I woke up to a brightlight hitting my face , as the sunlight pierced through my curtains I struggled to open my eyes which were sore from crying last night..I remembered....my eyes went wide open!..as I thought 'huh!!I am going to have a rough day today'...My spring holidays had come to an end and I had to go to my school to start the new semester

I pushed myself of my bed and slowly made my way to freshen up and get on with my day...I washed my tired looking face and moved to my walkin closet and wore the usual..a hoodie and my sweats ,then I grabbed my bag and left my room

'ma'am your meal has been prepared' said the maid.

'where are mom and dad??'I asked knowing the answer to it.

'They had to catch a immediate plane to Japan due to some issue in the business' she replied

'huh!' I sighned and said that I was going to skip my meal as I was not hungry...

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( I wish I had a normal family were I could have meals and go out and have fun with my parents

my parents have always been busy with work and traveling and I never got to spend time with them but I was not alone and never felt lonely as I had my older brother with me but now I am all alone as my brother moved away to Australia 5yrs ago for handling the family business their and I haven't seen him since and I really miss him and hope that I get to see him soon.

I'm living in this massive l house by myself...all alone....)

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I got into the car and off to school....I was feeling anxious as I was getting closer to my school, about to have a panic attack but before I could have, 'ma'am we have arrived at your school ' the driver said making me go blank, I tried to collect myself and got off the car........

'Let's get through this!' I said to myself trying to cheer myself up as i made my way to the hallways and to my locker...as i was walking I kept my head down low as I was trying to not make any eye contact.

'THUDD!!" bumped into someone and fell hard on the ground whimpering in pain and with fear to look up and face that person as i thought that i was going to get beat up just like the other time...

(With my eyes tightly shut!) I waited for that person to do what I thought he was going to do but to my surprise, he calmly started picking up his belonging and helped me up and moved on as i was standing stiff as a rock..i tried to look at that person's face but...a dark blue hoodie covered it .

'huh!' atlast what felt like a walk through the amazon had come to an end .I reached to my locker and placed my things and grabbed the necessary books for my classes and went on with my day with my fingers crossed.

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'YES! finally my first day to school was done and over' i said with great happiness.... yes I did have few people call me names and throw my stuff off to the ground but it was the usual and was not as bad as I thought ...well hope the next few days stays the same.

I got through the first week and I'm already tired of it...

It's the weekend and I had nothing much to do as i laid on my bed staring at the wall about to have another breakdown..i heard a car pull up with loud laughters, I got up and walked towards my window to get a look at who they were but it was too late..they were already inside ....

'Ugh!' i sighned to myself as i would have to greet them.

I walked down and out the door to my neighbors house,I stood by the front door and rang the bell and waited patiently. I heard someone say 'Go! get your ass up and open the door' and then i heard footsteps walking towards me. As the door opened, I saw a green eyed blonde smiling beautifully at me ...lost in my thoughts I was brought back by him asking who I was..snapping back to reality 'Hey,I'm your next door neighbor aspen' I said with a gentle smile.

He gently smiled back at me and said 'hey I'm cameron and i-' his words were cut of by a boy with rosy red cheeks followed by three other boys asking him why was he taking soo long..as they saw me all the boys ran toward me and cameron, all interested to know who this new face was ' she's our next door neighbor..aspen' said Cameron and I looked at the other's with a curious face as i was eager to know their names..they laughed at my curious face while I looked confused 'hey i'm lucas' said the boy with rosy cheeks 'I'm jonah and you're beautiful ' said the boy with a very beautifull raspy voice and was the tallest out of all..i looked down and blushed by his comment ' well I'm daniel and this is felix...' he said laughing at my red face .'hey!! That was my line..i wanted to say my name myself' said felix pouting .

'Would you like to join us??? U've been standing in the front door for a while' said cameron 'no..no! I would not like to disturb you as you moved in today ,let's talk another time 'I said. As I walked back to my house..silence filled and I felt the loneliness crawl back in....

As i walked back to my room I heard a worried voice say 'ma'am you have not eaten since yesterday'

(Well i lost my appetite long time ago but I didnt want her to worry so I put on a smile ) I said 'I would like it if you would send the food to my room' and proceeded to make my way up.. the food was brought up soon after.... well i just flushed it down the toilet and just laid on my bed and got lost in my thought again! and before I knew my eyes grew heavy.

I woke up after a few hours feeling comfy but empty...as usual

I got up and changed my clothes to take a little walk..

I got out of my gate and started walking , well guess who I saw again....

'We meet again!!' said lucas with an excited face.

Well I found it very cute and let out a giggle.

'Soo were are you headed to??' I asked.

'We wanted to get something to eat and also check out the neighborhood....would u like to join us?!?! ,you can show us the neighborhood!!' said jonah

'Wel- well I- ' i stuttered trying to make up my mind

'Pleeaaasssss~~' said felix

Well who can resist that face...and obviously I said yes!! we all started to take a walk together as i showed them the neighborhood. I started the conversation as it was getting quiet

' I am very curious of your ages..u guys look young!' I said walking beside them

'Well i am 19yrs..jonah, felix,Daniel are 18yrs and lucas the youngest is 17yrs' said cameron 'and I'm 17yrs ' I said finishing his sentence.

'Atlast I have someone the same age as me!,they treat me like a kid..' said lucas with a sad and glad face

(I smiled at his innocence)

'What made you move in here??' i asked as curiousty got me

'Well we moved to this place to pursue our dreams and career as a boy band ' they said.

'you guys are soo brave ,I wish i could be lik-' ...I stopped ,my face went blue, my breath hitched, my heart about to explode as I saw someone really familiar.....I saw my.......................

I saw my two nightmares....together! my middle school bully and my toxic ex (wow!! Perfect timing!...but y r they together holding hands ??)

I snapped back to reality when'are u okay..u look pale' a concerned looking jonah asked.

(At that moment I just wanted to run..)

'well! ,well look who we found babe' my bully( by the way her name is kacy),at that being said my ex examined my whole body with a horrific grin on his face...it brought back traumatizing memories of the past 4yrs i spent with him.

( I guess the boys understood a bit of the situation)

'I'm sorry but me and my friends are runnin a bit late but it was nice meeting you' said felix with a calm yet serious face and just grabbed my wrist dragged me away as the other boys followed us...

After walking for awhile felix stopped and asked with a very worried face 'who were they??' as the other boys put on a curious face.

(I just couldn't bring myself to tell them,I was scared ...i just made friends and if they found out that I was bullied what would be their reaction..i was scared )i kept my head low. 'guys stop it! If she is is not ready to us then its fine, we can't just force her...' said Daniel. He face to me 'we can wait till you're ready to tell us but are you okay?' ,(I was glad that I had people who cared for me )i gave them a warm smile said 'yes,all thanks to you guys'

After that we just continued our talk and got some food and headed back to our house.

As we reached our gates and was about to enter 'hey! Would you watch a movie with us??' Lucas asked.

'ummmm' I was a bit hesitant... 'ya it'll be fun' rest of the boys said with excitement. ( well..,I changed my sweaty clothes and went into their house).Their house was beautiful and their living room was large, it was similar to my house but it had a more cozy,warm vibes while my house felt...cold....After picking out the movie which took a long time,we sat down in the couch 'oh wait!' Said cameron as he ran to the kitchen and wait!! I smell popcorn!!( though I was happy that I was going to have popcorn, I felt a bit anxious of eating....i was scared of food but glad that I ate some after few days of starving myself). He then came back and sat with us. Jonah , daniel and felix bought few blankets and lucas bought few more snacks. It was perfect ,we all cuddled up in the blankets on the sofa (the sofa was large enough to fit ten people).

(It's been the longest time since I had soo much fun and was actually happy but can I really trust them and consider them as my friends?...I don't want to make the same mistake again.. )I thought to myself and as I looked around ,all the boys had already fallen asleep (hihi!! They look like overgrown puppies!! and bears!!..cute...) slowly my lids grew heavy and I drifted away to my comfort realm....