Christmas is getting closer. Even though the temperature declines significantly, the excitement of people is increasing more and more. The streets are decorated with beautiful, colourful lights. All the trees in the city centre have been trimmed and also wrapped with white LEDs. The atmosphere is filled with Christmas songs and the sound of jingling bells.

Today is not just a date in December, but an important date for someone. The boy just visited his favorite barber shop and bought a beautiful brown coat which he spends so much time to choose. He is excited, nervous and happy. Although the meet up is in the evening, his nervousness kept him awake all night and did not let him eat his breakfast or lunch well, hoping he could enjoy dinner with her.

We have been friends since we were young. Living in the same neighbourhood, we played together, went to the same school, we watched each other growing up. I always have her in my mind as a friend, a neighbour, a sister and a soulmate. Since I am the only child, I was very introverted. This part of me has always made my parents and people around me worried. You were the only one who understood me and never failed to ask my opinions and tried to create conversations with me.

As we get older, I feel more and more comfortable around you which makes me wonder about the new feelings and emotions. The way you smile makes me smile, just being around you makes me talk about myself and finally you let me know that I am madly in love with you. But life will sometimes trick you, want to tear things apart. I can never forget the day you left the town, leaving a single farewell letter for me. All these years I was in desperation not just because of your sudden disappearance but because of my pathetic side. I had always believed we would always be together and lived in that small bubble which popped out so easily. That’s why I have been waiting for the day we meet again and just want to make our relationship more meaningful.

Time has passed like seasons. I may not be sure you may find someone good for you and settle do, andnd you are living happily with someone you love. Just by thinking, this is hell for me. I know I am pathetic enough to feel this way, but the regret is tormenting me day by day. Regardless of my selfishness, I want you to be genuinely happy as your parents got divorced in your teenage, the enormous trauma may have been left. Leaving the town just with your cold dad, you definitely might live with loneliness. I always wanted you to know that you are not alone, and you are loved, and the most painful memory would be that I failed to deliver this to you.

Last month, I resigned from my previous job as a business manager. It’s pretty amazing to think I survived in that field for years. The executives did not like my quiet personality, which is, of course, the opposite to most people in the same industry; super outgoing, a face full of smiles, I don’t remember which one was real or not, I don’t want to remember honestly. I moved to this town and joined a small company and started my new life as a content writer. I became happier and more comfortable to express myself transparently; which hugely reminds me of her.

The cold weather makes people lonelier and more depressed. The seasonal depression starts kicking in for everyone but not the children, they are busy making snowmen and enjoying their snowball fights. Since it’s a small town, there aren’t many vehicles, and the streets are walkable regardless of the snow. There are few employees in the company, and everyone is warm and kind. Also, they will make a huge effort to welcome their new employee. Everyone has been excited since morning and preparing for the welcome party with local food and sweets.