"Mommy, I have to go now enough of the advice, I'm like 16 now I can take care of myself "

"Sure you can"She replied sarcastically,

While I made my way to the door,

Woah am I 16!!!?

Not now bitch think about that later in the day, after finding your way to school.

I actually hated running but yeah

I had to run to catch the bus,

sprinting across the road and getting into the bus. Staring at the faces of people I knew nothing about, people that know nothing about me was kind of a .......... relief 😌

Jeez, I was tired if hiding in shame.

And life goes on again I thought as I scrambled to a place I could perfectly feel invisible in.

Everything was happening so fast, no not everything actually My life was moving so fast I could barely adjust to the fact that I've been 16 for the past 7 months ugh!!

I had to keep my face as neutral as possible cause I my thoughts were reflecting on my face.

The way the girl opposite stared at me I noticed instantly.

"Get it together girl" I mumbled to myself.

Then it came back to me what I've been thinking about since the day before today .

Just thinking about bit usually made me sick.

How am even going to introduce myself!!?. I heard you're usually asked to introduce yourself in front of the whole class...mehn 😔

Maybe I'll have to make it to class very early, sit beside someone fat, so that I can perfectly hide myself so the teacher wouldn't be able to notice me. Great plan, you got this bitch.

That was the moment I noticed how beautiful the surrounding was. It's nothing like Cameron, This place is so fine.

I tried to fill my chest with air. And yeah my nose noticed the air over here wasn't really like back there.

The air in duoala was gentle and warm, carrying the warmth of the sun and the coolness of the shade. The air was crisp and clean, with a trace of the scent of wildflowers.

You could feel innermost peace just by breathing.

But here? The air was sharp, carrying a rush if pedestrians, the air is thick with activities, A constant buzz that vibrates through every molecule, with each breath your lungs is filled with a sense of energy and dynamism.

The air is alive electric and always in motion just like the city it self.

I was lost in my head as always....but for longer than I could remember.

And it struck me the bus had stopped for the past 30 seconds or so, and everyone was out except me!!!

I had to walk down last looking into the sarcastic eyes of the driver feeling as awkward as ever.

So......how do I find my way,

"where do I even go from here"I asked my self

while walking into the hallway with my head down.

I think it's wired looking down, I need to act cool, normal.

I decided to look up and walk confidently like someone that has a destination.

It's time girl!!!

Friendly face scanning mode activated😊

Scanning all the faces like a camera wondering who my legs will lead me to.

I found myself in front of this really warm,

stunning girl with long, curly honey-colored hair, bright green eyes that sparkled with warmth, and a radiant smile that lit up the room. She had this quirky, creative energy and a kind, adventurous spirit,

Well 🤷, my legs chose her for a reason.

Open your mouth girl!Jeez 🤦🏾‍♀️ don't mess this up bitch my brain yellled.

what if I sound wierd? what if my accent is too bad? what if the pitch of my voice does match my face? what if I stutter?

Melt down🧠

I started talking when the girl stared at me with this question written on her face "WHAT?"

"Uhh...Hey" I stuttered my voice sounding shaky

" Got a minute? I'm totally lost. I just got my schedule, but I have no idea where any of these rooms are."

"I know the feeling trust me, what's your first class?"

OMG!!! her voiceeee... it's so sweet.

Tf your straight girl. Get it together.

"Uh,It's maths.....in room 205"I replied, gaining some confidence.

"Okay, sure....umm....take straight down that hall,take a left at the lockers,and it's on your right. Hurry, you don't wanna Miss it.

"Thanks, I really appreciate"

"No worries, welcome to our school" she said with a very warm smile.

And off I went to room 208, wait!! what did she even say again....yohhhh you're Messed up girl 🤦🏾‍♀️

And yet again I found the class simply by following a buncha girls just because I heard the word "maths" in thier discussion

My brain went into scanning mode, just like it did in the bus.

I had to look for a place where I had to feel invisible in.

Spotted two possible places, The last seat at the East wing of the class, or the seat directly in front of it.

I'll chose the seat directly in front of it, because it's beside the window so I could easily stare outside, and get lost as usual. How am I supposed to pass this semester with this habit of mine.

As expected the teacher walked in. A chubby woman in her early forties, blonde hair, brown eyes, square faced, heard women with square faces are presumed as stable, stubborn, confident , determined blah blah

I have Abit of a square face myself and unfortunately I don't have even one of these qualities.

"Oh... I can see a new face amongst us" She sounds too sweet for a math teacher, I reasoned.

"Morning everyone, I'd like to introduce our new classmate, what's your name dearie?"

Ba-dum, ba-dum I could hear my heart in my ears.....Oh no it's happening....the very moment I've dreaded.

I stood as less wierd as I could,

"My name's Yvonne Fouda" I tried to sound very audible cause I couldn't imagine myself repeating myself.

"Welcome, Yvonne were gald to have you as part of our class, feel free make new friends,ask questions when u don't understand, and make sure you pass my tests then you're good to go".

Pfft, was all that necessary?

At least the one thing I've been looking forward to has been done. so I'll just try my best not to get too distracted by the huge beautiful tree just outside the window.

I was enjoying the class, the way no one was talking to me, looking at me ,the way everything was normal,

JUST BEFORE HE WALKED IN!!!!