Hey everyone, maybe I'm writing this only for my self, IDK really.

Recently a lot going on over here, and I just thought what's wrong if I can't share to anyone I can just write and may be every thing won't be OK but at least I will be free from some of my thoughts may be.

Yeah! my life is all about may be duh...

Not that wow I believe

I think many of us over here is suffering from some or the other thing some can express and some can not, everyone here just thinks life sucks, some reached to there happy point and some reached to there dead point, I don't know where I'm tho ... may be near to dead point.

You know they are very lucky who have someone to share each and every single thing not me ofcus 🙄

Lemme have the pleasure to introduce myself, I'm a student doing my bachelor's of engineering in the field of Information Technology, yeah dude we're engineers feel like and behave like no saddest exist in the world like us, and I'm also a victim of this saddest engineering life my bad (or my luck‍🌫️).

Yeah, I feel worthless, specially after looking people around me doing a lot of things, yeah I'm also trying but somewhere at some point I'm failing I feel so.

***Today***

it was my oops lab class at morning 9 and to my wonder I was not late and yeah it was again raining (again? : as ever oops lab it use to rain its beingso obvious now ) I think rain surely have some enmity with oops and rest classes went as usual

Them me and my friend (let her name be Ridhi) I'm from India BTW, so I and Ridhi bought 1 Naan per person 15rs yeah bro we are broke too .... in our hostel there was chicken in lunch and am mm we ate naan with salad as well believe me it tasted so good no I'm not a weirdo or maybe I'm

I was not feeling good at evening, so I bought glucose and now for SIH (Smart Indian Hackathon) my roomies are discussing I'm also participating but from some other group.... no we didn't fight it was just because of some miss conception...

Feels like everyone is so brilliant except me over here I'm trying every possible thing but at some point I'm failing

Guys If any one engineering over here pls give me some suggestions what to do how to do I'm totally done with everything let me tell you I have done HTML, CSS, c/c++, basic JS, Cybersecurity that's it what to do next

ammm it feels like here also I'm crying for my career any ways I promise again I won't ask such questions.

Sorry for bad English I think you guys can understand as I'm engineer tho

Today there wasn't any lab I was happy for that and yep Today I did a lot of discussion about SIH ofcus it's so tough to find a problem statement and get a unique solution. Tell me are you guys participating?

Yeah, I was still discussing and that's why I'm late today anyway I got a brilliant idea but at the end it was discarded IDK why, but I wanted it to be applicable like really.

And btw I got cake today happy to get it, but the sweetness weren't enough to fill my heart bitterness

My another roommate (let's say Anvi) she went on a date ..... movie date I'm still unaware of that part of my life ...... yeah being an engineer I'm single ammm single from birth (even single child) actually I don't know how to talk to people I'm not interactive.

Sometimes I just fell people simply don't like to talk to me.... it's not like I didn't approach.... they just avoid me or ignore most of my words and I don't feel good at that time, and ultimately I stopped talking and somewhere in my heart it hurts.

People don't know me they don't want to talk to me… Is it a disadvantage may be or may be not.

Now I am kinda habituated to it, but sometimes it's really hurting 💔.... may be just want people not to completely ignore my existence or maybe I just want them to know I just exist in this world.

Ammmm you know what I don't like to work under people I just like to work independently that's one of the reasons I didn't join any club and the above part people don't care I exist is applicable here as well ...

You know what I want ..... people may not know me, but my name may be some day it's lots of our dreams.

that's it for today bye guys

Ignore this part.

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Ahhh

lots of work

My internal SIH is done not that bad but not good as well actually not good with my team duh...

And after thinking Millions of time was at home for nuakhai yeah it's a festival of Western Odisha I like this festival it's kind of fun spending time with family, friends but this time I was thinking not to go home yeah I went but let me just tell you guys why I was thinking not to go as my so called mid-sem exams were going on back 15 to 20 days and I have not really done good believe me I did nothing I have a lot of work come on I also deserve a break don't I...

It was so tough, lots of us and downs it was frustrating and in last few days I only took 2hrs of sleep lots of break-down like almost everyone gone through this phase right?

Ahhh let it be now let's go to the interesting part yesterday I went to a waterfall yeah bruhhh it was so so so beautiful it was a friends group trip it was soooo adventurous we just dragged our self to the water and enjoyed like it's our last day ...

It's what called a day off

Ook let me tell you guys the journey first it was like water was unavailable in our hostel and our classes were canceled,, so we decide to go to waterfall for bath (funny right) then we all were out for trip and guess what in the midway we got a heavy rain it felt like we are taking a lot of risk like you guys must be knowing how dangerous a waterfall is during rain,, and we were like pls god let the rain stop just for an hour then it was like rain was also playing with us and at last we got there with no rain and for exact one hour it's like god listening to us thank god ... btw the root was so beautiful like I can't explain mountain with little rain and sea ... just imagine how beautiful it could be ....

That's it for today I'm tired and yeah sorry for the weird English I have written but yeyeah Ammm sorry I will try to write better, and I have also understood maybe I won't be able to write daily so sorry for that too...

love you guysss....

*ignore this*

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