The heart aching from afar

That motherfucker I hate him please I don't want him to live in this world If I could just kill him I would be happy I JUST HATE HIM WHOLE HEARTEDLY in a world with him is the most cursed thing ever happened to me, it's his fault why I'm i suffering why just why I'm asking why

The voice in my head is screaming I don't want suffer I wanna live but I can't cause he the causes of all my problem I wish he would disappear from this world WHY I m the only one suffering from this dark ally the wild beasts are everywhere ,in order to find their prey I don't want to suffer I don't want to be anybody's prey anymore I wanna be freed from this black magic ,why would anybody listen,yes they need reward for listening,why I'm the unlucky one here ,the world I'm suffering from i wanna destroy it the people I think I love ,I have to kill them and make my heart a stone again,I hate people I hate them I wish they would disappear from my site , I wanna stab them and make them bleed the blood they have in their body like they did to me I want them to suffer ,the pain i felt and the tears I give for them I wanna kill every each one of them I wanna know the truth why are they like this to me ,if they did to me they will suffer

Pain

Pain

Pain

Suffering

Hate

Revenge

Every one of it i want it

all for me

I want it

Alone

Alone

Alone

Sad

Dead

Whyyy

Whyyy

Why are you doing this to me whyyy

This world is not good to me

I wanna cry but the

World will consider me as a weak

I don't wann 'it

That's why I have to stay strong

Strong but dead inside

ALWAYS

Till the end of my days

I wanna apologize

But my tongue has been cut of by my sin

My sins are overflowing like a waterfall

I have no power left in me

Still...............

Trying to find the truth

*the sadness of the *un.wanted sea*

In this world no buddy can save me from this hell

Who gonna save me from this hell

Who gonna pray for me

Who's gonna take my burden

From me

No Peace

In my life

In my family

I was only a puppet

I hate him he is trying to ruin our life's

They think they are the upper predictors

But unfortunately they are not

I hate them

I hate them

I hate them

I have to get rid of them

Or

I have to move out

I fucking hate my self

Why I suffer

Why I have anxiety

Depression

And health issues

In my life

I don't have any peace in my life

I want peace

But they can't give me that whyyy

The rain and the cold Breeze

In the time of cold

My feets are cold

My hands had be tried

But I still finding the beauty of the cold

Love the rain gives.

I will make your body cold

But

Also make your body lite from the burden

The picture and memories are falling in the rain

The hot coffee with your family

Are flushing like a ray of light

I hope we be like that together

Again

The rain make the worry gone

The sound of my soul dancing and singing

In the rain glems

The water droplets are like crystals in the sky

Falling for me

The only person

Who cry with me for night's

The sound of crystals falling from the sky

Makes my heart calm

sucidal thoughts

What's wrong with me

Think about sucidal thoughts

Like the world care

If I'm gone

I feel like sht

My tears are falling

Do they care

Never

they are acting

if I'm dead

All the tears are full of lies

regards of there sin did to me

They will pay for it

I'm trembling

But no one cares

Some times I often get this

I don't know but this time it's worse

I feel I can't do anything

In the dark room

Only the shadows are with me

To feel my sorrows

No one saves me

Whyy

I'm i not enough

I will try

Please notice me

Please

I'm suffering, trembling

Nobody can save me

But me

I have to live so far

But my heart is still wanting the full- peace

And it want to rest

Like I want

You will never be enough

For them

They say I'm pretaned to be hurt

They I'm joking

The pain suffer though my vain every day

Is a lie

I'll be the lier to them

Forever

I have to climb this mountain

To see the sun light

I have to see it

Before my end

bear it

You can do it

You are brave enough

To climb this mountain

Please

Please

Save your self

My baby i know you are suffering

You will get over it

My future self let the Karma take the lead

sadness overflowing,(reality)

My mother think that I'm the reason

Why she is sad mad every thing happens in her life I'm the problem

She hates me

My hate for her is growing like a tree

You act like you care

You play the victim

After hurting me

And manipulate me by crying

She always cry when some is against her will

And u will accused for fake problems

One day my mother was arguing with me and she started to cry

And my brother saw it slap me in the face

I don't do anything worng

He beat me up that

Day

People say it's all because they

Love you

My mother is a monster

She will everything to make me a doll for her will

I have to do everything she say

One day I ask my mom " mother I'm tambling"

She didn't bat an eye

Simple saying

You are pretending

I still live in this house

Noo hell more like hell