Life is hard right now and a million and one questions swarm though my brain. I'm trying to surrender to the unknown and the hardship being faced. My end goal is wanted to see myself Better than I was yesterday, last week, last month and I want to see myself loving myself, happy with myself and falling in love with life. As naive as it sounds, I know life is nothing but pain and death and missed opportunities but believe it or not there is still joy in it if you have to look a little closer.

Happiness isn't always around, but there's always reason to be happy, a phrase I find myself repeating a million times a day. Life is hard right now but that doesn't mean it's not beautiful and something I should be grateful for. I'm grateful for my family and friends and myself for carrying on because I know I have so many good things ahead of me and because life is hard right now, I still search for you in the depth of my memory because that's what remains of you in my life, I still feel my chest tighten when speaking to someone new because what if they'll never ever be you. I still think of you almost every second day now and I guess that's life. Furthermore, I guess we all are haunted by someone or something. Furthermore, I guess life is hard sometimes each time you look up to think of them you feel a teardrop from your tired eyes.

『T𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔦𝔰 𝔫𝔬𝔱 𝔩𝔬𝔳𝔢 𝔩𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝔥𝔞𝔯𝔡 𝔰𝔬𝔪𝔢𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔢𝔰』

And I think when one is stressed and a mess. When one thinks this is all I'll ever get of a life- I'll never grow. I'll never leave, and I'll never just like to be. They tend to think life's nothing but a makeup of pain, and you love to die. That life only brings heartache and failure to only find themselves at the bottom of the pit with no one insight. They give up on life and think that's all it has to offer them. But dear human I want you to understand that life is beautiful and that you have time. You have time to change destructive habits, you have time to be who you want to be, you have time to live, laugh and love.

That time is the present moment and that's all you have so made it sacred. Life is beautiful, it's so beautiful, just look out your window at the plant outside your window, feel warmth of your morning coffee, feel the warmth and love surrounding you, be grateful you woke up alive many don't get suck a privilege. I want you to understand that life is beautiful, but that's only if you make it to be. For if you're stuck within a deep dark pit, I'm sure you can find a light no matters how heavy it is to carry. That light switch could brighten up a minute of your day.

『𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔢 𝔦𝔰 𝔟𝔢𝔞𝔲𝔱𝔦𝔣𝔲𝔩 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔥𝔞𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔥𝔢𝔩𝔭 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔰𝔢𝔩𝔣 𝔤𝔢𝔱 𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔪𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔰 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔞𝔯𝔨𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔰 𝔱𝔬 𝔲𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔡𝔬𝔫𝔱 𝔩𝔦𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔡𝔦𝔢 𝔟𝔲𝔱 𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔩𝔦𝔳𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔶 𝔞𝔩𝔦𝔳𝔢』

⋆ℑ𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔪𝔦𝔡𝔰𝔱 𝔬𝔣 𝔶𝔬𝔲𝔯 𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔬𝔰𝔶𝔬𝔲 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔱𝔦𝔫𝔲𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔫𝔡⋆

Sometime you'll stumble and then fall; sometimes you may even fall flat on your face, perhaps in front of crowds of people, for that matter. However, when that does happen, you always find yourself getting back-up again. It may be with the assistance of others, or perhaps you have even willed yourself to get back on your own two feet without the help of others. Whether it was the assistance of another helping hand or by the mere fact that you were able to get up all by yourself, the fact remains that you were able to reach the goal of standing on your own two feet.

You might have found it very hard to stand after having fallen so many times. Perhaps you studied for a particular exam, only to find out that you didn't do as well as you had expected and now sit with a failing grade. Or maybe you're going through various chemotherapy treatments, and you're not responding as fast as you would have hoped for, or maybe you have just recently learned that a loved one has died d and is no longer here is the physical realm with you.

All the illustrations clearly point to you failing, although not literally on the ground but falling down emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. I, too, have fallen and have also gotten up, and I sometimes fell again. However, the most important thing to remember is that, in midst of your chaos, you do have options to stand. It may be hard, and may, or you don't want to do it or even want to stand for that matter. I have gone down this road all but too many a time. But keep this door ajar let the people that love you and who want to help you stand to their part. And keep in mind that just as how a baby learns crawl, walk, then stand, and you too approach your chaos in the manner and STAND.

" 𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒 "

𝕎𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕟 𝕒 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕?

" 𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐇 𝐏𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐃𝐀𝐘 "

𝕋𝕠𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕚'𝕝𝕝 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕓𝕪 1𝕤𝕥 𝕔𝕣𝕒𝕨𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 ,𝕨𝕒𝕝𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕞𝕚𝕕𝕤𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕠𝕤.

♥𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐋𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬♥

『𝖫𝗂𝖿𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗈𝗈 𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗋𝗍 ,𝗀𝗋𝗎𝖽𝗀𝖾𝗌

𝖺𝗋𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗍𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝖿𝖾𝖼𝗍 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗂𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗌

𝗅𝖺𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗇, 𝖺𝗉𝗈𝗅𝗈𝗀𝗂𝗓𝖾

𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗀𝗈 𝗈𝖿

𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖼𝖺𝗇'𝗍 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾.』

『𝖲𝗍𝗈𝗉 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗈𝗇 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾

𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗍𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝖽𝖺𝗒 ,𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗇

𝖺𝖼𝗍 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝖾𝗑𝗂𝗌𝗍 𝗇𝖾𝗑𝗍 𝖽𝖺𝗒.』

『𝖭𝖤𝖵𝖤𝖱 𝖡𝖤𝖦

𝖥𝗈𝗋 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗉 𝗈𝗋 𝗋𝖾𝗅𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗉

𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺𝗇𝗒𝗈𝗇𝖾. 𝗂𝖿 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗈𝗇𝗍'𝗍

𝗋𝖾𝖼𝖾𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝖾𝖿𝖿𝗈𝗋𝗍

𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾 ,𝖼𝗎𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗆 𝗈𝖿𝖿.』

『𝖡𝖤𝖫𝖨𝖤𝖵𝖤

𝖣𝗈𝗇'𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗅𝗂𝖾𝗏𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅

𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎

𝖡𝖾𝗅𝗂𝖾𝗏𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗐 𝗒𝗈𝗎

𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎.』

『𝖫𝖮𝖸𝖠𝖫𝖳𝖸

𝖢𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗌 𝖺 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗂𝖼𝖾

𝖭𝗈𝗍 𝖺 𝗆𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗄𝖾

𝖫𝗈𝗒𝖺𝗅𝗍𝗒 𝗂𝗌 𝖺 𝗋𝖾𝗌𝗉𝗈𝗇𝗌𝗂𝖻𝗂𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗒

𝖭𝗈𝗍 𝖺 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗂𝖼𝖾.』

『𝖬𝖠𝖳𝖴𝖱𝖨𝖳𝖸

𝖶𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗄𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗉𝖾𝗋𝗌𝗈𝗇

𝗂𝗌 𝗅𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀, 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗌𝗆𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽

𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝗀𝗈.』

♥𝖙𝖗𝖞 𝖙𝖔 𝖇𝖊 𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖞 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖍𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖙 𝖆𝖑𝖜𝖆𝖞𝖘♥