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I still want more.

"You... You don't actually care, do you?" A woman choked up.

"...."

"That's right.. You- you're just a selfish b****. You couldn't care less about anyone - "

'those words... Who is she again.? Everything's a blur.'

Before I could even understand what was happening the woman slapped her

"Not once did you weep upon the death of your father-" the woman shook her violently, her voice cracking as she cried.

"...."

Getting a dull reaction from me, the woman only became more furious and left the house that they were in.

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*bell ringing*

"... up.."

'what?'

"w...ke up..."

'...'

"wake up!"

..!!!

"Oh, finally!"

A teenage with clear skin, short but luscious hair, and bright brown eyes chuckled and informed the others of my regained consciousness

"Mimi?" I yawned

"this is why you prioritize sleep instead of stressing over dues" she huffed.

"Anyway, self-studying hours are finally over - we can go home!!" the girl extended her arms up in the air and jumped around

'rabbit..'

The girl continued jumping around before she got smacked by Kanji, the class representative.

"You're making earthquakes."

"WHAT.."

After the two finished squabbling, Kanji turned to me

"You really need to stop staying up late, it's bad for your health" he lightly smacked my head with a book

"mhmm.. Sure, mom."

   This time, he didn't hit me lightly..

" --well.. Let's all go home.?"

"yeah!"

"alright"

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-[ 8:45 P.M ]-

We eventually reached Mimi's home and said our goodbyes to her, now it was just me and Kanji.

"Quinn, don't -... don't overwork yourself. Me and the others are worried about you, and you know that."

"...."

"you weirdo."

"OKAY- YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO ADD THAT PART."

He only looked at me before turning away, chuckling.

'.. How cute '

       I smiled

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"we're here"

      we stopped at my house

"mh."

"Well, goodbye."

An

"Bye Quinn..!"

He ran before stopping for a quick second and yelled "we're proud of you, okay?!!!!" before running again

"huh.. How cute indeed."

I entered my house only to be met with emptiness, it was only to be expected. That woman has long been tired of me and only provided me with a roof over my head and money to pay with the s*** that I want or need.

I would say that I don't care, but that woman is still my mother, the woman who've I long attention from.

'how cute of me.'

I went to my room and threw my bag on my bed before flopping onto it.

"Maybe I'll be able to sleep this time.." I closed my eyes and...

• • •

'How nice of me to be studying in the middle of the night.'

I'm truly a hardworking student. I totally don't have insomnia. I... Maybe I should try again with my novel.?

I.. I don't think I have the time for that. I'm starting to feel pretty sleepy too so..

Goodnight to you and me.

Dear diary,

  sometimes I sit by and think, "what would've happened if I chose to do this" if I "never stopped"

Dear diary,

   sometimes I like to sit by and write, poets that I can never share, stories that I will never tell. Maybe it's because I'm too afraid, not afraid to share but afraid to fall. I never got along with this feeling of being lower than somebody, and that's why I try to be better than everybody.

    Maybe that's why I'm sharing this with you. Because maybe for once— for once I can be seen. Maybe you can see my worth and say "wow, that's so great!". Words that they can never say.

That's 122 words and I still want to write. But on some days, I can't even bother to say that many words- can't even write that many words- this part, I can't think of anything anymore. Struggling to continue on. That's 164 words.

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Dear reader,

Dear me,

   There's something that I want to tell you. One that I'm not sure if it's even worth your time. One that I'm also not sure if it's worth to say. Maybe one day, as you continue to read, you'll find the reason why I wanted to speak.

I write this at night, knowing that if they find, I will choose to hide.

   I wonder why people choose to be with me then remember that out of the hundreds of people, only a few chose to stay. Maybe you'll find this part a bit boring, I do too. But- somehow. I still find beauty in this part I would call a space.

  Yes, I find it weird. Weird how I yearn for love and attention but never tried to get it. I know that I'm not the only one. That I'm not the only one who once spoke of being fair but ended up leaving if it meant staying safe, that I'm not the only one who dreamt of living in a palace- surrounded with people I love and ended up living alone in a cold empty space.

371 words.

That's 371 words, and yet I watch to how easy it is to scroll by and see it end. Even though I spent nearly an hour or approximately 50 minutes writing this-

Writing isn't easy.

actually- being anything at all isn't easy!

They may speak to you as if you are living in their dream heavens know that deep down- DEEP DOWN they know that where you are right now is not somewhere they want to be. Perhaps it's because they want to bring you down or perhaps they want to bring you up?

May you tell me because that's only something they know and that something is a thing that you can know. Though be warned! Because like what they say, the truth hurts.

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Can you believe that? I already passed the 500 word minimum and yet in my eyes, the distance between 164 and this is quite the short one-

I didn't plan to make "Crown of Unfulfilled Desires" a story with characters such as "Quinn" and "Eun-kyung". I was never good at making them talk- when I do make a story with characters, it's full of descriptive actions. Though you will never find it in my previous works in which I mostly abandoned.