" Fuck" Zay cursed the first thing that left his mouth when he entered in his shared room in his college dorm with his other roommate a Korean guy who was literally looking like a k pop idol.

Zay grabbed his hair in frustration as he don't know what to do it's getting too much now the voices in his head it's getting louder the chants saying ' you did wrong don't trust anyone ' was getting louder as each passing seconds

"AHHHHH shut up " he screamed kneeling down pulling at his hair looking like a maniac breathing heavily

'you got betrayed ' ' I warned you ' those sounds are getting more and more louder and it started to fog his mind replaying like a broken radio in his ears

" GOD DAMIT " He stood up scratching his wrist a thing he developed when he feels anxiety or stressed the constant scratching was now developing a dark red patch on his satin smooth skin yeah you red right he got satin smooth milky white skin like girls but please don't judge him guys can have these skin too.

He was searching for something which his best friend hided literally took it away from him the thing he promised her he will never use it again he pushed down all the things in his shelves all the books the stationers the collection of his Tiny Tans everything fell down scattering all around the floor the sound literally made him flinch but who cares he wants that one thing he was searching for he knelt down and searched for it rummaging and pushing away all the things in between, and he found it his lighter. The materialistic things that was filled with gasoline and tick sound which comes with the satisfaction of the orange and yellow flame his favorite thing.

He felt fucking content and smiled those perfect lips was now stretched in a beautiful smile which was rare nowadays he picked up the black lighter which was engraved with a silver 'E' in it he pushed open the door of his bathroom

...` warning self harm`...

He sat on his tub the empty cold marble giving him a shiver but anyway he made himself comfortable and switched on the lighter and the tick sound was heard and the flame ignited within it which gave him a pure satisfaction he grinned looking at it the flame dancing on its own as his breath touches it's body he gulped when he stretched his finger towards the flame and literally was about to let the flame burn his finger when someone knocked on the door

" fuck " He cursed and literally the knock made him jump a little which made the lighter to fell out from his hand and into the tub .

" what the heck " He groaned and sighed as he stood up from the tub and walked towards the door and opend it only to see the person who left him , the person who he thought he will never cross paths with was literally standing infront of him looking like a broken doll with those ugly tears falling from those beautiful ocean doe eyes .

" j- Jay?" Zay got interrupted when he was pushed into the bathroom against the wall and the breath in his lungs was knocked out cuz the next move from his classmate .

Zay was shocked when he felt the push and before he can do anything Jays lips was over his own

Jay was kissing him after a long time .. Zay moaned when jay pinched his waist which made it easy for jay to put his tounge inside him and taste his sweet cavern .

" aghh Jay wa-it " Zay was cut off again by Jay when he felt Jay's hand was now on inside his T-shirt and his finger was circling around his navel . Zay felt his knees weakening he felt he would fall down any moment his legs started to shake ..

" fuck I missed this bambi" Jay moaned into the kiss and pulled away from his lips only to give attention to his neck ..

" Jay i -i - ahh" Jay was not ready to listen to anything as he was now literally sucking at Zay's collarbones .

*SLAP *everything happend so fast that Jay was now looking at Zay with a wide eyes and with a stinging pain in his left cheek .

" Zay ?" Jay said out his name in a question way as he was still dazed by what just happend .

" Slut " Zay said looking at jay furiously which made the other go wide eyed and his blood ran cold which made him choke up .

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So yeah first chapter is out guys

wdym think ? ;)