It was the start of the school year 2024-2025, I was a transferee, so I was quiet the whole day, when I entered the classroom everyone was looking at me. But only one has got my attention, namely, Aquiles. He was my first ever crush this school year, I was in denial to myself that I have feelings for him. On August 3, 2024, I already accepted that I actually have feelings for him, I kept it to myself because I found out that he still can't move on from his ex.

Then I found myself always looking out for him in the midst of crowds, I've been wanting to take the risk of confessing to him but I don't seem to find the courage. On August 12, 2024 I already found the courage to confess. I confessed through a tiktok trend, the next morning I acted normal in front of him like I didn't do anything the night before. Like I didn't confess.

Ever since then, our classmates have been teasing us with each other. I would just smile, I would tell them to stop because it seemed like he didn't like it. Uncomfortable siya, pansin ko. But then as the school year first quarter went by, my other classmates had been telling me Alexander has a crush on me, at first I didn't mind it because I only see him as my cousin look a like. But then I found myself developing feelings for him as my friends and I played truth or dare, they would always dare me about him. They were supportive, I developed feelings for him while I also still have feelings for Aquiles.

I was in denial with my feelings for Alexander, but as time went by. Everyone confused me more by telling me that Aquiles also likes me, and that he's only shy to confess. Torpe ba HAHA. The night that day, I thought of what I should do, who should I choose? I was so full of doubt, I was quiet in the classroom for how many days since I was confused as to which of the two, I thought about it carefully. They told me their opinions about Aquiles, that he was better to commit with. But as so Alexander, telling me their opinions that Alexander was much better than Aquiles. I think twice before deciding.

Aquiles is handsome, smart, almost the same height as me, quite have the same vibes as me. He's a badminton player.

Alexander is also handsome, smart? Kind of. He's taller, but I don't think the two of us have the same vibes. He's a basketball player.

I told myself that I won't love a basketball player again, I already have a lot of trauma with that kind of a sport of a boy. Their such a player and doesn't take relationship seriously. For them, it's a game. Just like what they always say, "You play the game, as well as the player." :).