Tangled: (5) Agonized Angel Vol. II

AA - Trust CF - DO NOT READ! EVER!!!

CF ♾️ AA

96% of the time...

My boyfriend is the most Amazing Adorable Angel that I know.

He is kind, considerate, wise...

I love, cherish and adore every part of his self...

I am not biased. He truly is brilliant in everything ...

He is like a Divine Angel... Or an Eternal Star

He shines more beautifully than anyone or anything ...

4% of the time...

He accidentally lets the nightmares he keeps caged in his mind out to play...

During this time...

I LOVE HIM EVEN MORE...

I am so proud of his strength and ability to survive his abuse.

This is to record all the information that I learn about his abuse...

I hope to identify his triggers. I need to remember what they are and learn not to do them...

The purpose is to record his behavior when his nightmares control his mind. So that, I can identify patterns where I may be able to help him break through his barriers...

I hope that, over time, I will learn some tricks that will help him. Every small detail may be a needle in a haystack that brings me hope ... But if it might help lessen his pain so he can win his fight... It will be worth it to me... I will never untangle the hands we have tied together ... I will not let him escape alone again... If he chooses Death to Escape... I will follow the hands we tied... He will not die alone...

This is my personal notebook/ journal of Pete's abuse and behaviours that trigger him... I began it after a conversation with Pete's Councillor/Friend Sasha; His Doctor, Dr. Smith and my Dad when I first learned about Pete's abuse...

My AA - CF Understanding So Far - Too Limited. Learn More...

My understanding...

So far...

Is - extremely limited...

I will learn more... I will become better educated in this matter... I will be the partner My AA deserves...

He is My One and Only Adorable Angel...

I will Never let him give up his fight alone...

During the time when My AA's Nightmares take centre stage in his mind...

He sees nothing but his nightmares...

They roam free. Uncaged... Completely out of his control...

He remembers nothing...

Except for the memories that cause him nothing but immensely intolerable and incurable pain...

Every memory that he desperately wants to forget... gets played on replay in a repeat in his mind...

Ruminating... Agonising... Forever...

Twisted... Bitter... Memories...

That will never be forgotten...

Always exist as Nightmares...

The No. 1 challenge for me...

My AA is the strongest person that I know...

He is, without doubt, the fastest person I know...

He is also the smartest, most amazing person that I know ...

My AA comes specially equipped with a never ending supply of brilliant ideas...

When everything is going well:

That is a blessing from the heavens...

But when he is not well ...

All his strength, speed, intelligence and thoughts focus on only one thing...

Every one of his thoughts and actions...

Move him closer towards his most wanted goal...

He just wants to escape from his pain...

When his nightmares have control...

The only thing he wants...

Is his own death...

If he succeeds...

Our fingers are tangled together with superglued threads that will never become unstuck...

I will follow him...

Wherever My AA Leads Me...

Are the steps that I will take on our Tangled Adventures Together...

Thankfully...

He knows that I am not lying when I threaten this ...

I really will follow him...

I have become so accustomed to him by my side...

I love him so unconditionally...

The pain of being separated from the light he guides me with...

I will no longer survive alone in this world in the pain I would feel without him...

Crazy!!!

Fucked Up!!!

Assholes!!!

Why do such Narcissistic Animals exist in our society!!!

Why do they prey on fragile and innocent souls who do nothing to want or get their attention!!!

But you take it!!!

Without right or consent...

Because you think it's pretty!!!

Fucking Animals!

They all deserve more torture than death alone would grant them...

Trigger Warning: AA Do Not Read!

AA DO NOT READ! AA DO NOT READ!

AA! Close this journal if you have accidentally opened it!

AA If you found this journal... This is not for you...

AA!!! You've promised you will never read it!!!

MY AA must trust me!!! never read this book!!!

Trigger Warning ⚠️⚠️⚠️

This chat-story will have chapters that mention and possibly describe the characters abuse...

If you think you may be triggered by reading about abuse... Please skip this story... There are plenty of others to choose to read...

Repeating: MY AA must trust me and never read this book!!!

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AA DO NOT READ! AA DO NOT READ!

Do not open Ever!!!!

AA! Close this journal if you have accidentally opened it!

AA! Close it quickly if you have deliberately opened it...

Trust Me that its not the right story for you to read today...

Your curiosity NEEDS to be totally ignored...

AA DO NOT READ! AA DO NOT READ!

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