Shay's POV

School starts today..im so nervous...as i get ready i start to feel the nervousness and pressure..."shay!" my mom called..."coming!"....after I'm done getting ready i went downstairs for breakfast.. "be careful at school honey".. "i will mom" i answered...i started walking to school hoping i would bump into one of my friend when i was in grade 6...by the way I'm grade 9...

I arrived at school there's so many students and it got me more nervous.. I can't find anyone I know, as I look around the campus, I spot one of my friend "Eve!" ..i run towards her and hug her ...we talk for a moment and decided to head to our class.. we were in one class and i saw my other classmates...when i was looking around i spot a guy.. tall, cold, and cold... I can't really tell if his handsome cause his wearing a facemask...i did bother to look because he might say I'm crazy.. I sat at the very back seat cause it's the only vacant seat and it's where my other friend sated...

we just looked at each other.. I can't bring myself to talk to them cause I'm started to get shy.. I started to feel more pressure as the time pass by.. our sub-teachers started to  come to and started to introduce themself...after them we also have to introduce our self to the others and the teachers...It's almost my time after the 2 girls...I feel more nervous, my palm start to sweat...it's my turn "hi everyone my name is shay, I'm 15 years old"...........

Break time:

I'm alone right now... I'm quietly eating my cookies on my seat and reading some bl story on my phone...i got relax a bit by reading 

(time skip)

It's been 3 weeks, I started to get close to the new students.... I got close to a certain girl, she's Chelle. She's kind and fun to be with....and after some days I randomly got close to the guy I saw when i first enter the classroom, i could say his cool and so...we started talking and i started to flirt with him and his playing along with it... I didn't realize that i started top like him

we have a gc and there's no teacher in it, I'm quietly reading what they're saying in that gc not caring about anything at all...just reading, I'm not interested in there topic so i just read some bl but there's something that caught my attention...

"Jhyk, I like you"

It's what it said...i open the gc and realizing it's Chelle....she like Jhyk and i also like him....

"and i don't"

That's what he said to her...i started laughing on what he said and took a screenshot...i was actually pissed a bit about her confessing to him but it was cool...i don't pretty much care

I chatted him "what was that hahahaha"

"what what was?"

"your response to her hahaha"

"well, I really don't like her"

"ok hahaha"

as time pass i realize i really do like him...but i didn't confess to him cause i know it will fade soon.. and it did..

its been a month since we started talking...it's going well but there something that doesn't feel right....he started to not respond to any of my messages....even worst he even unfriend me...not only me but our other classmates to i don't actually know why...at that time that happened i started to not mind it...

but.....i got to know something i wish i didn't...

His courting my friend...not Chelle...but one of my best friend..lady..

After a week knowing that...i was starting to feel ok.. not mad, not jealous or something.. I'm shock why don't i feel anything, like anger...i just realize my love for him wasn't that strong enough to make me mad or jealous to Lady.... I've already experience more than what i did to him...when i was 10 years old i had my very first boy friend.... it's a puppy love.. that's what they say, but for me it isn't, it's actually love... how can a relationship that is almost 2 years be called a puppy love?.. anyways... I've experience being cheated on by him with my friend.. and that girl even like it.... i act like it's nothing cause our relationship wasn't that known to others....

back to the present...

so yeah.... It felt like nothing.... they started to reveal it to everyone that they are together.. I'm happy for them..im not mad or anything..im just happy... there are times where Lady gets jealous of me even when I'm just talking to Jhyk about our math... but she doesn't show it...Jhyk told me so i know...i know, and understand her...

when we, me and Jhyk stop talking, i got to meet someone...his kind, tall, and maybe handsome?.. yeah he is...but his not that kind of person at all...his kind of red flag...

me and Wynne started ok but at some point there are some nonsense fight because he can't understand me...i was chatting my guy classmates, my groupmates to be exact for our group project but he can't understand that... one pf my guy friend even unfriend me to respect my relationship but of course he is my friend before even we got together...we were just peacefully gossiping when he suddenly pop out of no where and started to make my friend go away...we didn't got a chance to even talk....

I'm angry at him cause he doesn't listen to me...i told him i hate the smell of cigarette and alcohol.. but he still smoke and drink alcohol... he doesn't even tell me and when his already drunk it's the time he will tell me...i got angry because of that...

our moving up is already around the corner.. I'm happy.. cause i can sleep peacefully...

(moving up day)

me and my mom went to my brothers graduation day...i don't have to go to mind because i don't have to if you're not one of the achievers... I didn't fail but i was almost one of them.. just one point... I'm not upset abut it.. my parents doesn't really care about our grades what they only want is that we finish our studies.. for them.....

i stay for a moment to my brothers graduation and went to mines cause i wanna watch...it is good...after my brothers graduation my they both went to get me to go home... we need to get ready cause we are going to the province.. that's why i didn't join our moving up ceremony.. but i don't care....

(first day of school grade 10)

I am much better than i was when i first enter the school in grade 9.... i actually don't like my section....i am in the section where most of them are trouble makers and noisy....im not  into noisy places.... it's was fine at first cause im not seating beside nor row of those noisy and troublemakers...im in the same row of Jhyk...his just seating behind me... I didn't feel anything...we are friends....

after a month as a grade 10 student, me and my bf broke up, our relationship starting to be toxic...we broke up 3 times because of our fights and i can't take his controlling over me so I decided to really stop the relationship.... for weeks he keeps begging me to get back with him, which i didn't cause I'm tired of it...i started to be more focus on my studies which i started to be an achiever, first quarter...

I notice that Jhyk and Lady's relationship isn't like before...because they started to fight...very often...maybe even everyday...i just notice that lady stop coming to our classroom to see Jhyk.. and Jhyk even feel so down...i ask lady what happen then she said they fought, it's like that for 3 days.... and i received a news that they broke up...

Jhyk didn't come to school for 3 days... and lady started to come to our classroom again... what i didn't notice is that she started to be touchy with Jhyk's friend, best friend.....i even heard from my friend that she hug him, infront of our classmates....they didn't know that they broke up..

i message Jhyk.. "hey..you ok?"

Jhyk:"yeah why?"

shay:"did you know what happen? did someone told you about lady and Jhon?"

Jhyk:"what happened?"

shay:"they said they hug in front of everyone"

Jhyk:"oh i heard that to someone..actually i suspect something since feb."

shay:"why?did something happen?"

Jhyk:"i wanna ask you something"

shay:"sure go on"

Jhyk:"in some kind of mobile games..is it normal if your boy best friend hold your account and rank it up?"

shay:"i dont really know.. but i guess yes...depends on the situation...if ...if only they do not use it for games but also using it to cheat then maybe...why does Jhon have her account"

Jhyk:"yeah, his the one who's using it"

shay:"i might be experience about this but... what my instinct say is they have something...but it might be wrong"

Jhyk:"but it might be also right..."

shay:btw..when will you come to school?it's been 3 days"

Jhyk:"tommorow"

shay:"ok..see you"

when it come to school i always go there early in the morning...especially when i hold the key of our classroom... i come to school early because our advicer comes to school late so i took the key and she approved....whenever i open the classroom i start to clean it cause it's dirty..

almost all of us is already here but.. he still hasn't arrived yet...after some time not paying attention to anyone cause i'm doing my notes... i notice his silhouette  and when i looked up.. it's him.. he actually come...i saw him but didn't bother to talk to him..

It's already time for our math subject... it's my favorite subject.. and the subject where we always compete...not only these but in other subject to.... sometimes we share answers sometimes we don't cause we know the answer.....

at that time that i confronted him about what happen to jhon and lady...we started to go back to what we were in the past.... we make fun of each other....and share our gossips...

the story repeats but not how it ended...

we were close like that for almost 1 month...yes we are close but not how we were when were in grade 9...it developed.....

"i like you".....