TO MY SOMEONE SPECIAL...

Being an invisible person in everyone sight is not painful... But if a person whom you loved from a very long time.. can't understand you love him.. it hurts....

Everyone fell for someone in his or her life once... no one is like that who don't ever hate someone.. hatered is the something that everyone do with his whole heart...

But sometimes people hate you not for a reason... they just starts hating you cause you love them.. you care for them.. you can gave them anything just for their happiness... but they only see you as an annoying person... why they can't ever understand how much you love him or her.. they just say what they wants.. Even don't care about other feelings..

They treat like we are not humans.. he can't feel.. they thought they are the only one with heart.. they are the only one who hurts.. They are the only one who are suffering.. They are the only one who don't think they hurt too.. They think they are perfect.. maybe they are for someone but not for everyone.. why they don't understand it..

Yeah me...

The Miss unknown...

Within this unknown world..

Fell all these things..

I all just want is him and his love but he just look for an another girl always .. just because she is more perfect than me.. I agree she is beautiful.. I agree is intelligent.. I agree she is best in everything.. but i know one thing she is not a wifey material.. I know this much about my own sister.. All i just wanted is you and your some attention...

All i want to see is you and your smile.. All i want to feel is you and your voice.. All i want to smile for is you.. you're perfect same as like her.. you are amazing just like her.. maybe I can't be all perfect for you.. but can you just talk with me like you used to be??

Whenever I still thinks about you... your those silly jokes.. your perfect smile.. your kindness.. your love with whole class.. and most your that annoying behaviour.. for which I always scold you.. and you.. only laugh!!

I know you never love me in the same way I used to love you... even still I love you in the same way..

But if you ever saw her again go and propose her.. go and tell her how much she matters to you.. otherwise your feelings will also be stuck in your heart.. like of mine.. for forever..

I heard from somewhere first love is always incomplete... how much we love that person 90% are chances that he or she don't love you back!!

but i hope you will get it..

Dear you..

if you ever read it..

can you be able to know it's me??

Please don't ever forget me!!

all i want to say is that i LoVe YoU >3

And eah!! my dear someone special I fell for you in first sight... I starts loving you when I didn't even know what this love is...

I still remember the first day of our school.. that day when I see you.. the light of sun reflect from your brown skin!! my heart was being beating in a highly hard way.. you didn't talk with me.. you don't even look at me.. but my eyes just looking you and only you.. but i didn't knew why I'm doing it...

When I go back home I told my mom " Mom you know without any reason my heart is beating very fast.. I think I got some serious heart problem "

and my mother was that innocent she tooks me to hospital.. and then the doctor says.. " Mam your daughter is totally fine .. maybe in school she got afraid of something or get surprised to see something.. "

And after we went back home a simple question cames from my mother mouth " Did teachers tell you something? "

She is that innocent that she thinks teacher must scolded me and because of getting afraid my heart started beating like it... I'm more afraid with her than those teacher.. that's why I never tell her mamma my heart starts beating when I saw that boy...

I always thought my mother will beat me..

but see fun fact is that till today she is the one who is with me.. not anyone else..

Aisshhh!! I saw him that day and that innocent smile still inside my small brain.. whenever I think about him.. that smile comes.. in front of me..

I always wanted to talk with him.. I always wanted to knew more about him.. I never get to know anything about him.. in starting I don't even know his name.. I don't know what his name is!!

When I first heared his name I'm like what?? and says another name instead of his name cause... his name was so tough for a simple girl like me... in my whole life I just hear Raju.. Rahul.. Rohit.. Amit.. Amar.. Akbar.. Krishan.. Gopal.. and much more...

But his name..

his name is totally fency and new for me.. cause I belongs from a village.. where people got very simple name.. even I have really such a simple name..

Mr. My first love...

Do you also still remember our first meeting like I remember?? do you also miss me like I miss you?? did you ever see me as more than just a classmate??

I never hope anything from you.. cause I know you love only my cousin.. I can't take that place in your heart.. from the first day I saw you.. you never look at me like a lover.. for you I'm just a classmate.. I know..

But my heart don't accept it.. This heart.. wants to hear you.. love me.. it wants to hear the same thing that I feel for you..

But I can't force you.. cause my mamma said " you can force anyone to do anything, but not love.. and if you somehow force that person to love you.. that love will not last long... "

And I don't want only some time of fake love.. all I want is real one... just the real one..

And I know if I force you for it.. nor you not me can be happy..

Cause you love someone else.. and I love you.. I can't be happy with you!!

I heared people said they leave a person for his or her happiness.. but I think it's not true!! cause like me they also known that they can't get love which they want...

Again same question in my heart and mind Mr. My someone special...

Do YoU EvEr LoVe Me!?

What should I say to you any more my dear Someone special..

I remembered every single time I spent with you.. do you remember the day when teacher made us sit with each other.. that's the first time I saw you from that close...

I wanted to talk with you that time.. but don't know what to say.. don't know how to start.. don't know how to express.. all I knew was nothing.. I just knew nothing and that's it..

Now whenever I think about it.. I feel myself as an idiot person.. cause only talking.. I don't think can hurt anyone.. and I became that awkward that I don't even talk with you whole day.. I sat with a poker face.. but somewhere inside my heart.. I was just soo happy.. more than I can express.. that felling is just not Expressable..

I wished that time.. the time will freeze so that I can sit with you for forever... I just thinking whole time how should I talk with you... cause that time I was used to be an introvert person..

Because of parents scolding I always thought marks is much useful than anything in this world.. I always tries to keep a distance from you just for this single reason.. but much I keep trying to be away from you.. the more I started felling for you..

I still don't get what's you have that I like.. what's the thing in you which I fell for.. cause you're just so simple in terms of those who used to roam around me..

You wear same uniform regularly.. I doubt you ever wash it.. you most of time was talking with your friends .. you got punishment from teachers almost everyday for not completing your homework..

Even sometimes I did your homework in class so that you don't get punishment... you just a messy person.. who messed almost everything.. but still I always thinking how can I fell for a person like you!!

Its not like no one ever likes me .. your friends have a totally crazy crush on me.. which I crushed very bad!! cause they just know how to sticks with a person..

By the way my someone special do you remember... that day when teacher ande us sit with each other.. I told you not to come here from a particular line on desk as well as on table..

And you was looking me like I'm telling you cause I feel you like an alien... hehe

Now whenever I thought about it I laughed a lot.. just so much..

I was hillarious at that time... but believe me I love you that time.. even I love you this time too... and I always gonna love you.. just you..

Yeah I know this love never gave me anything but I can't hate you.. cause you have me a million of words and moments to be happy!! only writing about you makes me feel your presence.. just think what happens when I saw you in front of me!!

I hope she will accept you when you propose you.. cause you and her are both just so perfect.. and I don't want to be third wheel in between both of you ever.. so I just leave peacefully...

Dear my someone special...

do you remember that day... at lunch time.. how much I was awkward... and I don't even been able to stay at same desk for eating lunch.. I went to my friend for lunch period.. and you without any worries eating the lunch.. you don't care about what if I got awkward or what...

You know the habit of getting awkward around you is still inside me.. Whenever I after that day I still got awkward.. I never get to know how to express my own self around you..

Not only talking with you I get awkward but whenever I think about you I get awkward.. cause from the starting I know I will never be able to tell you.. what I feel for you.. and see still today I didn't said you that how much I love you.. how much I keep thinking about you..

Dear my dear someone special remember.. I'm always there for you.. just tell me .. I can even die for you...

JuSt WaNnA sAy..

I sTiLl LoVe YoU <3