I still remember my first day of high school

It still feels like it was yesterday.

Only if I would've known from the start

Too late I guess!

The place, The people, everything.

yet I was ready to start my life all new

As I entered the class and sat next to someone that's when I felt like he is the one,

As we looked at each other, oh how shy I was if only I knew it's going to be this miserable

wish I never sat next to him.

wish I never told him my name.

wish I never joined that high school.

wish I never smiled at him.

Wish I never told my diary about him.

Only my pillow knows those silent screaming of mine.

Only those loud thunders helped me hide my vulnerable state.

Only the blanket was there to keep me warm on those numb nights.

If only I didn't meet him. If only?

Regret? Oh! how can I be so dumb when all my heart wanted was him?

He wanted me to feel like I'm his everything yet he made me feel like I'm nothing. Pathetic! isn't it?

I wish I never had those dreams

I really wish, wishing for this misery to end

but only I know how I'm now as I realized

"The day that I met you, I started dreaming"

Now I write 'em down if I remember in the morning time

I don't know that much about Kingston

But I like the sound it makes when it starts pouring rain

I think that tonight I'll leave my light on

'Cause I get lonely when it's out and I miss you right about now

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

He said, "baby, " that's what he called me, "I love you"

Every single word you say makes me feel some type of way

It's the thought of you that slightly scares me

But it takes my breath away, forget what I was gonna say

The day that I met you, I started dreaming

Now I write 'em down if I remember in the morning time

Baby, tell me where you want to go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

The day that I met you, I started dreaming

Now I write 'em down if I remember in the morning time

I don't know that much about Kingston

But I like the sound it makes when it starts pouring rain

I think that tonight I'll leave my light on

'Cause I get lonely when it's out and I miss you right about now

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

He said, "baby, " that's what he called me, "I love you"

Every single word you say makes me feel some type of way

It's the thought of you that slightly scares me

But it takes my breath away, forget what I was gonna say

The day that I met you, I started dreaming

Now I write 'em down if I remember in the morning time

Baby, tell me where you want to go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and more

Baby, tell me where you wanna go

Baby, tell me what you wanna know

Give you everything I have and mor

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...The long wait, Finally comes to an end!...

The love of my life, The way he beautifully held my hand as we took our vows in front of thousands of people.

...Rings were interchanged, so is our hearts....

...As the priest said "You may kiss"...

Couldn't hold back ourselves any longer that we poured all our love into that kiss.

...A very passionate one!...

The whole place was filled with happiness.

How badly I was waiting to be his? And yet!

sighs- As I looked at our wedding picture which was took 5 years before,

Only to see his photo hanging up quite next to our wedding photo.

What about the plans we made?

What about those silly promises we made?

What about not leaving each other?

...Yes, He is dead....

...Everyone said it was an accident....

...I couldn't accept it....

The day we fought like crazy,

The day that he told me that it's better to die than live with me,

The day he told me he don't love me,

The day he left our house,

Why? Never have I ever imagined such thing to happen, yet it all happened on that one day.

Everyone said

..."It's alright! you'll find someone better"...

...Oh! Who is going to tell them? That...

...I just wanna be yours, just yours....

How badly I wish we never fought on that day!

How badly I wish I never said those words!

How badly I wish it wasn't that day!

How badly I wish!?

Wasn't it supposed to be our 1st year anniversary? Why on that day everything has to end? I cried and cried.

Looking at our smiling face in our wedding photo, Don't we look so happy in it?

...Now all I could do is miss him....

...Oh my love you have no idea about it!...

Trust me! There wasn't one day that went by without me thinking about you.

Each passing second, I regret and regret.

If only we haven't fought that night, If only?

The thought of ending my life as crossed my mind plenty of times, yet I chose to live this life. For you!

If there was ever a chance to spend my life with you again, trust me darling!

...I would be anything for you....

...I know it might sound stupid to wish for it but if there was a world were we get to meet again all I wish is to be all yours again....

..."I Wanna Be Yours"...

I wanna be your vacuum cleaner

Breathing in your dust

I wanna be your Ford Cortina

I will never rust

If you like your coffee hot

Let me be your coffee pot

You call the shots, babe

I just wanna be yours

Secrets I have held in my heart

Are harder to hide than I thought

Maybe I just wanna be yours

I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Let me be your leccy meter

And I'll never run out

Let me be the portable heater

That you'll get cold without

I wanna be your setting lotion (wanna be)

Hold your hair in deep devotion (How deep?)

At least as deep as the Pacific Ocean

Now I wanna be yours

Secrets I have held in my heart

Are harder to hide than I thought

Maybe I just wanna be yours

I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

Wanna be yours

(Wanna be yours)

I wanna be your vacuum cleaner (wanna be yours)

Breathing in your dust (wanna be yours)

I wanna be your Ford Cortina (wanna be yours)

I will never rust (wanna be yours)

I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)

I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)

I just wanna be yours (wanna be yours)

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...I was getting ready for the prom...

...As I got my red dress on tonight....

...His favorite!...

...Will he be proposing me tonight?...

Oh, please! I looked in the mirror one last time before I heard the car horn sound coming from outside.

Hoping for it to be my day as I got in the car!

Saw the love of my life looking as handsome as ever.

How badly I want to just take him to my room and do things, yet I said "Let's go"

We reached as we met all our friends as they all greet us happily.

...Everything was just so perfect!...

"Time to dance, Hold your partners and dance to the rhythm everyone"

Said one of our friend holding the mic.

Was looking at him to ask for my hand,

Only to see him bend and offer his hand out like a prince

...In front of her!...

Why of all people?

Why it has to be her and not me?

So, she was the one? Who get to stand next to you holding your hand?

Oh, tears? They be just falling down my cheeks as I saw the love of my life who was looking at his love.

...His eyes! Those love filled eyes....

And that smile he had when she accept his hand as they start to dance to the music that started playing.

I felt like a fool.

I felt like a little girl whose favorite Ken doll was snatched away from her.

I wanted to yell and scream and shout!

Yet I could do nothing but watch them dance so happily.

How badly I wished it was me holding you and dancing with you.

There you are

..."Dancin' in the dark, in the pale moonlight"...

That's when I felt that the moon isn't the only one to feel alone that day but also me as I saw everyone dance with there partners.

Only if I knew this all! I would've not worn his favorite color even when I don't like it!

...Uncomfortable! That's all I felt....

Should've wished for something else instead of wishing that he would be mine.

Got home just to remove that dress and throw it away. After that I removed my

..."High heels off, I'm feelin' alive"...

I stare at my phone to see his post saying

"That baby, you the best"

...Under her picture!...

What can I do? Except for missing him.

The only think that has been running in my mind,

..."Think I'll miss you forever...

...Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky"...

Tomorrow is going to be the start of summer vacation.

Everyone's summertime is going to be filled with happiness except for mine.

...How can I stop thinking about him?...

I dream of holding your hand,

I dream of hugging you,

I dream of kissing you,

I dream of loving you in every way possible!

Oh, parts of me wish him to have the best life with his lover. Hoping him to have the happiest summer of his life.

While mine is just gonna be filled with sadness. Yes, that's what you call it,

..."Summertime Sadness"...

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That baby, you the best

I got my red dress on tonight

Dancin' in the dark, in the pale moonlight

Done my hair up real big, beauty queen style

High heels off, I'm feelin' alive

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air

Telephone wires above are sizzlin' like a snare

Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere

Nothin' scares me anymore

(One, two, three, four)

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That baby, you the best

I got that summertime, summertime sadness

Su-su-summertime, summertime sadness

Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

I'm feelin' electric tonight

Cruisin' down the coast, goin' about 99

Got my bad baby by my heavenly side

I know if I go, I'll die happy tonight

Oh, my God, I feel it in the air

Telephone wires above are sizzlin' like a snare

Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere

Nothin' scares me anymore

(One, two, three, four)

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That baby, you the best

I got that summertime, summertime sadness

Su-su-summertime, summertime sadness

Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Think I'll miss you forever

Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky

Later's better than never

Even if you're gone, I'm gonna drive (drive), drive

I got that summertime, summertime sadness

Su-su-summertime, summertime sadness

Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Kiss me hard before you go

Summertime sadness

I just wanted you to know

That baby, you the best

I got that summertime, summertime sadness

Su-su-summertime, summertime sadness

Got that summertime, summertime sadness

Oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

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