That day! That day changed my life i can't forget tha That day....

So when was the first time I met him?? *Thinking* hmm....I guess it was mid year of 2021.

When i saw myself in those beautiful stairs just like local streets of Paris,chaos of people, golden light coming from street light making scenery more beautiful....

At all those chaos of golden hour I saw him first time... wearing white shirt, rolled sleeves,soft fluffy brown hairs, honey caffeine brown eyes & pleasent sweet deep voice ( you know what is funny, after all this details i still can't fully remember how he really looks ...his real face)....( Maybe i was lost in his eyes and enjoying those moments).

He came forward to me,in those moments taking steps towards me where i was still standing completely unaware of what happening around me .... As we finally stood facing each other he gently move chair of near table from us gesturing me to sit (such a gentleman 🤭).

A moment later i finally realised it was a blind date,

We talked so much, his sweet honey deep voice made conversation smoothly with my inner awkwardness. As we were talking i realised how deeply we were in conversation...(unfortunately i don't remember anything about conversation or what we talked about, but i am deeply sure about that we both were deep in conversation).I talked so much infront of him like i never talked this much in life.

Suddenly...there was so much chaos around us between crowds than before,as i was just about to see what happened some droplets fall into my eyelids to make me realise the reason of chaos.

It was raining, making people running here & there and between all this sudden chaos he grabbed my hands gently and started leading way to unknown streets under rain which was coming down as shining little pieces of stars under streets making it absolutely golden hour..... making us wet in that golden water droplets.

Now, as we both were running under the starry rain. Somehow we started being playful, being ourselves,lost in each other started to play under rain. (It was so memorable that if someday i could go again in that moment i would love to absolutely from beneath of my heart ♡)

We stopped under roof of nearby shops,...

Suddenly, I felt sharp pain in my body as i stood at that moment. He silently noticed something, in that quick situation he quickly grabbed jacket (idk where that come from,did that jacket was with him from the start!?)

He covered my lower body as i was wearing white dress ,... Realisation hit me in my spine core when i saw blood stains in dress (shit!!!!!why period should come in this situation)

I was about to burst into

tears+embarassment but he quickly pulled in in his embrace.

Embracing me in his arms, wiping my tears,"shh! Don't cry it will be okay, it's my time too go. I will definitely comeback until then wait for me 𝙎𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙚" he gently said with his honey voice & before i could say anything i found myself sitting in his bicycle behind him.

He was riding me somewhere.

As we reached at unknown destination,

He hugged me once again before disappearing,& i was once again too late to react or stop him from going, ask him who is he? But He slowly disappeared in those '𝙶𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝚒𝚜𝚝'♡

Sayin',"𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴"

.....♡

𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙞 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙘𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮 𝙄𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙮 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢 𝙢𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙪𝙣𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣& 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙞 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙨𝙤 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙝𝙞𝙢 , 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙧 3 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙛 𝙮𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙩 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙩 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙞 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙨𝙤 𝙞 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙬𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙞𝙢 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙘𝙧𝙞𝙗𝙚 𝙖𝙨 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡 𝙖𝙨 𝙞 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙨..

Days passed...months passed,many ups and downs in life happened from most happiest to one of saddest days goes by~

And then one random night as i didn't expect him to fulfill his last promise...

                  (Last Promise)

"shh! Don't cry it will be okay, it's my time too go. I will definitely comeback until then wait for me 𝙎𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙚"

.....

How many months had went after first time i met you? 2 months? 4 months? No 11 months

It's been 11 Months i met you! did i miss you yes! I did miss you ♡ but...

did you miss me?

........

Finallyyyyyyyyyy! You came that day after 11 months to fulfill your promise ...but , something was different this time... different because this time i already became someone else's present! Looking forward to my future with him

BUT you still came, came to fulfill your promise!

U still came & when you came to meet me you smiled to me warmly hiding your pain so i don't tear up ....

When i opened my eyes that day in that unreal world. I was in roof of house with those same golden light in golden hour time

As i blinked my eyelids in those shining rays you appeared infront of my eyes

as you appeared , You spread your arms for me to run to you and i didn't wasted any time to run & jumped in you warm Embrace ♡

That hug & embrace was so warm that i still remember it warmed up my all cold tears i was flowing non stop over someone else.

You didn't said anything for some minutes just letting me cry like baby on your arms and a you just petted me on my head...i cried & cried until i started trembling , making my eyes red , getting out of my breath and start shuttering

I just said one thing in trembling voice, "see! I am in pain. It's hurting so much because of him please take me with you.....i don't want to live in that world"

Looking back to that that day i realised how much vulnerable but innocent i was

But you..

You never made me feel like i was weak or vulnerable. You always tried to show me how much i worth,you always warmed me up in coldest time of my life even though....u never existed in real life

U never existed except my unreal world & in my heart

and After i calm down a little from crying my heart out in his arms, he said in most gentle voice like warm cup of tea in cold weather....yet hint of sadness ,"

He said holding me onto warm hug,"shh! I know i know u are hurt, it's paining, it's very painful for you but you are not weak my love you aren't...you are very strong u kept it all inside you & i know....for now you are not mine but you still miss me somehow deep inside your heart i know everything so shh"

He took a pause and lift up my face with his warm palm to look at him in eyes

...as i saw his those brown eyes which looks like, those eyes saw too much maybe something that i never saw or can see , those which was filled with love of him for me and so much sweetness inside those ...eyes

"Cry as much as you want,i am here for you you every second every minute everyone hour any time you need me sunshine...just know this i love you no matter what".

Hearing this words from him made my heart cry more i couldn't help but fall for this guy more & more

The real question is who are you, why are you coming into my dream, mind and now my heart like this. Do i know you? have i ever met you? what kind of connection is this? why i am feeling it so intensely? Just who are you & what connection we have?

And holding my hands At last he looked into my eyes and said the thing i didn't understand that time but looking back now i know what he meant

He gazed at me seriously and said,,"my love listen to me carefully and remember but i am going to say......that person who is hurting you even though you love him i know it will be hard to listen & believe but sorry he is not the one , he will eventually leave without looking one day...."(his words came true after 3 years)

i was...idk what i was feeling hearing it or what, i know i was just standing looking at him like kid what he was saying and how he knows...

He suddenly spoke up,"and even if he or everyone leave you buy i will be still here for you anytime so please don't cry"

I felt his arm tightnen around me making me realise it's time for Goodbye is coming i quickly hugged and this time again before i could ask who is he?

He kissed me deeply in his arms and picked me in his arms...

And again for Last time kissing my forehead while i am in his arm words from his mouth said in most gentle way," i will soon meet you again my love wait for me until then... goodbye"

And i woke up again with tears on my eyes.... asking,"who is he?"

As i thought life was finally growing... unfortunately i also started forgetting you,as I thought you were just my imagination or a coincidencal dream

Until you again came to meet me after last meeting, surely 2/3 months after...

But this time why everything was blue!?

You always used to come with warm light like golden hours, right? Then why this time... world seems to turned blue

I opened my eyes again in that unreal world, to see myself in cold dark but blue ocean shore

The sparkling lights from bioluminescence of ocean blue water & bright milky moon brightens my view...and in those calm but intense sounds of waves folding in ocean

I saw you.

And as i saw you, you came running towards me this time like kid, you wanted to tell something so am I

But i should have realised the reason that day world turned blue because of me , my answer, my decision.

you seem to be little upset about something this time. Just a moment ago you were smiling seeing me now as you reached near me you are restless

He hugged me tightly before i could said anything and just as he broke the hug he looked deeply into my eyes, and spoke,"i am back! my love.."

hearing this words from him was indeed comforting,I should have known what our connection is i was happy to see him, meet him again. Wish i could go back again and in those gentle feather like ocean waves music with touch of sparkling sands beneath our feet was...idk how to describe it's always indescribable, unexplainable experience i had i still feel but....never in real but i can still feel those sensation in my nerves deeply

I vividly remember we talked for some moments... sitting beside each other (i wish i could remember the conversation atleast)

I gently played with thise sparkling sands and talking to him like a 5 yrs old talkative child.

It's very beautiful feeling yk when you excitedly want to talk about something you love and someone there sitting beside you and all they just do is listen and admire you like you are their world.

it' didn't matter if i talked logically or most stupidest thing but the look in his eyes they never changed!!

(But the unfortunate thing is you never realise because in that moment you are in your stupid topic where you babble like baby and you don't seem to realise that someone beside you admiring like it's most important moment, view for them)

.....

And then he asked something maybe that's day i shouldn't... answer

He asked suddenly ," you really love him, don't you?”

i couldn't helped myself from blink for second in confusion then realisation hits me..that he asked about my real life partner that time (ex)

he stood up..

Turned his face to me with bitter smile..i can see his sadness behind smile (but i sin is i realised late everything) he asked me again,"you love him very much, don't you?"

I gently lowered my head in acceptance, i didn't know why did i felt hesitation then but now i knew.. before i could answer one thought came into my mind that day,

if i tell him, he won't be sad, right ? He won't leave me, right? He is like...my freind , right?

Gathering up courage i finally spoke my answer ," yeah,i do love him alot.. please understand me i loved him for 4 years one sided and finally we are in relationship happily after last argument when you came in my dream it's been 6 months of relationship i am happy he treats me well, he cares for me and we are trusting this relationship especially me"

He was facing his back at me & ig this is the only time he ever showed me his back

he turned and gave me again those same gentle smile and said last words before disappearing," it's okay my love go to him but remember whenever you will need me, call me i will be here for you as always my... SUNSHINE just don't get hurt!"

His words somehow broke me deep inside it's like he is letting me go because he can't stop me from making mistake or warn me this time.

there was cruel sadness in his voice

And...he started going towards the ocean

I wanted to..stop him but i was selfish i was wrong

Maybe it's fate that, that day i chose someone else and he let me go for my happiness and world turned blue from golden hour

....