wrong of mentioning the places,locations,etc. Coz it's my first time making a story here, and also not all the locations in here is real some of them are straight up my imaginations. And it's pure my imagination.your like,comments,feedbacks,and supports means a lot to me,thankyou for reading❤️

Dubai,and that's the reveal for her destination.Why dubai?isn't dubai is the country with expensive living cost?isn't dubai is the country with the most controversy and awkwardness?and other roasting questions continues..Well since Liv has been struggling in her early young adult years until now,her bank account must be full of money.Liv is the type of girl and type of person who always think about her future.For her,future is the one who saves first and now she's saving her future.Well the point reason why she chose dubai is,she wants to experience her freedom,and wants to experience luxurious life like us do.Living in london for 5+ year,she only experience summer at june until september.With sand dunes and beaches in dubai,summer city is actually her interests especially she came from indonesia the country that placed on equator line,a tropical country.Living in london for the past 5 years,she already experienced so many cold causing sickness that makes her fed up so many times.Now it's the right time for her to enjoy her freedom,pamper herself,and being sunkissed.

But she's not only gonna stop in dubai,she will explore more of the middle east country or maybe the hot sunny summer country.She wants to be those traveller who always travel all the time,country to country non stop.So there is no time to settle down.

She wake up in the middle of the flight to a scent of hot steamy delicious rice box that the stewardess been bring all around the cabin eversince.

"Chicken biryani mam"

That stewardess was handing a little box of chicken biryani to liv.

"Thankyouu"liv thanked the stewardess

"And for the drink? We have wine,grape juice,apple juice,sodas.."so many offers the stewardess gave

"Apple juice is fine"

"Okay here you go,enjoy the lunch"

"Thanks"

Well,it's a 6 hour and 30 minute flight.Liv took off from the runaway around 9 am earlier,and now it's already lunch time,so maybe afternoon is around the corner.

Ever since the plane took off,Liv only sleeps during the whole flight,because last night she barely get enough sleep it was too emotional and too excited to sleep for her.She now eats her lunch while entertain herself with the little entertainment screen infront of her that sticks into the front passenger's seat,watching a movie while eating.

Then she looked at the sky from the window,it's a clear blue sky in late february 2020,she thought maybe this plane is already leaving the cold,rough european area.

Touchdown,then safely landing.As the plane safely parked,all of the passenger stand up and open the small baggage in the cabin,she only taking her bags from the small baggage and checking everything once again on her seat because she's one of those clumsy person, she's afraid she leave anything precious here.

After going down stairs from the plane and taking the buss to the airport it just feel surreal. Everything seems so unreal,as she looked around,and to other passenger's face they seem happy with their families, partners, friends,etc or passenger's face who sticked to their phone because of their work or they're chatting with their loved ones, or passenger who just look around confused amazed and lonely just like her, came here all alone and amazed feeling unreal because they really here in this beautiful, big, and luxurious city.

As soon as the buss reached the airport she quickly grabbed her stuff,and get off from the buss like the other passenger did.This is the rough part, because dubai airport is so large and wide she wait for her luggage almost 30 minutes wich is very tiring, she's lack of sleeping, she thought as soon as she got into her hotel,she will have a good rest.

This also her bad decision, she rejected the hotel pick up service that she'll have to pay 20 dirhams extra,and she have to use the karim or uber apps that she just have downloaded recently after she get her sim card,and the price of the uber or karin apps is even more expensive from the hotel pickup service.

Which is also a waste of time,she should've been checking into her hotel 5 minutes ago.Finally she found the driver that will take her to the hotel.she's staying at hilton dubai, which is one of the best hotel in dubai rated by booking.com,it is actually worth it. She stayed there for 5 days and then she will move to another hotel, she also already got breakfast service for those 5 days.

After trying to figure out how to use the karim app,finally after a few steps of signing up to the app with her gmail account finally she can get a cab driver to her hotel. Mr ahmed it says on the app the one who's gonna take her to the hilton hotel.

Its kinda struggle too,because dubai airport is very wide and in the pick up section is very crowded, so she have to come up to mr ahmed's parking place which is kinda far from where i am but its okay.

After get into his car and leaving the airport, her eyes were glimmering with building lights,she even can't take her eyes off the street.

After 25 minutes of this online taxi ride finally she reached her hotel, the driver Mr. Ahmed told her a lot about dubai,if she want to spend her money on luxury stuff she should do this, and if she want to save a lot of money on this dubai trip she should to do that.He's very informative person with a little bit of his decent arabic accent he told her about himself that he's from iran and has been working here in dubai about 15 years.Such a nice and cool guy,very friendly too.

And they exchange information about each other,she gladly introduce herself not really intimate or private introduction,where she tell her private information or what,but that kind of introduction that makes people that you talking to feel comfortable and welcome chatting with you. It was really an enjoyable ride.

She pay him about 25 dirhams and gave him a tip too,not too much but not too less. He already gave her a pleasure ride and welcoming to this beautiful city,so liv want to make sure that he had a nice day, after going through some several check in steps she finally got into her room in this beautiful hilton hotel.

This is all she wanted, nice big wide room with so many new and elegant stuff in it.She haven't unpacked so much yet, after taking a nice shower and changing her airport ootd wannabe into her nighty night soft dress satin pajama and fell asleep in this big comfy bed.

She woke up with the view of dubai's city light shining and sparkling through her hotel window view. And she thought to herself that she's really living in her dream life now, when she look up to her phone wondering what time is it, its 8:30 PM she arrived here in the hotel about 5:30 or 6:00 PM something.And after unpack her stuff and doing her shower she fell asleep. Now she woke up with an amazing view, and she decided to go for a walk.

Cause dubai is a hot city with 35+ degrees temperature until 50 of max temperature.But luckily today when she arrived at the dubai airport it was only 40 degrees,and now because its a nightime the temperature is kinda cooling down so the temperature now is about 35-36 degrees.

With only her sporty black hotpants and with black top and putting a little bit makeup on her face and brush her hair to make it look neat,and she's ready to explore dubai city in night.Because her hotel is near the beach the marina walk, the beach is surrounded by hotels, malls, big buildings.

First she look around the hotel checking the big pool, the gym with so many complete equipment, the parks and other amazing spot in this hotel, she even chat a lot with the staff while having a look around,they really gave her a detail information about each and every place.

Until she realized that she left the hotel to took some fresh air at 9:30.But you know its dubai the darker and the more late you've been,it's even more crowded and fun.

She entered one of the malls near her hotel area, because her hotel is surrounded by so many malls, she is in a literal confusion.People go here with their families, wife or husband,or maybe their sugar daddy or sugar mommy?.

Her?she's totally alone and confused,inside this mall there are many high end luxurious fashion brand. But her intention to go here was not buying an expensive stuffs. Not that she don't have any money, she'll do that later. So she go to one of the mall's restaurant amd try some emarati cuisines,and she realised that she haven't eat anything yet since she got here in dubai.

So she eat a lot until she got kinda full and feeling guilty for chewing those lamb fats.

She tried lamb kofta, chicken kebab, mutton rice, it was all so good. Then she arrived at the sephora for buying my makuep and skincares here, she's actually planning to settle down in Dubai about 3 weeks or maybe if she got comfortable she'll try to live here,she still don't know her plans yet but just in case. And If it's okay for her mentally, physically, and financially,she'll move here permanently.

After exploring this huge wide mall, an hour later she already arrived in her room in this huge, wide, hotel. And at the end of the day with her brand new skincares that she just bought and her tummy is already full, she's going back to a nice sleep again.

After last night's stroll down around this hilton hotel having a free guide to explain each spots in this wide huge hotel, and got a chance to visit one of the huge mall near this hotel. The next morning, she wake up late around 8:30AM,because last night she's awake at dawn around 4:00 AM feeling amazed and out of words by the beauty of dubai city through this window in her room. Taking some photos of it and update it on social media, it was like lucid dreaming, imagine waking up in the middle of the night and seeing the beautiful city that never sleeps.

All of her hardworks really pay off.In indonesia she was having a hard time finding her true self, then fortunately she got her dream postgraduate bachelor in London majoring international relation.living in the UK as an imigrant from southeast asia is not easy for her. Even though the government already paid for your university dorm, health insurance,etc but outside that you have to struggle yourself. She was in  Essex university that's the college that she studied for post graduate studies,she's also applying job as a waitress in one of the cafes near the college with the salary amount 250 pounds per month maybe this kind of salary for a waitress in indonesia is huge. You can be a succesfull waitress in indonesia, a rich waitress with a lot of salary. But in the UK what will you do with 250 pounds in the big,wide and expensive city and also the capital city of the uk, capital of england, the no1 most visited european country.

And the behaviour of the boss there and some of the coworkers are very toxic and rude, she's actually an introvert who enjoys her solitude,but she's glad that she always forced herself to socialize and most of the time works .at that time she have 4 friends 1 who also work as a waitress and 2 chefs who cooks the food.They shared each other struggle almost everyday but eventually she stopped working there after 4 months. Even though keeping and collecting 250 pounds salary permonth is fun but, deep inside her heart it's not enough,she had that dream job that's far more good than this.

So she left her job as a waitress because she knew and she believe that she had that dreams that is bigger than this.

In her college she had so many musician friends,the professional ones and the amateur ones.She always attended their gigs, their event and stuff. And that moment she knew,that this is something that she really wants,performing,digging to her old dreams that she's been burried long time ago,she wants to be a singer.Her friend's lead singer in his band were quitting because there are some issues going on between them,When they're about to perform again without the lead singer, he looked at her who was on the crownd, and asked her if she could sing with them that night.At first she refused because she was shy and had her low self esteem,but she thought about it again why you won't give a chance? So that night she sang with her friends and her friend's band.The moment she release a voice from her mouth,the crowd went crazy,it was a memorable moment for her,and a moment that change her life.

After that amazing show she became the lead singer for the band for few months but eventually that band is about to disband. The drummer wants to focus on his real life's job, the keyboardist having a misbehaviour so we got into an argument a lot with him.

So after 5 month performing the band disbanded, but her friend thomas who's the band leader. He signed her a contract with his small trusted recording company.Her childhood dream really came true,she really became a singer after a year living in the UK,who will thought that the dream that is always impossible suddenly came true.

Not really that popular singer,she's an indie singer with old skool 70s,80s,90s and 2000s touch and style,music with genre such as rock,slow rock,pop,ballad,and sometimes jackswings and other upbeat genre. Some of her debut songs charting in the UK chart,a great start and wonderful accomplishment for a girl that came from southeast asia like her, she had that star moment where there's interviews,invitation to radio,podcasts,talk shows,magazine etc.She's much well known in the UK and country near UK.Even though her music career went up and down,but she's still enjoying this career plus she got lovely lovely fans from everywhere all around the world.

But with unstable music career she can tell that she's sometime also underpaid. Sometimes per month she lost track of her income and salary. There are one time that she's been not inactive in the showbiz industry and her salary is only 150 pounds. Like what can you get for a living with that money in london!? So its a hardwork for her as a college student and then becoming a musician she have to be smart managing her time carefully. She always practicing upgrading her lyrics writing skill, poetry writing skill,guitar, drum, and keyboard skill to produce so many good musics. And the next level thing that she do is she also joined a dance class,she worked really hard on dancing about 3 months she's been through level in that dance studio as a student and intermediate dancer,so after her 3 months of intense practicing she can make her own coreoghrapy for her next song.

The more she looks at the light of the city in dawn hours like this,she also had thoughts about a boy whom she used to date in her early freshman year as a postgraduate student.A boy name Edward from china,they are the same age,they had so many similarities, sharing so many thoughts,etc.Even though they had different type of interest in music,but they appreciate each other's type of music and try to appreciate each other's differences,just like lana del rey's lyrics in her song blue jeans that went "you were sorta punk rock,i grew up on hip hop,but you fit me better than my favorite sweater" but make it switch between liv and Edward.She met her in college's basketball field,she was just walking around the campus on a cold december day,when her eyes caught on a charming handsome asian boy playing the basketball with few of his friends with full of joy.Then Edward himself realize that he's been watched by someone,and caught liv's eyes.Liv was making an excuse and lied that she only watch his match because its fun,then edward having a chitchat with her in that talk they reveal what they're majoring.Since Edward knew that Liv is majoring international relation,edward often visits liv in her faculty even though their class hour is not the same,Edward was majoring in film.They spent their time together more and more,until one day Edward confess his love for her,they became a lovebird for a year.Everything was fine but went downhill a year after their relationship edward became more aggressive towards liv,almost break the woman inside her with forces even though liv already saying no,and most importantly cheat on liv with a woman,when he's back in china his hometown.

Liv's heart does broken.For her,Edward was her best ex even though in the end he was toxic,after her relationship with Edward ended she still date a lot of man afterwards but,no one can make her feel good like when she's with Edward.She did everything she could to erase Edward from her head besides making music,performing,and dancing.She also joined theatre club,and sometimes took an internship at random offices.Her obsession with self distraction reach to being unhealthy intoxicated herself,until there's one moment where she almost end her life because she can't take those pressure anymore.One of her friend help her to make sure everything will going to be okay.sooner or later things really get better her music career growing again,she became recognized by the public,the UK medias again and it was last year in 2019,she got a chance to tour and travel in that year also in some countries,after touring is where she find the passion to go solo travelling.Seeing the world alone,or maybe with some friends must be a beautiful thing that can happen in her life,so she left her music career for a while and will be back if she ever feel satisfied with her travelling experiences in the future.

Liv was done collecting that memories by watching the dreamy city light on dawn while putting sad musics on her earphone that she plugged in her ears,memories does gone away and we can't collect all back and even do it again.But liv was excited for her new journey as a solo traveller,and her hard works really pay off while she's hustling in london,her bank account is fat now.So she's exited for her upcoming adventure