The starry night...

         what kind of excuses is that ? Was the whole presentation for nothing? Tell him he can rip out his eyeballs...

  You think why I talk like that don't worry I tell you everything about me my name is Mark… Is not like you think only mark and my life was suck because of my boss he was Korean guy but half Thai he was so much unresponsive, stupid, aggressive, scary, but what I told him so much bad word that not mean he was look like I think guy about him because he was treated me like that… oh! I'm never tell his name joy it's full name Kim Jun Woo.

 He was my childhood friends always loves me I think, but he was change so much why I don't know...

First day in my school I saw joy he was so handsome and talk with teacher. I see him just like my heart beat so much fast, and I never stop my self to looking him. I don't know who is he which standards he was, but I don't know he was my classmate my teacher introducing me just I saw he was sat alone, so teacher said sit with joy my heart flutter…

I think I talk with him, but he was never talk with me, I try again, but he never talks me. But lunchtime he was come to me and said hi my name is joy, but I'm confused I try to talk with him, but he was not talk then why?

He said I'm just little busy, and I'm never talk anyone my study time you know OK... hmm. What about you? What's your name...

The bell rings, and he was going back to his classroom, so I never told him who I am we are become a good friend, but I love him I don't know how I said, but I'm little worried he was never break over friendship…

But one day it's over gradation day it's the best day I try to confess my feelings to him, but he was come to me and said I tell you something I told me too, but I said first you he said you but joy OK first me I think what he said, but I think he also confesses me, but he said I love a some girl. She was so beautiful, and she was my uncle's daughter…

You said you have a girlfriend yes! My heart feel like I'm just fly like a butterfly...

What about you what you said to me me I'm just said congratulations your already going to CLG... yes! You are my best FRD always with me and always care me why you never told me about your GF… Sry I know, but I want to be surprised you OK… hmm,

what about you... you selected and going with me study abroad ..me why????

I never told him because I never see him again I'm little worried. I wish you will mine. Furthermore, I told him I was pass, but I'm going back my country, and he said OK, but I wish you come to say bye to me in an airport…

Next week... I was going abroad you come to say bye to me OK...

Hmm, I know I was never come to see you again, but I said OK…

That day we are going own path I never try to talk with him again never see my friends again…

I was never met him because I'm afraid and how to control my emotions I'm not tried to hurt him, but I feel just I hurt him.

I erased my all my memoriesjust focused about my work schedule..

I try to good employee, but my manger was not good he was always tried to hurt me always try to insult me, but I'm never think about he was a bad person Fosse he was very bad person ... he was just like devil always said complete your work even you never do just I give you......... suspension order.

My life was not much good, but I do because of my sister I have an only one person who always with me… Take care me and always feel I have a family...

you always think why I never think about joy.. that day joy live this country he said he was wait for me in the airport to say bye to me that day my parents died in a car accident so I never said to bye again...

I know joy always think about me, he was just a friend like who never come to see off to me…

I just never see him again about my graduation day… But I'm worried about him always… I'm also work because of my sister he was my older sister, but she was always protected me never try to hurt me. Always try to happy, but I know how she grew up with parents...

So I promised myself I give him the biggest house a beautiful car she is like the most, and she live happily with me…

She was with me just I have no one understands me… She knows I'm gay, but she loves me so much… She was always tried to comfort me… But I'm secretly witter, and I'm trying to write my novel I have written three best novel you like the most…

I try to work with my sister but never talk with someone because I'm afraid what people think but my sister always with me and cheer up to me. That day over school reunion party but 8 years I never go anywhere party because I'm afraid to see him again.

I was just going back to my sister and always try to keep busy my self because I'm try to leave happily with out him....

Union party always come one year all friends come and tell about own life. My sister s restaurant all schools union come and enjoy, but I'm never try to talk with all of us. My sister try to comfort me and said talk with other you feel good, but I don't like to anyone because I'm never comfortable that person who talk like cheap even use bad words.

I'm just enjoyed my life without fear, so I've come home I'm mean my parents home to see her what she was doing. I'm always respected my sister because she was never fell like we have no parents, but I wish I succeeded my job my sister leave all work and live like a princess.

Because her dream was an actor's, but I know she was my response model. She was never give up, she was a good fighter not like you think like an always protected me, she was brave, she takes my responsibility without anyone caused… I love you my sister… I've always come home after two three week…

She was always worried me. I'm always worried because she was tired but never told me, but I know she was never told me.

I was going back my home where I was live 5 years ago… I'm just live alone because I don't like noises.

I'm panicked because I'm also with my parents in car accident, and I'm little hurt, so I have a phobia… To blast like anything like balloons, cans sound anything horn types. So I'm always wear AirPods.

I try to write my novel,, but I'm always thoughtht about him,, he was come union party.

I don't know he was come back again.

what I do ???

Life like a hell never live happily. But I know one day it's come my happy day. Where I live happily.

I try my best next morning I have a very important day because I meet my novel editor who edit my novel..

but I have more important work also going a interview... but I don't know where I was going first...