"How do you like that!?"

He kept kicking and kicking me. Each kick send a sharp pain through my body. The gravel rough gravel beneath me scraped my skin. I'm on the ground covering and protecting myself. He knelt down, grabbed my shirt, made me stand and spat on my face.

The air tasted metallic, filled with the sting of dust and the scent of fear. Each time he kicked me, a gust of air rushed over my face, carrying with it the echo of his and his friend's laughter. The pain was sharp and immediate, a searing fire that radiated from my ribs to my spine. It wasn't just physical. It was a deep, gnawing ache that seemed to seep into my very soul.

"Didn't I tell you yesterday to get me some money!" He shouted at my face

"I-Im sorry, I overslept and started rushing around and forgot to get my money" replied

"Is that so?"

He threw me to the ground and stomped on my face.

"I am going to give you another chance, and if you still didn't give me money, I am going to kill you!"

He lifted up his feet from my face, letting me go.

"Let's go boys" he ordered his friend

They started walking away to school, laughing at me. Damn, my uniform got dirty. I stood up, patting the dirt and dust off my clothes. I continued walking on my way to school, I took a plant's leaf nearby and wipe off the spit.

If only, IF ONLY. I could fight back, but I can't. I AM A FUCKING COWARD.

"Ooooiii, Kent!" A familiar voice, shouting my name running towards me

I looked behind, it was Aya, one of my classmates. Dark-haired and small, and a cute and good personality, that's all I could say about her. The fuck does she want from me. She arrived at me and went to my side.

"What happened to you? There's a small wound on your face" she said

"It's just nothing, I accidentally cut myself" I replied

"It's those bullies again right? Just report them to the principal!"

"It won't do, it will make it even worse"

"Then fight back"

"I can't, I am a coward"

"Then-"

"Then can you shut the fuck up!"

She went quiet, she just won't stop talking.

"I'm sorry about that, I have to go now, there's a lot of projects I have to do. And please don't be absent today" she said and ran

Why does she even talk with me? On the first day of school, she saw me and started talking with me out of nowhere. Even tho our subject, my subject, or her subject is finished, she continued talking making a new subject.

Even how much I talk harshly to her, she still talks to me. Hmmm...... Fight back? Fight..... Back.......... Oh, I see. If I fight back, I show them that I can still hurt them. Even if I still

lost in the fight, I still have shown that I can still hurt them. Their own slave hurting them.

Haaaah, thanks Aya for the advice.

"Hey, you over there?" A booming voice called

I looked to my right, a shady adult male guy wearing a coat mentioning me to come to him. I went to him, his face was hidden beneath the shadows of a wide-brimmed hat, I can't see a single skin on his face. He was tall and thin, his clothes worn and patched. What's with those clothes? And why did I even come to him?

"I could see that you are being bullied by looking at those wounds, bruises and your condition" he said to me

I remained silent, he took out a vial bottle out of his pocket and showed it in front of my face. There's liquid inside it colored red, it looks a little bit sticky The vial, a dark, glass cylinder, looked heavy in his hand. It seemed to pulse with an inner light, the red liquid inside swirling like a miniaturized storm.

"You want to get revenge to them right? Drink this, this will give you strength and help you get your revenge" he said to me while shaking the small vial

"And how can I trust you?" I asked

"Why would I give you a vial after saying that I know you are getting bullied? How did I know that you are getting bullied? And I was also bullied when I was young. And I know you want to get revenge, right?"

Hmmmm, that is not enough and a stupid reason and might even have poison in it. But, strength or death, I don't care.

I took the vial from his hand and shook it, a little sticky like a slime like a little weak sticky. My heart is beating fast.

Strength or death

"I gave it some sweetness for it so that it will taste more better than being sour" he said

I opened the lid

My heart continued beating fast, I will accept the strength no matter what it cost. But if death or poison, I will accept the pain just at least I would die and leave this cruel world.

"And remember, a few hours later after drinking it. You will feel a strong discomfort, headache and a lot of sweat since you can't just get power for free without feeling pain. And don't worry, the discomfort will last for 3 minutes and the strength is all yours. Since you are going to school, go to the bathroom and hold the discomfort there. Yeah, comfort room if you get me" he added

Discomfort, headache, sweat, I hope this will be worth it. I raised the vial, tilted my head upwards and started pouring the liquid from the vial to my mouth. The taste, tasted like candy. The aroma, also smells like candy.

I drank it all down and gave him his vial back. I suddenly felt dizzy for a moment and the dizziness went away.

"You may go now and get your revenge, no need to say thank you. I was just like you so I want to help you" he said

I said farewell to him and started going to school. Seriously? Strength from that liquid? Is that even make sense? Nah, that guy was just out of his mind. To be honest, the drink he gave me was tasty, I want more.

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"And then, 3+2x-34. Now your turn, 1 whole sheet of paper"

We took out a whole sheet of paper. I still haven't felt any discomfort for the past few minutes. I started answering what the teacher wrote on the board.

"May I borrow your eraser?" A guy asked

I nodded and handed him my eraser. He looked at me with a smile, then into a worried face.

"Uuuuhhhh, are you okay?" He asked

"Is there something wrong?" I asked

"You are..... sweating a lot"

I suddenly start feeling discomfort around my body, and a very very strong headache. Wait a minute, is it..... Did the vial really give me these conditions? Even how sweet it is, this is what it gives me? I shouldn't have drunk it.... No, Strength Or Death, I chose death.

I stood up and went to the teacher

"May I go to the bathroom?"

"Ye- uhhhhh, are you okay?"

"Y-yes ma'am"

"You sure you don't want to go to the nurse office?"

"Okay, I can go to the nursing room for a check-up"

"You may go"

I went out of the classroom and rushed to the bathroom. Shit shit shit shit shit! It...... Hurt so much, the headache, the discomfort, the pain inside me. I leaned my front body on the wall to make my body a little more comfortable.

A lot of my sweats drop to the floor. I waited for it to be gone, it felt endless. The sweat stung my eyes, the pain inside, is like combining all the damages the bullied gave me for the past 5 years.

The headache was gone, the discomfort is gone, my body is good again. What the hell was that? But now for the truth, did it really gave me strength? I punched the wall, I just hurt my fist and didn't even do a single damage on the wall. Wait, why?

The guy said it will give me strength, I punched the wall again, I didn't do a single damage. I am starting to get angry.

That......... WAS NOT!

*thud*

FUCKING!

*thud*

WORTH IT!

*thud*

I hit the wall 3 times. That thing gave me hell and I didn't get anything! Fucking shit! I just walked back to my classroom and went to my seat.

"That was fast, did you really go to the nursing room?" My teacher asked

"Yes ma'am, it went away for a second" I replied

I looked at my paper

"I'm sorry that I got your ID from your bag, so you have to get it from me outside the school campus"

It's written on my paper. I know this handwriting. I looked at the bullies I know in this room, they are smiling at me evily. How can I even attract so many bullies? And why do they keep on picking on me, and I really need that ID if I want to get in this school tomorrow, next time, I will take it with me all the time.

I crumpled the paper and put it in my pocket. I continued answering the question. Hmmmm.

Log 3^x + Log 3^y - Log 3^z

Hmmmmm, Log then, uhhh, Log 3 then, uhhhhh.

"Open parentheses" a voice nearby, he has a similar voice as mine, but in my mature voice

Huh? I looked around, there was no one looking at me.

"I am not around you little shit, I am inside you" the same voice again

What!? I looked around again, there was no one looking at me to talk to me

"You little shit! I will say it again I am inside of you speaking with you!" The voice yelled

No one doesn't look to be disturbed by the voice, it sounded really close.

"How can I communicate with you?" I thought, thinking that's how to communicate with the voice

"Now that's more I like it, yeah, you are talking to me now. And just as I said before, next is open parenthesis"

I wrote the open parenthesis

"Then, x•y over z then close parenthesis then finished"

I did what he instructed

"Good, it was really fucking easy. I know you're smart but you are not sure about your answer. I know how to solve it by tickling your brain and getting knowledge from it"

Wait a minute, the vial really worked but not what I expected. But seriously? Something talking with me inside me? Don't tell me the strength is a talking inner of me telling me what to do like in a fight which way where I dodge.

So, it is real but what I want is real strength, not someone to guide me. He continued helping with the answers. We checked our paper, my paper came back to me.

45/45 :)

45 out of 45 with a happy face, it's a perfect score!

"Is there anyone who got a perfect score?" The teacher said

I raised my hand, I am the only one raising.

"Wait what? Let me see" Aya said and took my paper

They are just clapping for me.

"Okay pass"

We passed our papers to the teacher, well that was good but still not worth it.

"Hey, you there?"

"Shut the fuck up! I am sleeping!"

"Okay okay, sorry"

He can also sleep? And he have a very aggressive attitude.

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*RIIIIIIIIIIINNNNGGGGGG*

My ID, damn

"Hey, you can help me in a fight right?" I asked the one inside me

"Your name is Kent right? Hmph, Kent, more like Can't handle a fight" he replied

I was really right, why and how am I attracting a lot of bullies, even this dude is bullying me.

"C'mon! Please! There's someone going to fucking kill me!"

"And I..... Don't...... fucking..... care" he replied

Oh my.... What the fuck! You know what, just like morning, fucking fight back!

"So you have arrived" one of the bullies, named Jerome came to face me

He also has friends sitting and watching on the right. He took out my ID out of his pocket, swinging it.

"So, do you have any money for exchange?" He asked

I dropped my bag on the ground, I also took off my jacket, place it on my backpack and cracked my knuckles.

"If I beat you in this fight, you will give my ID back" I said to him

Jerome looked at his friends, they started laughing.

"You? Think you could win?" One of his friend said

"Oh, so you're fighting back now"

"After 5 years, you got the courage to fight?"

They started laughing again

"And if you lose?"

"I will double the money I pay tomorrow" I replied

"Hmmmmm, that's an easy money"

He threw my ID his friends, stretched and cracked his knuckles. We both went to our fighting stance. Our eyes signaled to start the fight. I ran up to him and swung my right arm to his face, but he dodged it. Fuck! This is a problem, he knows martial arts! But bad fighters have unpredictable attacks, and I will prove that.

I readied my elbow and hit his face, did I.... Really do it? I finally hit my bully! It felt so great! I swung my right arm again, but he caught my arm and elbowed me with his other arm. He carried me and slam me to the ground.

I stood up again, I charged again at and tried to kick him on the face, but he blocked it with his arm. He run up to me, hold me and put both of us to the ground. He went on top of me and started punching me.

"You are not impressing me" the dude inside me said

"I am trying" I replied

I raised my lower body up to make his upper body go down, I grabbed his head and did a headbutt on his head 3 times. I let go, pushed him out of the way and stood up.

"You motherfucker!" He shouted

He ran up to me and punched me on the jaw, I stumbled back.

"You are such a total shit" the voice inside said to me

"If you don't want to help me then shut up, this is my fight" I replied

Jerome again ran up to me and kicked me on the chest, the impact made me knock the air out of my lungs. I landed hard to the ground. I tried to stand again but Jerome kicked me on the stomach, making me reeling back to the ground.

I started to feel dizzy, I.... Cannot....... fucking breath, I am...... already...... Tired.

"You are such a weakling" Jerome said to me

"And I agree to that" the voice inside joined in

Jerome and his friend started laughing at me

"Your such a pathetic loser!" Jerome shouted and started kicking my side

This is it again, de javu. But it was worth it, I still land a hit on him, I showed him that I can hit back even if I..... Kent, was a weakling.

(Darkness)..................

"Are you giving up?" The voice inside me asked

"Hmm? Oh, yeah, yes... I.... Am giving.....up" I replied

"Wait, that's all? You are embarrassing me"

"What's the point? I already showed them, that I can fight back, was that enough?"

"You know what, I will help you. I don't want to get embarrassed because of you, but there is an exchange"

Huh? He is going to help me?

"You sure you are going to help me? And what is the exchange you need?"

"Yes, I am really going to help you. And the exchange I want, is panties"

"Okay, thank you that you are going to help me whaaaaat!? Panties!? But why?"

"To feed my hunger"

"How!!!!? And is there any other exchange you want!?"

"That's all, I want to eat panties"

"What even kind of exchange is that!? Even perverts don't have the balls to do that! Please! A different kind of exchange! And faster before Jerome damages or destroy my body!"

"Well then, sock thighs"

"Still! What kind of offer is tha-!"

"Just pin or put up a sock thighs in your room, seeing it make me imagine girls wearing it, feeding my hunger"

I..... Am going to cry.

"Now, you want me to help you?"

"Okay, okay"

"Let me posses your body"

"Let you posses my body? How!?"

"Just relax, take deep breaths, shut down your thalamus and I will gain your consciousness"

I took deep breaths, but the thalamus only shut down when we sleep. Okay, I will pretend to sleep. I relaxed as much as I could, I could steel feel the pain Jerome kicking me. I relaxed.......... It suddenly went dark, my vision is dark. I opened my eyes, I don't feel anything. I'm still getting kicked by Jerome but I don't feel anything.

I tried to move...... I can't move a single muscle.

"Hey! I am talking to yo-!"

*Thack*

My hand acted on its own, catching the incoming kick of Jerome. I started standing up, but I wasn't the one who controled my body. I faced Jerome, my mouth opened on its own.

"Hello there"

"Oh? You're still fighting back?" Jerome said

I let go of Jerome's leg and pushed Jerome away.

"Here it is, your body is all mine, I am so excited" the voice said to me

He really..... Did possess me, he can communicate with me. But where the hell really am I, I can still see, I still have my vision, my hearing. But I can't feel anything, I can only feel nothing but void.

But why can't I feel any pain? Does the voice only feel the pain when he takes over? Does he take full control of my body? I can't even move my arm if I want to.

"What's with that face you brat? And what's with the change of voice?" Jerome said

Jerome ran up to me and swung his right arm at me, the voice punched the incoming arm away and grabbed Jerome on the neck. The voice carried Jerome up and threw him to the ground.

The voice grabbed Jerome's leg and swung him to a nearby wall, then kicked him in the stomach, the voice held his leg pinning Jerome on the wall.

"What? You can still fight?" The voice said to Jerome

Jerome's friends started coming towards me, coming to help Jerome.

"Ooooohhhh, a 6 to 1 fight? Hey Kent, watch beat this motherfucker's" the voice said to me

The voice let go of Jerome, and face the other 5. The voice spread his arms, feeling majestic.

"C'mon, hit me" the voice said to them

"You, sure about this? Do you think my body can handle them?" I asked

"Our body, us, we, I don't care, no matter what body, I am strong"

One of them ran towards us and swung his arm, at a swift moment, we dodged it. A second one incoming and did a flying kick, also a swift moment, the voice dodged it. Then the third, trying to bash us with his shoulder, we dodge it in a fast moment.

Then the fourth, then the fifth, their attacks, was dodged like nothing but weak move attacks. All of them kept attacking both of us, kick, punch, the voice kept dodging it.

We dodge and dance around like the speed of an animal. They moved like a blur, a shadow that danced around the bullies. They attacked us like a storm and a swarm of bees. They tried to regroup, but each move was hesitant, their confidence shattered.

I just watched silently, my mind felt like a silent observer, watching this dude taking over my actions. I could see the shock on the bullies' faces, hear their gasps of fear, and feel the surge of power coursing through my body, but I couldn't feel the pain, I couldn't feel any sense of touch, I couldn't smell the aroma of the air.

No matter how they unite and how good their martial art skills are, we dodged it like nothing.

"That was impossible! How did he dodge that?!" One of them said

"You ready for the next round?" The voice asked me

"Ready for what?"

"Because it's our turn now"

There is an incoming kick to our face, we caught the leg and carried him and smashed him to the rough ground. We punched the other one in the face then kicked the other one coming towards us.

Jerome ran towards us, back in good condition. He came closer to us, we kicked him on the groin. He held his groin and fell to the ground.

"This... this is not me, but fuckin deserve it" I thinked while looking at Jerome on the ground

They continued attacking while we attacked and counter-attacked them with only one hand.

"Hahahahaha! I am enjoying this! This is it! This is just the beginning. The real fun is just getting started," the voice said out loud

The gasps of the injured bullies filled the air. We pulled the other one and kicked him in the stomach as hard as we could, making him fall to the ground. The others watched us in shock.

"He's... he's like a different person!" One of them said

"I've never seen anyone fight like this before"

"Who's next?" We asked

Their eyes were full of shock, they cowered in fear, their eyes darting around in panic.

"What? Are you all giving up?" We said

They threw my school ID to me, carried their friends and ran away. He wear our school ID and pick up our bags.

"And that's, how you fight" the voice said to me

"To be honest, you are awesome, what should I call you?" I asked

"I don't need a name" he replied

"Oh c'mon, you should have a name"

"I don't need a name"

We started walking, on the way home.

"Can I have my body back?"

"No"

"Wait what! Why?"

"I need the exchange"

"What excha- oh, yes but I can buy it myself"

"I don't trust you"

"Why? What do you mean you can't trust me!?"

"Because I said so"

"How can we even cooperate if you don't want me to show you! My trust! Mostly that we are in one body!"

"Don't worry, I will have your trust after buying what I want"

"Then, let's go home to get money"

He suddenly took out a wad of cash from our pocket.

"Where did you get that?"

"From those punks, while fighting them"

"Damn, you have fast hands"

We arrived to a big mall. There's a lot of people coming in and out, a lot of people talking. Cars beeping, car engine sounds. We can't smell a single aroma, but only the perfume and cologne of the passersby.

We entered inside, it is so much more noisy inside than the outsider. We started looking around, first floor, second floor. A lot of musics, a lot of people passing through, a lot of stores, a lot of food stands.

The smell makes me hungrier with each smell.

"Can we go buy some food?" I asked

"No, until we buy what I want and I will give you your body back"

I am being patient for this guy to find what he is looking for.

"Hmmmm, no, not good. This one? No, bad designs. This one? No, not good looking enough"

We were just looking around, and we found a women's clothes shop. We entered inside, there were a lot of girls around, and some girls were with their boyfriends. This is embarassing, but not as long as those guys are around.

"Hey, isn't that Kent?" Someone whispered

I looked to my right........ Oh shit, one of my girl classmate from school.

"Yes, it's him, but his face looks a little bit different, like a mature face. why is he in a women's clothes shop alone without a girl?" Her friend replied

"Can we make it fast and try to be hidden from my classmates" I said the voice

"Patience is the answer, just wait" the voice replied

"And wait, I her saying that our face is a little bit different. Do our face change when we swap?"

"No, I know how to make a mature face than you. Your face is always in a worried face and don't know how to make eyes more better"

We started looking around, the voice is searching for something.

"Ooooohhhh, I like this one" he said while picking up a pink panty

"Hey! What the fuck men! I thought we are only buying thigh socks!" I shouted

"I am sorry, but I can't just contain my hunger"

"Then can you please hide it! My classmates are around!"

"No need to panic, I got it all covered"

"You are not even covering it!"

He picked up 5 panties, we continued looking around, a sock thighs caught his eyes. A black and white striped sock thighs. Oh my shit, some people around the store are looking at us with different kinds of looks.

We took the striped sock thighs and went to the cashier. What the fuck! The cashier is a teen girl! The cashier scanned the items and put them in a bag.

"Thank you for buying, please come again" she said to us with a smile

We took the bag and went outside the store.

"Now, give me my body back" I said

"No, I want to eat"

"Then go buy in those food stands"

"Which one do you want?"

Hmmmm, which one do I want?

"I want a strawberry milkshake, a big burger and a potato fries"

"That's a lot but okay then"

He really bought all the foods I wanted, I was surprise. We went to a nearby bench and sat down.

"This is yours" he said while putting the foods I ordered on our side

"And.... This is mine" he said while opening the bags he ordered

"Wait, hold on, you are eating those here?" I asked

"What? You think you will be the only one eating here?"

"No, I mean, there are a lot of people going to watch you eat that. Can we like, go home or go somewhere for you to eat it?"

"I can't, I am very tired of going somewhere"

"Just please, go to the bathroom and eat it there"

"I don't want to, I want to eat it in a public place. I'm afraid of loneliness"

"Wait, you're afraid of being alone?"

"Yes, that's why I want to buy a sock thighs and pin it on the wall to make me think of girls using it and I will no longer feel like I am not alone"

Seriously? He is afraid of loneliness!

"But don't you feel embarrassed eating those in public?"

"Me? Embarrassed? No"

Wow, he said that after saying he is afraid of loneliness. He started to take out one of the panties.

"Wait wait wait wait wait, okay okay eat that in here but please, cover my face with the hood of my jacket just to make sure you are caught" I pleaded

"Our face and our jacket!" He shouted

He covered our face with the hood of our jacket, he took out a panty from the bag, crumpled it like paper to cover it all with our hands and secretly ate it. He swallowed it all, and started munching on it.

"Mmmhhhm, tasty" he said

"Wait a minute, do you think our body can handle eating a cloth?" I asked

"Yes, we have 2 identical organs in 1 body"

"I don't fucking believe you, that wouldn't make sense at all"

"Okay, as long as I am the host of the body, I can handle it. Hmmmmmhhmmm, very tasty"

Hmmmm, wonder what to ask

"Why can't you let me feel anything? Why don't I even get to feel pain?" I asked

"Wont it make sense!? You are literally good at logic but you don't know? It is not me why you don't feel anything when we switch, it's because we changed consciousness. You are just something in my mind while I am conscious and I feel pain or feelings. That's how it works"

"Why are you so obsessed with panties?" I asked

"I don't know, when I dug deep down on your brain and knowledge, I saw the panty food. So of course, neither do I know why I love it" he said and ate the 3rd panty

"Why are you afraid of being alone?" I asked

"I also don't know, when I hear the word "I am alone" gives creeps to me" he replied

Seems like he also doesn't know himself.

"Oiiiiii, Kent" a familiar female voice shouting my name

Oh shit, it's Aya

"Hey hey hey hey hey! Hide those panties! I shouted

He suddenly swallowed the 4th panty in our mouth and covered the bag, even with a hood, she noticed me!

"Kent! Can you hold this for a second? I'm going to the bathroom" she gave us her bag and ran to find the bathroom

"Okay, eat that last one before she comes!"

He hastily munched on the panty and took the last one.

"If only if it has been used" he said to me

"Just eat it!"

He swallowed and munched it as fast as we could.

"Yaaaawwn, that was such a tasty meal, I'm very sleepy. Okay, I can give you your body back but do not throw away these sock thighs okay?" He said to me

Okay okay, he is finally giving my body back, damn, it felt very lonely being a mind.

"How to switch again?" I asked

"Since I am the one controlling, I will be the one who will be shutting down the thalamus of the brain. When you feel like something is empty when we want to switch, occupy it, and you will gain the consciousness" he replied

He closed our eyes, I waited for something empty inside

........................

I feel something empty, I occupied it

........................

I opened my eyes and looked around, I could finally move. I raised both of my hands, I can move them, it felt so different after being in mind for a lot of hours. The bag with the socks thighs is still in my hands.

I hide my foods

"I'm back" Aya said while running up to me

She took her bag from me and sat beside me very closely.

"I didn't know you have a lover" the voice inside said

"One, she is not my lover and two, I thought you wer going to sleep!?" I replied

He didn't reply

"Hey! I know you are awake!"

............

He didn't reply

"Kent, this is the first time I saw going outside. Is there something and why?" She asked

"No, just nothing, I just... Want to" I replied

"After 5 years, you decided to fight back with the bullies. And you fought with them like with a lot of experience. Did you train for those 5 years?"

Wait, what the

"You were there?" I asked

"Yes, I was about to follow you because I want to give you a gift. I was stunned and just walked away and talking to you might get on your nerves because you are in heat"

A gift? He gave a wrapped up item, it smells new. I squished it, it felt squishy inside. It felt like a teddy bear or something, I could feel 2 hands and 2 legs.

"I should be going now, I need to go home. I was about to talk with after dismissal but I didn't. See you tomorrow" she said to me, jumpeoff the bench and ran

"Oh, she even gave you a gift, isn't that so cute"

"Hey! I thought you were sleeping!"

He didn't reply, this is the second time Aya gave me a gift. The last time is from Valentine's game, she game me a box of heart shaped chocolate and this time is a teddy bear.