**To my one and only love,
My Hyungie,**
Hyungie, I know it’s hard to believe me right now when I say I didn’t kill him. I can see the doubt in your eyes, and I know I’m the one who caused it. I lost your trust, and I can’t blame you for thinking the worst. But please, Hyungie, you have to believe me when I say I never wanted this. I didn’t understand what was happening to me—I didn’t know why, but I started feeling so lost, so weighed down by this overwhelming sadness. I thought that being with you, feeling your love, would help me overcome it, but it just kept getting worse.
So, I tried to be strong for you. I went to see a therapist. I swear, I did, Hyungie. But now, everything’s a mess. I don’t know how it all turned around on me—how the evidence got twisted, how everything suddenly pointed back to me. The locations, the fingerprints, even my prescription for sleeping pills—it all got changed. Now it says vitamins, and the handwriting looks like mine, but I never wrote that. I’m scared, Hyungie. I’m scared because it feels like someone’s playing with my life, with everything I hold dear, and I don’t know why or who would do this.
I know you don’t trust me right now, and I understand why. I kept things from you, and maybe if I had just opened up to you, if I had just let you in on what I was going through, things would have been different. But I didn’t, and now everything’s fallen apart. If only I had talked to you, if only I had let you help me carry this burden, maybe Jimin hyung would still be here, and you wouldn’t be looking at me like this.
But Hyungie, please, believe me when I say that I could never hurt Jimin hyung. I loved him too, just like I love you. I would rather die than hurt either of you. I’m so sorry for everything, for not being honest, for making you doubt me. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused. I know I’ve lost your trust, and maybe I don’t deserve to get it back, but I would never, ever kill Jimin hyung. I would never hurt my family.
I’m going to Papa Jeon’s for now.
Please, take care of yourself, Hyungie. No matter what happens, no matter where this goes, I will always love you with all my heart. You are my everything, and I’m so, so sorry for all of this. I love you, Hyungie, more than words can ever say.
Forever yours,
Jungkook