A new beginning in my life.. It begins here.. I just finished my first board exam kinda stress free but not actually.i just had a break up with my 2 years of love . Not like other ex's he is pretty good guy. he never hurted me also he never talked to me.. Sad truth.. He is too shy and scared.. What am I supposed to say.. Having a boyfriend and acting like single.. It doesn't suit me.. and my break up story is more funny.. I broke up with him during my 2nd day of my period and guess what he just agreed to break up like the 2 year was nothing. Still not blaming him. Cause he was such a green flag but he don't know how to express. well that love story ended there... with 3 days of crying secretly and having everyone block on my phone.. not talking to anyone for few weeks getting angry for no reason everything changed me.

But the change was for some good... I began my new journey with some new hobbies such as writing Stories, reading stories, cooking etc..

back to story...

I entered my first year of high school.. It was great but alone.. the first day I thought I will find something new but everything was same. I found some friendship in male.. As for female they remained as always my old group of friends. Talking in back , complaining about me to others etc...

I was so tired of my school life and it was just the beginning of the year and one day....

at middle of the July, a brown skinned guy with sparkly eyes plumpy lips average height but perfect height for me coz I am short hehe... and some veins on his arms...(duh 🔥) even though his imperfections looked hot af. his pimples.. His acne they look good on him actually (I must be crazy) still he was so hot looking.. Came into our class.. And he is our new student.. New student hehe... I know you know we all know 😉..

One of my seat mate asked me if I am looking for a new guy after tht break up.. And I answered her " no girl... I can't do that .."

"Well what do you think about that boy.. New student?" she asked.. And I answered her that " he looks like some dried fish.. eww I don't like him"... The first bullshit I have done to fool myself to stop myself from falling for him but for what purpose.. huh...

That day he came.. We had a language class.. And we both choose the same class.. Then after only I knew he is one of the new students ex boyfriend.. shitty things happens every time to me... and my friend was curious to get know his love story and our teacher was absent so it was a free period.. my group of friends and he and his friend talked to each other... Meanwhile I was hearing everything they were talking...

A SMALL CONVO I HEARD

FRIEND: so she cheated on you??

HIM: who told you guys that? I am not comfortable talking about it now..

Friend: well sorry but you deserve better

Him: don't be sorry to me..

Friend: are you not sad ? She left you with other guy

Him:I am happy for her.. She found her true one so I let her have her happiness and decision

This convos somehow hitted me like an arrow in my heart...

All those time I was silent and then i talked to him

Me: you will get a girl like diamond..cause you deserve it boy..

Him: thanks but if I get a diamond I will treasure her

Sheeshhh .. Boy stop... I started blushing... But whyyy!!!?!?!?!

Well guys that's all for today's episode hope you guys like it

After the Convo between us.. I was so curious to get to know him hehe.. And yes the second I reached home.. I took out my phone and started to look for his instagram and guess what I actually found it!! And I send him a message *hey bro I am ____ , can u follow me*

And after few hours he followed me. that's where it all started..

We talked to each other every day.. One day he got drunk.. And I was texting him.. He was crying.. He was talking.. He was sad.. He said to me that... "He got no one and no one will like me but why are u always here with me.. I hate it" he said.. And out of consciousness I replied to him that *I LIKE YOU*. even the drunk got sober... I was embarrassed.. Wait even I was not sure.. That I LIKE HIM...

And He showed up to class.. The Next day.. I avoided him.. So did he... Dumboo.. After school, on my way to home.. He asked me to explain.... I got nervous cause his one hand is holding my hand.. I shaked my hand.. He let go of my hand . I didn't answer for a while... i was standing leaning on the wall nearby the bus stop.. And he came next to me keeping one hand on the one side of the wall and looked at my eyes.. I saw the eyes... That's something special I felt and I started to blush his friend asked me why are u so red?? Nothing I said but there was something that no one knew that is I was so in love with him!!!

Like that few days passed.. I found out that he lied to me about his new relationship... I hated that but still I love him.... But I don't... I remained silent for everything that had happened to me.. And all of a sudden... He has disappeared for months.. Even though I was worried about it.. I acted like I have no worries and later his friend and I became close and I asked his frnd about him and he replied that he got his arms broken.. hearing it made me feel sad .. And at that evening after I reached home I called him and guess what.. the talk was only for 5 min..

That made me realise that I would never love a man again... And few days later he messaged me.. Saying sorry for lying and I am sorry for hurting ur feeling u are a good friend of mine let's remain as friends hope you understand he said and he added some sentences in it..

And WE BROKE UP ME AND HER... SHE GOT ANOTHER GUY...

that thing made him feel bad meanwhile I got some hope but didn't wanna be in relationship.. I am good.. I said to myself.. But foolish me having hope on it... No way.. I am not going to be in relationship.. The double mind of mine made me so confused..

that's it for todayy!!!!