"Why Are you doing this, I'm your friend."

This young woman pleated on her knees bowed to this man's feet with her head pressed down to the ground. Her body trembled and her once natural silky brown hair was now filthy full of grease, with dirt and gravel. She couldn't stand anymore nor was her body able to fight. she wore long black boots, she had a white skirt and a black long-sleeved shirt, but Her clothes are torn apart leaving hardly anything while her arms shook and pulsed in pain having nothing but deep cuts and dark bruises. scarlet blood flowed down her arms and legs while she struggled to move. She slowly lifted her head to look at the men. Tears streamed down her face. She could hear Screams and cries of pure fear filling the city as Explosions by the second erupted. one after the other, buildings fuming in flames with thick black smoke rising causing the atmosphere to thicken making everything harder to see, people losing their sense of direction falling into cracked streets or trying to escape the explosions. Some succeeded some did not. Everything became chaos... All because of this man. One man started it all. "friend? I I have no friends. All I lived with my whole life where people claiming to be my friend yet are nothing but backstabbers, I'm betrayed continuously and it's time to show my wrath. You don't know me like you think you do." The man spoke hatefully back at this woman. He knelt down and wrapped his cold right hand around her throat and viciously lifted her up and walked forward and slammed her against the wall, then pushed her up against it. He began to smile. His eyes, full of bloodthirst and hatred. They appeared so bloodshot because he hasn’t slept in 4 days, his pupils were black. His hair fell down to his shoulders with some hair cutting halfway through his face. He was wearing black baggy pants full of knives and swords that were hidden. He wore black leather boots and a black shirt that said ‘life is good’.

He looked at this girl tensely while she held on to his wrists struggling to breathe. " St....op." she barely spoke losing airflow. The man tilted his head looking at her then drops her to the ground. She coughed and gasped for air. Tears filled her eyes rapidly knowing the fact he almost killed her. She began breathing heavily shaking in fear. She kept her head down staring at the ground as she didn’t want to look at him anymore. He became someone different than who she once knew. He looked at her and knelt down, and with aggression takes ahold of her face lifting her face forcing her to look at him directly into his eyes. ”stay away from me.” he told her before standing up turning around and walked away until he isn’t in sight anymore.

Now this girl, she watched him leave with no life in her eyes before she fell unconscious collapsing to the cold ground. Her wounds kept bleeding causing her body to turn Pail. She began dying on her own slowly. No one around her cared to help her, they feared death and wanted to save their own lives. This girl eventually died from heartbreak and affection from wounds. The fire around her inched closer she was so hopeless with no hope left. She had left after a brutal reality.

Her name is known to be Sarah.

She was this man's best friend, she was someone who knew every secret, she loved him deep down within her heart but to scared to admit it. Now her fate has come for her. A lover killed by her own best friend she was the closest to. Her body laid until the fire around her finally reached her, she burned until she became ashes.

This man his name is Kaleb, he was once happy, full of life and joy.

He loved his family, he loved his friends. The older he got the more he wanted to try new things. And those new things lead him astray.

As he walked down the city looking at everything burning, he let out a tear of heartache and screamed at the top of his lungs. He collapsed on his knees and pleaded to God to help him. He stayed humbled before god for three hours before he gave up. “You know God if you were real, you wouldn't let me live like this." He yelled and screamed in frustration and anger.

He searched for answers to his pain. He searched for hope and love. He pondered and thought long and hard. His mind was in a dark place. He didn’t want to feel pain anymore. He didn’t want to feel broken anymore. He battled depression and the desire to murder. All he has ever known in his life was betrayal and drugs.

He stood back up and places his hands in his pockets only to look down to his left side pulling out a piece of paper that Sarah had slide into his pocket before he set everything on fire and beat her. He unfolded it and read it. “You gotta friend in me forever goomba.” His eyes widened as he began to remember something. He looked back and ran back to the last place he left Sarah. He searched and searched before he realized she wasn't there but in a pile of Ash. Kaleb began to scream. “What have I done.?!!."

*beep beep beep beep beep beep *

The alarm keeps going off until a hand slowly reaches over with a slight tremble pushing the off bottom. "damn." Kaleb said to himself sitting up from his sleep. His body trembled as he reached for his phone dialed a number and pushed call.

Sarah was walking to the bus stop by then. She felt her little flip phone vibrate. She stopped and pulled it from her pocket and looked at it, smiled and answered it. “good morning, you overslept again didn't you?"

Kaleb smiled "yeah, just needed your voice, listen I need to talk later at lunch." his voice sounded scared and worried. It made Sarah frown a little as she replied with concern in her voice “Yeah, are you ok? You sound like something’s bothering you .” She started walking faster so she didn’t miss the bus. Kaleb stayed silent for a few seconds before he spoke again. “ see ya soon. “ he hung up and left Sarah in question. She got on the bus and sat in the back of the bus. She begins to worry about Kaleb. She looked out the window and spaced out. Kaleb finished getting dressed combed his hair and grabbed his keys leaving his room. As he walked out of his house he looked up and thought .” what a nightmare .”

Sarah was born on April 11th, 1995, in Dothan Alabama. she has always been a girl who loved her life, as she grew up she was full of life and energy. She loved to sing and always enjoyed going to church with her family. She adored animals but her favorite out of all animals were horses. The older she got the more she started to enjoy life. She had an older brother a mother and a father. Her mother’s name is Theresa and her father was named Raymond, Her older brother is Jeremiah. She believed her life was great. She had a family, a church called ‘glory to him fellowship, ’ home and nothing seemed it would ever go wrong. She even became an older sister when she found out her mom was pregnant later on down the road. when her sister was born her name was Elizabeth. The first time Sarah held her sister she was full of joy and excitement. When her parents decided to move back up to Colorado Springs. She found it very difficult to leave her church in Alabama, she didn't want to leave her friends and the only place she knew best, but Sarah was forced to leave her friends. She didn’t want to leave but she had to, she was too young to make her own decisions.

Once she moved to the state of Colorado she settled into the new place. She made new friends and found a new church called lighthouse temple. She began to attach to the new place. Sarah found her best friend at the new church. Her name was also Sarah, when they met each other they were inseparable, they had many things in common. Sarah’s life started to get better and better as time passed. However; the first time she felt hurt and heartache was when she heard the news of her parents getting a divorce, she didn’t understand why. She believed for years it was her fault. She thought she has done something wrong. Sarah wept and cried pleading to God to keep her family together. The first time she felt a deep shatter in her heart was when her parents went through and divorced. Feeling like she has to choose which parent to like more and who to blame. She felt this hole. She couldn’t understand. Why God never kept them together.

Sarah loved everyone so much she hurt watching her family slowly become nothing, they fought and couldn't get along and pull together but Sarah lived with her mother, sister, and brother trying to keep what was left together while she began to drift from her father. With only phone call conversations with her father she still lost connection she once had.

Sarah was homeschooled until she was in 5th grade. went to a public school called wittier elementary.

She was always quiet and didn't talk much, She was shy and kept to herself.

One day she met a boy named Emilio. For the longest time, she thought he was cute and liked him a lot. Emilio approached Sarah one day and became friends. When it was time for recess they both decided to go swing on the school playground.

When they matched rhythm they both joked about being married. And when they swung off rhythm they joked about being divorced.

After a while, they became a couple. They were together for five years. Supporting each other and enjoying each other's company. Sarah felt loved and accepted knowing she had someone she already thought she loved and wanted to marry one day.

The first year they were together Sarah went onto 6th grade happy and full of life and love. While Emilio was in 5th grade. Due to the fact he was a year younger than her. on the second day of 6th grade, that’s when she met a boy she never thought would mean the world to her. She was assigned seats next to this emo boy with long hair. He seemed like he was nothing but trouble. Which he was. He was cocky and mean, he was always late to class and didn't act like he cared about school but only went for his friends. His name happens to be Kaleb, Now Sarah was young and still flirtatious so when she saw Kaleb she had this crush on him. She told him “your sexy” and made him smile. He liked how straight up and blunt she was so Sarah and Kaleb became great friends but nothing more. She was happy with Emilio. Unfortunately, the day she feared had come to pass, her heart had gotten broken as soon as the only boy she thought was the one told her he’s done with her because he had found his childhood best friend he was in love with. He chose this girl over Sarah and felt absolutely no sympathy for Sarah.

Sarah’s heart was shattered once again. Only this time, her first pain of loving someone and watching them walk away as if she didn't matter. Once she decided to finally move on. She had other crushes and relationships, but never once consider Kaleb, she only felt a friendship with Caleb because her relationship with him was so strong she didn't want to mess anything up. Other crushes came and went, she knew they were only fetishes. She played hard to get and chased after boys that gave her any kind of attention. She met a boy named Nathaniel and became his friend. She hung out with Nate a lot. But before she knew she was headed down a path that will give her an experience with the biggest heartbreak of her life. An event that will turn into trauma and will cause her to never be the same ever again. Her pain and sorrow ended up causing her friendships to crumble and some even helped lead her to make wrong choices. She began to lie to her friends and family because she desired love and affection. She lied so much she began to believe her own lies. Every cute boy she laid eyed on she became lustful and flirtatious.

She kept falling into the same mistake over and over, becoming obsessed with boy bands and boys at school, her friendship with Kaleb however, was always the same without change. Their bond for each other was real and tight. They knew everything about each other's secrets, hurts, and pains. They were practically inseparable. However, Sarah didn't see the treasure she had all along. Being so blind and obsessed with wrong things and people. So she ignored the signs of what she could have had in Kaleb, and decided to become focused on other unlikely things. Little did she know that was the beginning of her biggest mistake.

Kaleb was born in Lindale, Texas December 28th, 1995. He was always such a kind-hearted child from stories he once told me later on in life. Now from stories he shared from the past I’m certain he was a happy loving kid, he loved music and his family. He cherished his friends and loved his life. He had such many great memories of his childhood. However the older Kaleb got, the more rebellious he became. He gradually began to explore his identity and wanted to find himself. From his stories, Kaleb decided to change who he was around 12 years old. It was the first day of sixth grade at a school called west middle school when Sarah crossed paths with Kaleb. first day in science class with a teacher named “Mr. Olson.” Everyone in that class lined up in the back waiting to find out where they were assigned to sit. Eventually, Mr. Olson has called out Kaleb's name right after Sarah’s. Once Kaleb sat down in his seat he was smiling, he frowned and kept his head down with his hair over his eyes. That time Kaleb was known to be such a trouble maker. His hair grew long past his eyes and he was known to be a basic emo/gothic kid with an attitude. But that wasn’t all true about him. Kaleb loved the great outdoors and loved to explore. He had always been down for an adventure. Even if it was risky and could get him into trouble. He loved heavy metal music and even sang in his own small band. His favorite animal was a brown bear and loved to draw. Unfortunately, at this young of an age, he happens to get involved with many different drugs secretly without anyone knowing what he had been doing. Once Sarah sat down next to him her very first words to him were “you are freaking sexy.” The moment Sarah saw him. Kaleb and Sarah locked eyes with an immediate connection. Kaleb smiled at Sarah and replied with two simple words. “Oh yeah?”

After that moment Kaleb and Sarah exchanged numbers after class and talked a lot after class. They talked outside of school and sometimes even all night long. they became great friends while days past on. Every day they became inseparable. Sarah learned so much about Kaleb within the first month of school. Kaleb had a contagious smile, a contagious laugh, and a contagious voice that could make anyone smile.

As days went by Sarah learned Kaleb was actually a very broken kid. His childhood changed when he began to change. At the time when Kaleb decided to go through an emo/gothic stage people he deeply cared for had abandoned him. Neglected him and treated him like he became trash. Kaleb began to feel alone and heartbroken thinking he wasn’t worth anything. Everyone around him seemed to reject him and even became extremely abusive towards him. Kaleb has told Sarah she was the only one he had gotten to know who chose to stick with him and didn’t treat him any different. Sarah learned how Kaleb began to choose drugs to forget the pain around him. Kaleb had also slept around with many different girls to try and feel that connection and love he desired. However every time he felt a possibility his heart got trampled on and torn apart. Girls used Kaleb as a very easy target to get materialistic stuff, sexual desires or anything that these girls could get from him.

So Sarah has felt so much sorrow in her heart after knowing how much Kaleb had been abused and used, eventually leading up to drug addiction Sarah didn’t want to ever leave his side. She vowed she would stick by him till the very end. Kaleb told Sarah every hidden secrete Kaleb held inside. Because he trusted her, out of every friendship he created, Kaleb knew Sarah was the only real friend. They became close friends that had convinced other people they became a couple. Sarah thought otherwise and denied it. Sarah kept telling everyone they were nothing but close best friends. Whereas Kaleb began to fall in love with Sarah and tell everyone the opposite of what Sarah kept telling people. To Sarah, Kaleb was like her brother and she cherished him deeply. But Kaleb had begun to want Sarah more so he gave Sarah obvious hints of his feelings towards Her by showing certain emotions and affections towards her. However, even though Kaleb and Sarah were close, Sarah always rejected him. Because Sarah is a Christian, Kaleb was an atheist. Sarah always reminded him that if he even wanted a chance with her he would have to find God and become a Christian. She didn’t want to be in a relationship that was unequally yoked with her. But she didn’t realize she was allowing her faith to affect Kaleb in a negative way. She was still clueless about how she was treating him and never bothered to share why it’s important to her to believe. which only hurt Kaleb deep down. The only secrete Kaleb kept from telling Sarah was His true feelings because Sarah chose not to see the obvious hints and love he had to give her.

He was lost and needed direction, yet Sarah ignored him unintentionally. Focused on her own selfish needs. The more and more Kaleb chose to just shut his real feelings away the more Sarah began to just assume he didn't truly want her by changing. Not realizing that forcing someone to believe just to have her was the wrong action to make. Kaleb didn't understand why Christianity was even worth to believe in. Everything that was going wrong in his life only lead him further away from the faith. Sarah could have instead explained to Caleb why her faith is important to her and why she is Christian. And how it could even help change his life. But Sarah never spoke about it because Kaleb always rejected the faith. So Sarah gave up and stopped. However the actions Sarah chose to do also told Kaleb about her faith. Kaleb watched Sarah’s obsession increase with boy bands. Such as the Jonas Brothers, one direction, etc. However, what Kaleb learned about Christianity from Sarah was the opposite of what he needed to see. But without confronting and calling Sarah out on her lack of Christian like example, he preferred to allow Sarah to be happy rather than his own happiness and questions. He was happy knowing that regardless of the way he always saw and viewed life. How he constantly mocked her faith, he knew regardless of all the small petty fights, Sarah never once left him and tossed the friendship away, she was always there for him. But as the years went on. He suffered through with his life with everyone around him hating him and how he filled his life with deeper depression. He was stuck in the darkness holding on to a small amount of light. Kaleb suffered and continued seeking affection with other girls, he began to suffer with his self-image, he began to fill his body with more drugs such as meth, heroin, cocaine, etc. Kaleb had also gotten into drinking alcohol that helped him forget his pain and sorrow for a short time. He drowned his mind in music that told him he is worthless and better to die. He cried himself to sleep and even slit his wrists daily. Watching his thick warm blood drip down his arms he laughed and smiled at his pain. His family and fake friends began to slowly fade from him and even became more toxic and abusive. Kaleb lived with getting emotionally and physically beat. The only comfort he could feel was the hug and encouragement from Sarah. Kaleb couldn't help himself but to slightly pressure Sarah into some unexpected affectionate actions during those times being under the influence. Every time when he had a day when he hated everything and life. Always telling Sarah everything, Kaleb showed Sarah bruises and cut marks on his arms and even thighs. Which always freaked her out and caused Sarah to cry telling him she wants him to stop. Sarah allowed herself to have a few intimate heavy make-out sessions with Kaleb because deep down she was attracted to him, and wanted to do anything to help him feel better and stop his pain. She loved Kaleb just as much as he loved her, but chose to deny them because of different believe views. However, Kaleb wanted more of Sarah but refused to move further because he respected the fact Sarah was a ****** and she told him to stop. Kaleb always stopped himself even though he knew he could have easily taken what he wanted from her. But he cherished his friendship with her far too much to force his needs on her. Kaleb held his feeling back and continued to cut himself, he dived deeper into sorrow and sadness. just to allow Sarah to feel comfortable and obsess with these boy bands or even other ’cute’ boys. He only caused himself to suffer by not telling her what he truly felt for her. Which lead up to Sarah’s biggest mistake on that day that killed both of them. Kaleb kept calling out for help. And Sarah never noticed because of being blinded by the unlikely to happen obsessions.

This is Kaleb.

P.s. This story is really hard to write for me.

This story is based on real-life events.