aakhirkar kya hota hai pyar mujhe kuchh bhi nahin pata main gudiya mam Bharat mein rahti Hun main Apne pita aur apni man ke sath yahan per rahte hain mujhe nahin pata ki Aisa kyon hai Lekin mere mere pitaji aur meri man tujhe hamesha kahate Hain ki tu ek ladki hai tu Ghar se bahar mat jao darasal angrejon mein Puri tarike se ham per kabu kar rakha tha Prasad din mere mere pitaji ko mara karte the kitchen ki jagah jagah per meri man Ko bhi mara karte the unki jagah jagah per gaon the main nahin janti kyon karte the mujhe bahut nafrat thi main bhi 9 sal ki thi aaj main 10 sal ki ho gai mere mere pitaji mujhe maar rahi thi mujhe nahin pata ki mujhe kyon maar rahe ho lekin meri man ne gaon walon Ko Bulaya aur unhen kaha ki dekho dekho mere Pati mere bete ko maar rahe hain vah sab Dante hue Hain mere unhone mere pitaji ko mujhe Marne se loka aur kaha ki tumse kyon maar rahe ho kya galti hai iski Jo mere pitaji ne kaha agar yah Jinda rahegi to vah angreji se lekar chale jaenge aur iske sath vyakti karenge yah bhi bahut chhoti hai iski umra hi kya hai mujhe pata tha ki Aisa kyon kah rahe Hain ki angrej ladkiyon ke sath bahut jyada kimat ke aati thi mere map dar gayi thi gaon walon ne kaha ki yah nahin rahe vahi achcha lekin kuchh gaon walon ne kaha ismein Kiya galti hai ki ladki hai धीरे-धीरे waqt bita Gaya main ab 11 sal se 13 sal Tak Ho gai thi aur धीरे-धीरे 15 sal tak ki bhi ho gai use nahin pata ki kab sare Bakri Eid ka bade hone Lage the ab meri man aur Baba aur jyada chinta mein Rahane Lage the main ek ladki Hun to mujhe lekar chale jaenge kapdon mein nahin balki ladke ke kapdon mein rakhte the kisi Ko nahin pata Na chale ki main ek ladki hun mujhe bahut dar lagta tha main kabhi bhi andhero ke samne nahin jaate lekin kahate Hain tabhi vahan per Sainik ka itni acchi Mulayam ko pakda meri man aur mere Papa aur kam kar rahe ho are aapke sath kya hoga aur usne mere balon mein Bani Hui use pati ko bhi khol diya aur use bhej diya main aapki shayari per nakab Laga ke rakhte the ishare UN log Kaun Mera chehra nahin dekha aur mujhe Apne sath le Gaye main Dari hui thi vah log mujhe khinchte hue Apne sath lekar main Jeet rahi thi chilla rahi thi tab mujhe bachane ke liye mere piche dalen lekin aadhe raste mein ruk Gaye Tum sabko pata tha agar vah mere piche aaenge to vah maar denge aur sabko apni Jaan ki fikra Diya aata meri Aankhen khuli to main ek bahut bade se ghar mein thi Maine dekha ki mere samne bahut sare Insan the pahle to main dar gai tabhi unmen se ek aadami samne Mera chehra Maine tumhare dekhte rahte tujhe bahut hi jyada samjhata uske piche piche bahut sari ladkiyan bhi nahin chalti vah tab mujhe dekh kar ek khatarnak Sundar hai lekin fir bhi itni jyada mat court nahin hai aur mujhe niche fenk Diya

...mujhe pata thakeen badalne ke liye vah mere liye kafi tha isliye mere hath pakadoge subah mein nind khuli to mere kapde bistar per pahle kyunki main janti thi agar main kuchh bolungi to vah log mujhe maar denge kuchh jante hue bhi chup rahana bahut jyada mushkil hota hai tabhi main room mein ek ladki hai usne mujhe kaha ki he Tum hu r u s Khushi uske bad samajh mein nahin a Rahi kyunki main Hindi bolna chahti thi aur vah pata nahin kya bol rahi thi maine use Hindi mein poochha aap kaun hai yahan per kya kar rahe hain office mein meri taraf kapda fenka aur kaha lekin galti ho sake kya hua kya Maine kuchh galat kaha Tum sahi ho lekin yah log bahut galat hai tum nahin janti lekin inmein se ek Mera Bhai bhi hai maine use kaha please mujhe jaane do mujhe Ghar Jana hai mujhe chhod do mujhe Apne man aur Baba ke pass jaane do please awaaz ki khubsurti bahut hi jyada strong karne wali main bus ek purti ja rahi thi ek kapda fenka ki aap kaun hai usne mujhe kaha ki main koi bhi Ho tumhen se kya fark padta hai maine tumhen Jo Di hai tumhen chhod do agar tumhen chhod Diya to mujhe maar dalenge Maine chhod do mujhe Apne man aur Baba ke pass jana hai meri awaaz ko sunkar usne mujhe chhod Diya ladka usne mujhe ek paper per likh kar diya mujhe padhna aata tha kyunki main kyunki main dasvin Tak padhi likhi thi maine use kaha ki mujhe baat mujhe nahin le aana aap Jo bhi bol rahe hain mujhe vah samajh mein nahin a Raha aur aapane Jo likha hai vah bhi samajh mein nahin a Raha ki usne yah English mein likha tha aur hamen Hindi aati thi maine usse fir se kaha ki kripya mujhe bataen kya Karen Tum math mein tab se yahi samjhana chahta Hun Tum mere baat Sun bhi rahi ho koi bhi baat samajh mein nahin a rahi thi lekin tab bhi main Bus han main sar hila rahi thi aur FIR maine apne kapde uthae aur nahane Chali gai main Jaise hi bahar I tabhi Tak kamre mein dakhil hua aur usne Mera hath pakad ke mujhe niche bistar pay patka Aaj se mere face ko pata chalega Maine uski taraf dekha maine apne man mein ka mujhe kyon kaha karte the ki sare angrej budhe hote Hain Mera soch hi rahi thi ki tabhi usne meri tabhi usne mujhe chhute hue kaha vah tum bahut hi jyada sundar ho main logon Ko Saja nahin deta Jo yah kahate Hain ki tum sundar nahin Ho kyunki han vah Sahi kahate tum bahut hi jyada sundar ho ki aap kaun hai mujhe chhodiye mujhe bhookh lagi hai Jo main kabhi soch bhi nahin sakti thi mujhe yad aaya ki mere baba wale kaha tha ki angrej bure hote lekin vah kabhi Apne fark se niche nahin rakhte...