Desire

Big word isn't it . The fire it contains contains the danger,the terror ,the pleasure , the forbidden ,oh and so much more .

Well that's just how I know it . Dangerously forbidden.

You wanna know what I desire . Pleasure of the body that I precisely know that it forbidden. Especially for a married woman.

Well before I got married . I was not like this , I was an innocent little girl with a man of her very own dreams even though it was a marriage to unite the families . It was still my love .

On my wedding night I was kidnapped by the family enemies. The Shadow mafia . I was already accustomed to it . It was a normal thing. I already knew how this was gonna go . They were gonna save me . Like usual.

This was an even better part. I got to see all the action that was part of me . Ohh almost forgot danger was my middle name. I love the rush of adrenaline in my body. I love doing all the stuff that some mafia kids didn't want to do . I wanted to run the empire side by side with the man I love .

I passed out a few seconds and when I woke up I was in the car going home . I was feeling the heat in my body. I could see Mr Montgomery's big frame by me . I was already going home . The fact that I missed the action pissed me off. But right now that was the least of my troubles . There was this heat sensation in my body.

I tried to move a little bit but moaned harshly as I felt the tingling sensation in my body enveloping .

"Ahhh~ Ricardo please turn on the ..ahh~ air conditioner."

"It's already on , Sunshine are you okay. ". He asked in that harsh yet comforting deep voice . That screamed I'm the king and you must be the subject . He had the aura of a god .

"My body 's hot "I mumbled again . He must've listened to me since he made a short call to someone and before I knew it I was being carried away to the house . It was not the one we all lived in . It was a small villa nearby.

A few seconds later I felt water on my skin as he was bathing me. His soft slightly calloused large hands landed on me . Everywhere his touch landed it left a tinge of a need . The moment he was unbuckling my jeans I felt his hands on my äss . Although the grasp wasn't intentional it was still freaking hot.

He slowly bathed me with the utmost care he could give me . My shirt was off me. I was pretty much naked, not even my panties were on .

I felt his hand running on my bare chest. I felt warm and comfortable . And when that touch was gone it was just pissing my body ache for that.

"Don't stop …touch me again " I mumbled leaning forward to his shoulders . I rubbed myself on him and his chest felt good on me .

"You're are tempting a wrong person little girl ",he said lifting my body up . I felt the soft bed on my back. I twisted myself again to ease the itch.

"Help me "I said, weeping my heart out . I couldn't think or even make sense of what I was saying .

"Your tempting me "

With that everything turned blur . I felt the pain that cut through my body that soon turned into ecstasy. I cried and begged for mercy from the man that was banging his body on mine.

It felt good . The forbidden . The dangerous kind. Such a despicable act from this man was wrong. Forgot that I was having sëx with this man . I was doing it before my wedding day ,which was going to be held in less than 24 hours .

The moment he penetrated I felt myself close to haven. His heavy body was laying on top of me as he grabbed my bööbs, kneading them harder and harder every second . The kisses that I knew they were not supposed to be on me felt sweeter than honey could ever.

That alone made the euphoria even more tempting. Even more desirable. Because even after the drug wore off . I still wanted this . More . And more.

This very man that was making me beg for him was twice my age and more . A very dangerous man . That sort of knew exactly what I wanted and he gave it to me in buckets overflowing with pleasure.

This ecstasy that I'm selling you is also my nightmare . This man was my damned father in law and the man I was gonna get married to was busy preparing for our wedding.

Morning was when re reality really sinked in because Ricardo was my father-in-law. My father's best friend . Who had a wife that he adored . When I woke up he was looking at me with his usual cold eyes. Sitting on the edge of the bed That was filled with blood thirst . The lust from yesterday was gone .

"This never happened , I found you already not vìrgin , understand?", now that was the man I knew . Cold and non flinching

"Thanks , " I said looking, I knew it was for the best . I was gonna get married in a few hours. I couldn't lose what I had for this few second pleasure. He was married and I didn't want to become a homewrecker . Nor did I want to lose Jaden .

I stood up and prepared to leave .

Jaa cold right , I know , but I didn't quit mind because I was gonna get married to Jaden and we'll have even better sëx than this .

And that is why desire is called forbidden . Because it makes you lose control of the monster called bïtch that you've spent years taming . But pleasure is what it needs . And right now it is hungry and running on the street searching for pleasure because the taste of sweetness makes you want more and now so do I .I want more . So much more . Jaden saved me to give me what I want . I've tasted the fruit of the forbidden now I want more

2 years later

Have you ever been hungry? Oh no . Not that one day where you don't eat and think that is hunger. It is not

. Imagine you're in the Sahara desert. There is no water or food you've been walking for days but there is nothing that you can devour. And then suddenly you see a clear , perfect river …right when you think you can drink cause you've claimed the spot .

The owner of that river forbids you from even taking a sip. not even a tiny tinny droplet of water.

Well that's me . It has been 2 years since I got married. Don't get me wrong I love Jaden …very much .

But I'm really pissed . He acted so innocent the first time he heard I was not pure anymore.

As if he had never had a woman in his life.

I used to dream about him invading me . But it's pointless . He usually walks naked in the house and I could see him standing tall and proud. Which feeds and escalates my desires .

I'm thirsty for pleasure . I'm so tired .

I looked at him examining his body. It was already late at night . When he came home smelling some weird perfume drunk again . His clothes were out of place.

He must've had sex with another woman again. This had become the new normal .

The most intimate thing we've ever done is kissing only when his father was home. Which was about 18 months ago since his wife died . He went to the north . Hopefully to moan for his deceased wife. Not because it would be awkward looking at me .

He is the only thing that kept me sane. Just the stupid memory that vividly stays on my mind . My own husband is denying me my right . How absurd. He refused me . I've never heard anybody saying that I'm ugly

.

I'm not really an egomaniac. But seriously black ink hair with ink blue eyes to go with them. Skinny but with the correct fats in the right places .

I wonder why I never thought about cheating . I've always hoped that I'll make this guy lay me down even if it was once a week.

He passed right in front of me and didn't even care to greet me . He passed me and order the maid that I'm sure he onced fück to run him a bath .

This was really annoying. Who did he think he was?

Something in me snapped. I've been tolerating him for the past 2 years and he never even feels ashamed about it.

"Jade you know we lost the partnership with the southern gate keeper right?and you went out drinking" I tell him

"So…?" He turned his head in disgust . And holy shït something in me was boiling in me .

"Instead of sleeping around you could do your responsibilities as the next heir of the Mannar ."

"Oh and who are you a whöre that married me for power . Knowing that she was not pure anymore. "

"And let me guess all the women you fücked are virgins …?

"No but they are not hypocrites like you are. "

"What if I was the one doing the same thing you're doing to how you would feel?

"Nothing because that is what you are to me .

since you're concerned about the route father is coming soon " he turned around . and continue walking upstairs .

I stood there rooted to my ground . The sound of his name left me feeling wet.

I felt my body tensing up when Jaden's mom was alive. She didn't quite like my personality since she thought I wasn't feminine enough to carry her grandchildren. I didn't mind the guns, they actually filled me with excitement. I was not really that much of those sweet girls, who wanted nothing to do with guns. My father taught me how to use guns and how to defend My self . And even now I pretty much did all the work Jaden was supposed to do . What an äss hole. tell me about it

Apparently I was not good enough because she already had a woman that she considered perfect for his son. Even after having sëx with her husband I didn't feel a thing about her. The only thing I was concerned about was my own husband . Who had never even bother to touch me .

I love things that I know I shouldn't have . And Mr Ricardo was precisely what I shouldn't have .

He is the perfect poison that I shouldn't use. But I want him . Maybe that is why I never pity his wife . It felt as if my burden was lesser after she passed away . I could reminisce and mästürbätë all I want without even feeling a slight guilt.

Now that I think of it,my wish was to have sex with the love of my love . Now the love of my lover wouldn't even touch me. I'll just make sure I keep the one who stained me close, hopefully he'll dirty me more.

If this guy doesn't want me . I'll just get another guy. Not necessarily his dad but some like him . Powerful and dominant.

But who? Most man in my life are scared me

Or some empty mind dummies.

Ricardo was coming.

I felt a tinge of pleasure thinking about it . No, I just realized I like a man that has the same wild personality. But also someone stronger than me, someone who takes control. A man precisely like Ricardo. And oh baby there is no other Ricardo better than the mam than once invaded me .

I want him .

I want my father-in-law.

"now when is this soon ?",I mumbled under my breath . I needed to touch myself. It was itching.

The next day I woke to ear blasting noise . You could hear there were cars and the commotion was really driving me to the edge . 

I was already sexually frustrated . I did not need this since me and Jaden slept on different rooms it . Woke up naked after spinning a few times on bed to reach the edge of the bed. You could feel that the winter was approaching. It was slightly cold outside. 

I took my night robe and made my way outside . 

Oh my hell goddess . It was him in the flesh . There were dews on the car windows that he was leaning on .

 There he was wearing a perfect black suit that made his long legs stand out even more. There was not even a single criss on his clothes . His enchanting figure made him look terribly good. 

I saw him talking with some people that were also working for him . Everyone looked anxious seeing him knowing they just lost a route . 

My husband who was the cause of this mess because of his negligence. Even if I wanted to help I could not. He came in dressed in jeans and a white hoodie. He didn't even great me he went past but I didn't care . 

 I was engrossed in Ricardo who looked like a perfect sculptured guy. 

 Ricardo's pants looked wrapped up pretty tight around his neither region.

I was impatient looking at him was like heaven. This was precisely what I wanted. He took out a lighter and lit his cigarettes. Wow I wanted so bad to be the cigarette.

I was still engrossed in my own sexual fantasies. When I heard a loud groan . My stupid weak husband was on the floor in one punch . Ohh that looked really good . I always wanted to hit Jaden for being such a büm but there is nothing I could do about him being a jackass .

He knelt down and gave him two more punches. Oh no it finally hit me that he was bleeding . I ran forward to help him . He was such a weakling. But I couldn't let Ricardo hit my husband. Although I hated Jaden wholeheartedly I still love regardless.

"Ricardo forgive him …stop it …that enough !. " I pleaded as I was pulling him too my side and pushing Ricardo away. 

"Enough…? No no Luce del sole (sunshine Italian) … he deserves more . How could your husband be so ignorant? " he said with a cold voice that clearly had anger engraved in it. 

I knew that he was worthless but he is my husband and I have to protect him from stuff. I tilted my head down as I focused my eyes on him . When his dad was around they fought a lot and mommy was always there to fix it which is the whole reason why he was such a weakling. But now she was gone . One punch left him unable to stand up . 

"I apologize on husband's behalf ,I'm sure he's gonna do whatever it takes to get the routes and everything that he lost the past year . "I said giving Jaden a warning look 

"No I'm not ,"he said angrily as he shook my hands off that were on him . He had the same disgusted look in his face. "I've said this before I'm not gonna be the alpha of the pack ."

"Get inside the house princess " , Ricardo commanded

This was the whole reason why they didn't get along. Jaden had no dreams or visions so ever . Since he was the only family heir ,he had to get married to me so that we could have kids. But no he didn't even want to lay a finger on me and kept acting as if the virginity thing was the problem.

The bodyguards started coming to me and just as they were to hold me, I had to do something . Ricardo was definitely going to hit him. And pretty much badly just like last time . When he said the same thing.

"Ricardo, listen ,I need to talk to you now. It urgent please before you even lay your hands on him " I pleaded

He brought up his head to give me a sharp gaze. "speak " ,he said without showing a single emotion on his face. 

"In private if we may", I was trying to make my eyes so reassuring that I meant what I was saying because he would have lost interest or maybe even worse get angry 

He took a few steps forward and the bodyguards that were by my side left. He took me by the hand and led me to his study room that was near his room .

It was dimmed even after being lit . He pointed to a luxurious sofa that was close by. It was long and black . With pure leather. I straightened my back and went on to sit while he just leaned his lower back on a glass table that was nearby. 

"Didn't you had anything to say ?",he said bring me back to life. 

Oh my god I didn't even get enough chances to make up a stupid lie . I only said that to protect Jaden's add now I was the one on trouble. 

"Mr Ricardo…since Jaden does not want to be the leader of the pack ,how about I do it " ,I said . I don't know where the gut it took to say that came from but I strengthened my face to appear unflinching. Not necessarily that I was afraid of him, it was that I didn't want to have relations with him after that incident. 

We used to be inseparable because he took a liking in me and my father, but god now could never . 

"You know that you're a kid right ?"he said 

"I'm sorry Mr Ricardo what did you say?", I asked, confused . When will I grow up? 

"Are you 20…"

"I'm sorry then who's supposed to be the boss…? Jaden…?or you're going to be your boss even after you die,you'll manage everything in l the afterlife when you die ",I exclaimed. This really made me angry whenever they said I was a kid when they never treated me like one when I was one . 

You could see the anger in his eyes as I gave him my most undefeated gaze.

"Are you challenging me ?",he asked with a stern gaze 

I stood up from the sofa I was sitting on and headed straight to him with fixed steps as I said ,"No ,I'm saying you should give me what I deserve "

I didn't even care to think of his facial expressions. When I come to think of it that was the whole reason I got married to this stupid family. I was standing a few inches from his face and I could feel his breathing that was supper abnormal because of the anger . 

"You are a kid " ,he said angrily

"Ohh really am I ?...I don't think so …this is what I deserve ,and you're going to give it to me " I said angrily, poking his shoulder .

He evaded his gaze from my eyes and looked at his chest that had my finger on him 

"So you're all grown up now is that what you're saying . "

"Yess …because you made me when I was just a kid . You made me think that I was so head over with the perfect Jaden who just has a dick for a statue . Can't even touch him …let me guess why is that again ohh because I fucked his father and he doesn't even know it . "

Before I could say more I felt his hand on my neck . As he was choking me. He turned my body over and pinned me on his table . He leaned in his body and I could feel his breath on my skin .

This was turning me on. This was part of what I wanted . His hands were softer than last time but the grip was so hard . I would have felt better if he did this while he was inserted inside of . 

Despite him choking me I felt comfortable. 

"Ahh you fückën' slüt you're enjoying this ain't you!!",he said while releasing his grip on me .

I realized that I had been grinding myself on him and my breathing has become shallow . I didn't even stop him . Instead I wanted more.

I stood up and felt shy and embarrassed. 

" Fix that robe of yours, wow you're fückën' wet ",he ordered . 

I fixed my robe whole. I had my gaze fixated on his lower body . Gosh heavens were made of mean people. 

No matter how crazy I was . He was just as crazy as I am . Because his part of his body that had a brain of its own was all bulged up and throbbing. Rebelling wishing to be released.

" And let me guess you're not hard .",I whisper to myself. 

I stretched my hand toward him and touched his chest, which was freaking hard . To my surprise he didn't try to stop me. With that I got even braver . 

On his shirt I flicked a few buttons that were on his abdomen. His beautiful tightly intact muscles were visible . 

"Ohh angelo(angel in Italian),you're facendomi impazzire (driving me crazy )" he groaned slightly 

That and all fueled my desires . The bïtch that resided in me was hungry, starving and now food was right here . Its appetite was lust . And now this man was at the buffet waiting to fulfill my burning desire. 

I knew anyone could burge in at any movement . That alone made me see the doors that could lead me straight to euphoria.