Whenever it rained I used to think that someone is up in the clouds, who is in pain, who needs my help, who is asking me to help. Rain always brings a memory, a memory of the past, the present and the future. A memory that faded, a memory that is still, and a memory that is yet to come.

Rain has the power to control the world. Rain is just not some drops of water but also has a process. Like rain, we also have that pain that lies deep inside us. The pain that makes our eyes rain in the form of tears. The tears which we can't hold. The tears which were given by someone else. The tears which will never stop the beginning, The tears which are worth letting go.

After rain we capture a beautiful view that becomes a memory too. So, there is a flood inside you, let it flow all the memories that are no more needed. In life we are too busy to even lookup in the sky and watch the clouds but when it rains we manage time to look up, not because it's raining but to check when it stops raining. I've been waiting for the rain to come down to me and remind me about the memories. It's not easy when you are not the best, not perfect, and not capable of being called perfect. From life, I learned that we don't have to be perfect but we must be true to ourselves. My dad always said that it will happen when it's the right time and when you are ready. Life is just not a word of 4 letters but has the greatest meaning. Dad told whatever that happens with you is already written but one thing that you can always do is to give your best and to believe in what you are and who you are. Life becomes easier when you have someone to share how you feel like, to share the pages of your life.

It's been almost a year I'm away from home and I do miss everyone. I miss myself, it's been a year I met myself now I almost forget who truly I am. It's soo different here. I'm trying to be someone who I am not. I never wanted to be this way but time changes everything. Time has the power to change everything. Life takes you to an entirely new destination where you are confused about the happening.

When you feel that this is wrong for you to think and then react. One small step can make your life the best and also the worst. My life is connected with the past that I can't erase, the present where I am no more me and my future where I will forget my true self.

Every journey has a beginning.

The beginning which has an ending that depends upon your present actions.

I lived in a village surrounded by forest and waterfalls. Though living in a village I was quite and enjoyed to be alone. My name is Light. My mom gave me this name and told that I was the light of their darkness. I loved to watch the sky, the day view and the night view. I used to ask my dad about the stars. Whenever they moved I suddenly used to ask my dad "Dad look what's that??" And dad always told with a soft tone that's a comet ☄️☄️☄️. I was curious about them and wanted to know more about them. I was a high schooler and an average grade holder. I never did anything that made my parents think that I was wrong. I always made them proud.

After high school, my parents sent me abroad for my further studies. I felt glad to be in a new country and study their culture and history. I also needed to work as I was far from home and now I was a grown-up and able to handle at least my finance. I always had a book in my hand though I was not a topper but I always tried to do my best. My goals were getting good grades and also utilizing my knowledge in good works.

The crowd in which I never wanted to go now I'm lost in that crowd. Walking in that crowd never felt like me. I feel the pain of getting away from my family. Living on your own is something different but also sometimes hard. My teenage was normal I didn't even felt like it was my teenage. Teenage is that phase of life in which you need to know yourself and love yourself more. Teenage where you find someone who you can tell everything; a best friend. But I was alone all the times so my best friend was one and only me.

I learned things from my family, and my surroundings more than my school. I was also very interested in movies. Watching birds, stars, clouds were the best things I loved to do. I never spoke more.

We are always more than what we say. We say something and mean something else. We pretend to be someone who is something different. Someone who always pretends to be happy, pretends to be satisfied, pretends to be enough.

I did learn to fight for myself. But not always, it's hard to fight when the enemy is within you. We'll understand the meaning of love, family, friendship, failure, and a lot more when we grow up. We try to understand the world with our eyes, ears and our heart. We need to trust in what we see and to see the beautiful world we need to love ourself. I learned these things from my experience and someone who also taught me about everything that is hidden in the world.

The words said to me to be the light

of the world.

I'm here waiting for the blurred memory to be clear. I suddenly realized that I don't belong here. I've lived my whole life till today without really living and I've been wasting it and pretending to be someone else.

My Grandpa told me to live my life the way I want to. Those were his last words said to me. So I've decided to live my life rightly. The way which I once thought of coming true. I've decided to follow the path of my heart. I am sure I'm not gonna regret it. So then let's take a train and let's enter the world that I designed.

Dad " What we need to do to become a writer?" I asked. "Ohh you need to do a lot of research and read more books and it might take years and years, but if you have the dedication to be a writer nothing can stop you, your writing skills also should be good and you need to improve them dad said" Have you heard of J.k. Rowling? said, dad. No, I said. She is also a writer who struggled throughout her life, she believed in herself when no one did, her life was not easy. Her works were not published and she was said to quit writing. But no one knows where life takes you, her life took a turn and her book was published and now she is the most renowned writer in history. Do you know the names of her books?? "Dad said" again, It's Harry Potter. My mouth was wide open.

I was very small when I asked dad about being a writer and he told me about the struggles and success of J.K. Rowling. I was touched and I decided to be a writer at that time. I wrote my first Poem and it was like

"My Imagination "

You are a perfect lie

I don't know why am I so shy

I see you whenever I watch the sky,

fighting with the clouds and the flies.

You are my imagination,

closed inside my mind with hesitation.

I don't know how to be the star of someone's eye,

but I know how to make you believe in my lies.

You catch the flies and I let it fly.

You make me cry and I make myself smile.

I don't know who it is?

You or me making me brave.

It was my first poem and I was so happy when my mam read it out loud in front of my class. My happiness was unmeasurable. I went on writing and writing and slowly my skills got better.

But happiness doesn't last for long in my life. My grandpa passed and I couldn't handle it. I got lost and now my life doesn't feel like mine. So again I know I want to be a writer. I want to write no matter what.

I want to be a writer no matter what.