Dear diary,

Time: 10:30 PM

Today I woke up from my bed and opened my diary after long and giggled after reading my stupid stories but today I m going to talk my love journey but according to people there is something else story ..guess what?

I m diagnosed from dementia in this the

Brain does not function properly and we can not able to eat and do normal things by own can't able to walk too...and i got to know now that I m suffering from this condition from 5 years...and whatever I felt from those 5 years was just my hallucinations..and these are the symptoms of this disease that I see or feel or hear which is not real...but I feel i m now okay just because of him...

Him?? Who?? Do you want to know??

~5 YEARS AGO~

(MY FIRST STAGE)

** A loud noise come from bathroom**

Everyone woke up!!!

Blisss!!! What are you doing at this time in bathroom??Dad asked. I think everyone gone mad in this house...Bathing dad!! I shouted.Why are you all sleeping??It's too late??

Bliss it's only 11 pm we just ate and slept it's not morning...go and sleep...me and my family thought just because of dream I reached here and thought as it's as morning.. because it's quite normal sometimes...but after some days it's not normal I started doing like this frequently... bathing at 11 pm or 12 pm midnight or cooking my morning lunch at 2 am night..

My father got too much tension but one night at 2 am i started bathing again and i fall on bathroom floor so hard and my head hit to the corner of door and i get unconscious my head and nose was bleeding...I tried to stand up but suddenly my whole body felt numb...my father ran and  took me to hospital and my mom started crying she thought I m dead because I stopped responding and my pulses are so low...

~At hospital~

Hey! Mr Darson please sit ..doctor said.What happened to my daughter suddenly she fall and doing some wierd things??Why didn't you bring your daughter earlier?? Doctor said.What happened?? I thought she was walking in sleep and behaving like this...dad said.Sorry

to say it's so irresponsible behaviour of you but please have patience you daughter is suffering from dementia ( doctor explained every detail about the disease)

We will admit her in hospital because she is unconscious now and she have head injury after she will be okay we will monitor her condition and take actions after that.Thank you doctor dad said.

Oh my kid I m worst dad I m so bad that I can't look after you. I don't know how to tell about your condition to your mom. You are the only child we had **dad started crying** I m so sorry please forgive me if you can.

~THANK YOU~

Dear diary,

Time: 11:30 Pm

After 1 week resting in hospital I got discharged... Until then I m in my consciousness...the doctor said I will not survive more than 1 or 2 years and can't able to walk or do anything like a normal people...I know that.

And i came in bed rest until my mental not gone but I started forgetting things like names of many people and all...

I can't able to move my hand or legs...

I started getting hallucinations of some scary sounds and creepy things...

From there I lost completely and my journey of love started...

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<<<~BEGINNING OF MY LOVE HALLUCINATIONS~>>>

I forgotten all about my sickness or anything i reached to my college days...in my hallucination world in my imagination while i m bed ridden

So it's all my imagination~

Dad,dad.....dad where are you???I m getting late....

I wore a baggy jeans with crop top with a baggy shirt outside of it and hair tucked with hair clutcher

Ohhh my daughter looking so beautiful 😍... thanks mom but call the dad I m getting too late...

Coming kid coming....

Kid why are you looking so beautiful today??It's not good boys will die today surely..

Omg dad come on 🙈drop me now...

( It's my first day at college so I m getting ready and excited for the day 1)

I reached college...I saw everyone was busy in their own world...it's not same as i expected 😩 I thought it would be the day dream of my life... good clothes many friends no study only fun but it's not true...

Suddenly someone approached me...

Hey are you lost??? Some girl with specs nerdy look looking studious...

Umm I m new here...oh me too i was so nervous that I lost now we both are together to find it let's go...she hold my hand and ran...she didn't even wait for my answer and i knew now she is the one in my college life whom I can call my bestfriend 😌..

Here... suddenly i realised that we reached our classroom and I was standing still by her actions...that how can she be so comfortable with some unknown...she is extrovert...and here I can't even utter a word.. introvert things you all can understand..

I sat on seat beside her..and she kept talking like non stop asking me multiple questions and answering them own I never seen such a girl😂....umm are you into love or something?? She turned to ask me this question and I was waiting for her to answering her own question but this time she waited for my answer..

What?? Do you love someone?? I was blank..I have crushes...on many celebs but never fall into love... hoping to focus on studies..

No, i answered....why? Are you got rejected or not interested or still waiting like me...?? She laughed and said..

Umm I don't know but I not got rejected yet...yeah why u will get rejected you are so beautiful and so calm and your fashion sense is also nice...and I m not  Beautiful and fair and my fashion 🤧..worst than a 10 years old girl

nowadays..

Umm what's your name?? I forgotten to ask...ohh it's ok hi I m bliss....

Hi I m Britney...

Oh are we friends now?? Britney asked...

No! I said. Why is it so?? I have been looking for a friend from many days i think you matched with my playful vibes..

Do u make only beautiful friends?? No sorry I m into friends...

I walked sadly to front desk..

I lost another friend who seems nice but I don't want any friends I want to be alone..

{ Note- Whenever someone talk to her or do something to her in real life she believes as her hallucinations as she gone to her old days when she gets her hallucinations and she never paid attention to it that much and in present she become bed ridden due to it }

I turned around to see her again and when I turned she was smiling to me I suddenly turned and looked into my notebook...the smile of hers making my heart so painful i closed my eyes with full of sadness and suddenly my dad face appeared who was staring at me and crying..I panickly opened my eyes...and thought as my another hallucinations...

That's the reason I don't want any friends I don't know when will this hallucinations effect increase and maybe I make  friends feel awkward just because of me

I had very much friends at my first year but when my hallucinations started at the end of first semester i broke every friendship I had ...

I don't want to fall in love too...

Maybe I die soon...??

My class ended ...it's time for exams of my second year...

Hey bliss a smiling face come towards running from me behind...

Listen ...if u don't want be my friend it's ok let's become classmates??

I came new so I don't have proper notes and exams also coming and I m weak in studies too can u help me with my studies??

I want to say yes to her face i desperately wanted to help her as she seems kind towards me but I said no again ...I don't want her involvement in my boring and stressful world..it's just my name is bliss but there is no happiness in my life...

No dear I have to study for my exams...

I don't like group study...

She again lowered eyes and this time i seen disappointment in her face and a drop of test fall from eyes and she walk smiling with her red teary eyes ...and that point my heart tear in different pieces ...

I reached to my room ran towards my room ...decided to have a bath for a good releif from hectic day...

I gone to take a shower 🚿

While I was bathing suddenly the water gone....I got so scared that I started shouting...I call mom dad three to four times ...then suddenly a sound approached my ear ...( Shhh Darlo (darling) don't shout)

My legs and hands and my whole body suddenly went numb ....I turned around and tried to open my eyes to see who there was.. I saw a boy with black shirt and opened buttons I can't see his face because the shampoo is blocking my eyes to see what it was but I can only notice him his wierd marked on his hand which was covered with a bracelet type something and I saw his hand slowly moving to my face and suddenly water came ...I fastly washed my eyes to see him but after I opened my eyes there was noone .. i accepted it as just my hallucinations but it's felt so realistic...

I went to sleep after a quick bath...I really got so good sleep that day

Which I was expecting from long ago ...

Then I woke up little late today cause that is the day of happiness, relaxation and sleepiness ... Sunday .. I  woke and did my all work ...then went to bed..

I took a book ' a dark romance books' I like to read it a lot...I was reading it.. .. suddenly a bold voice again came to ear (hey darlo wanna try it in real now??)....then I realised it's just from my beside.. .. I got so scared but then ignored as my hallucinations ....then again that person spoke ( hey darlo are you ignoring me??)....

I said to myself...shut up bliss focus on the book..

( Oh darlo stop cursing yourself atleast not infront of someone who is here to praise you)

I turned my eyes to him ... We did a eyes contact....I losted in him and he in mine ❤️