The Feels

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Not any story

Just gonna put some of my feelings over here

How I feel, how I feel about others, how I feel about the situation and everything

Because.. words make it feel better you know?

Okay.. so this one's gonna be quite sad not gonna depressing. I'm sensitive person when it comes to people I'm close to or someone I've known

But i consider myself strong. Because I don't let these emotions take over me Or control over me. I don't know how some or many people think or feel about me

I would be lying if that doesn't affect me. Cuz no matter how much of a person says they really don't care what someone thinks of them, they somewhere do care how others think about them

So.. I just try to be away from places or leave the place where I feel I'm not considered

I leave places where I dont belong to. I leave places and people which aren't meant to be mine

I dare not to continue things when I feel I'm not considered or when I feel I'm being ignored

Cuz you know what's the worst feeling ever?

𝐈𝐠𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞

I mean...

Just think that even after being alive, breathing around and people just treat you like you are invisible

How worse that feels, you feel like disappearing for real. How does it feel when they don't take u seriously and treat you like someone who is use and throw

it hurts...

it hurts really really really bad

but

That doesn't you are going to hold on it

So... 𝐋𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧'𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝

𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭. 𝐏𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐠𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟

𝐜𝐮𝐳.. 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭

𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟

𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤

𝐒𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞, 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤

𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮

𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲

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Another sad feels?

Lol.. I like writing sad things

Cause they make it feel better you know?

cause when I'm excited I don't find words and rather shout out

But when I'm sad, I prefer to put them in words after tearing down a bit

Crush Tragedy

How does it feel? how does it feel when you are new to something and you start liking it

But it already has its old things to cherish

Jealous? Hurt? Feeling Unwanted?

I don't know how it feels like.. might feel all Or None

You would wanna maintain distance from that person or thing But end up finding your comfort place in them. How worse is this?

You think I don't know what I'm feeling is wrong.. what I'm doing is wrong..

I'm doing everything opposite to what I thought. I'm sad, BUT WHY?

I don't have a damn reason Maybe Ignorance from that person And what's more worse? Can't really express it?

Cause you're too afraid about how they will feel after knowing it? Will it be even same?

Messes up shit for real

I might end up crying after writing this. I write when I'm at peak of emotions And again, I hate this

I wanna be considered by that person

How am I gonna say

What right do I even hold to say?

I don't hold any rights where I can confirm that person that I'll be there, and I want that person to be there for me. Always cherish my presence

Here comes my expectations

which will never be considered or completed

Still I'm hoping for it

Don't ask me why

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Sadness Sadness Sadness all around

I Feel sad... Upset.. Down you find synonyms for that

But no matter what the words are.. The feeling is Same

It feels worse when

When you held their broken pieces

When you tried to be their Comfort Place

When you kept aside all your sadness and prioritized them first

Listened to them (Him) and then said few comforting words

I WAS FUCKING THERE WHEN YOU NEEDED SOME ONE

But

Now I'm broken

I'm sad

I'm upset

I'm crying

Where are you?

Where are you now?

How long I'm gonna fake happiness

I'm at my edge right now, I'm crying my heart out there

Just waiting

Waiting for you to come

Come to me hold my broke pieces too

Because only you can do that and no one else can

But I don't get to blame this much

When I didn't say my heart felt words

I'm afraid

Again

Afraid that even if I say it, it won't end well

I'm afraid if it will be same or different

Its me

I'm to blame

No one else is

I'm expecting something which is out of my reach

How did you do this to me in just some time

You changed me, You somehow made me you as comfort place

So now I'm expecting you to come and Comfort me come and say me That you won't leave

Won't leave no matter what

But we can't be together

But yet I want you near me

What do I name it

It's Nameless

But

Yet with lots of feels

I like you

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