Becoming Me
Chapter 1: I Am Who I Am, Don't Make It Hard For Me
The story starts at a normal hospital where a child was born, the baby boy was crying while breathing fresh air, his mother was crying with joy, the father was smiling proudly.
The baby looked up, looking at the bright sky, he was born a male, and his name was Hào Li.
At the age of three, he was able to read books with ease, even understanding the content, his parents were overjoyed, thinking he was a genius, but then Hào Li suddenly cried.
Hao Li
Why is everything black and white?!
He was born colorblind, but his parents didn't care, since their child was a genius.
At the age of five, his mother asked
Hao Liang
Hào Li, what do you want to become when you grow up?
The little boy, who was wearing a white shirt and blue jeans, replied
Hao Li
I want to be a girl
Hao Liang
What nonsense are you talking about?
Hao Liang
You are a boy, not a girl, don't say things that are not real!
Hao Li
I really want to be a girl!
Hao Li
It feels like I was meant to be one!
Hao Li
My heart feels like a girl, not a boy!!
Hao Liang
That is enough Hao Li!
Hao Liang
You are a boy, so be one!
Hao Liang
I will not accept you becoming a girl, stop saying those things!
Hao Liang
So behave like one, go outside and play!
The boy, with a sad expression on his face, went outside to play with the other kids.
A few years have passed and the little boy, Hào Li had grown up, a 17-year-old boy.
Hao Li
Mom, dad, I want to tell you something!
He said, with a determined expression.
Hao Liang
What is it, son?
Hao Li
I, I want to change my gender.
Hao Li
I want to be a full-pledge lady!
Hao Li
I am a girl, not a boy!
Hao Liang
I've told you this countless times, you are a boy, and you should always be one.
Hao Liang
I will not allow you to be a girl, no matter how many times you say it.
Hao Li
B-but I can't help it!
Hao Li
My body was born as a boy, but my heart, mind and soul, it's a woman.
Hao Li
I am a woman, not a man!
Hao Li
Why can't you accept that?!
Hao Li
I was enduring all the pain I buried deep inside!
Hao Li
I already meet your expectation and give you satisfaction!
Hao Li
Why can't you simply support me on this one!
He said, while tears were running down his face.
Hao Zhiu
You are a boy, a male, not a female, and you should accept that fact
Hao Zhiu
I don't want to raise a sissy son like you!
Hao Zhiu
Now go to your room, we don't need a disappointment for a son
Hao Li
Disappointment? Is this what you call Disappointment!
Hao Li
Father I thought you're with m-
Hao Liang
Go now, we will talk later!
Hao Li
You're all the same!
Hào Li head back on his room and lowered his head while tears were overflowing on his cheeks,
Hao Liang
We should just disown him, he is not our son anymore.
Hao Zhiu
I agree, but let's wait for a bit more, we can't do it so soon, the news will spread
Hao Liang
Fine, but after a year, we'll disown him for good!
In his room, Hào Li was lying down on his bed, staring at the ceiling, his tears still running down his face, his life was miserable, he hated himself, he hated his body, and he hated his parents, they couldn't understand his pain, his suffering, his misery.
Hao Li
If only I was born as a girl
He stood up,, and walked towards his study table, he opened the drawer and took out a black box, inside was a knife, the knife was used by his father, but it was lost and Hào Li found it, he kept the knife in the box, and hid it inside the drawer.
Hào Li took the knife, and looked at his reflection on the blade, he was still crying, his face was full of tears, and his eyes were red.
Hao Li
Maybe this is the only way to end my suffering
He said, looking at the knife.
He held the knife tightly, and pointed the tip of the blade to his stomach, he inhaled deeply, and closed his eyes, then he thrust the blade into his abdomen.
He screamed in pain, blood was dripping from the wound, he fell down on his knees, he was still holding the knife, the blade was deep inside his flesh.
He weakly said, but no one came.
His vision started to get blurry, and he felt his strength leaving his body, he could see the blood flowing out of the wound, the red liquid was all over the floor, his body was shaking, and he could feel his life slowly fading away.
Hao Li
This is the last time you will see your failed child
Then, his body became still, and the knife fell on the floor.
Hao Liang
Zhiu did you hear a scream?
Hao Liang
It came from Hao Li's room.
Hao Zhiu
Check it if you want, I have no deal with the dissapointment
His mother was standing in front of his door, she had her hand on the doorknob, and she was about to turn it, when suddenly, she heard a thud, coming from his room.
Hao Liang
Hào Li, are you okay?
She tried opening the door, but it was locked.
Hao Liang
Hào Li, answer me, what happened?!
She asked, trying to open the door but no reply.
She started knocking on the door, but there was still no reply, then, she decided to break the door, she kicked it a few times, until it opened.
She opened the door, and was shocked to see her son lying on the floor, with a knife next to him, his clothes were soaked with blood, the wound on his stomach was deep, and his face was pale, his eyes were wide open, and he wasn't breathing.
Hao Liang
Oh my god! Hao Long! No! Don't leave me! Please! Please! Stay with me!
She knelt beside her son's body, and she tried to close his eyes, but it was too late, his body was cold, and there was no sign of life.
Hao Liang
N-no, this can't be, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!
Her tears were like a waterfall, her cries were heart-breaking, her screams were deafening, her world was falling apart, her beloved son was dead.
Hao Liang
Hao Zhiu come upstair!
Hao Liang
Your kid is bleeding religiously!
Hao Liang
Please! Please! Come back to me! Don't leave me! I'm begging you! Please! Please! Wake up! Don't leave me here alone! Don't leave me without you! Please! I'm begging you!
The sound of the ambulance's siren can be heard, and the paramedics quickly rushed to the scene.
Paramedic
Excuse me, ma'am, can you please move aside?
The woman just nodded, and let them do their job.
They lifted the body, and put it on the stretcher, they carried the stretcher outside, and loaded it to the ambulance, the woman was crying, her husband was also crying, they were both devastated.
Paramedic
Ma'am, we'll take him to the hospital, but he won't make it, I'm sorry
Hao Liang
Just bring him, please.
The woman said, her voice was hoarse, and her eyes were swollen.
The ambulance drove away, and the two were left alone.
Hao Liang
I'm sorry, Hao Li, it's all my fault.
Hao Liang
If only I allow you to be yourself, none of this tragedy would happen
The woman said, hugging her husband.
They cried, they hugged, and they mourned, their beloved son was gone, and there was nothing they can do about it.
In the hospital, Hao Long's body was lying on the operation table, he was dead, and his soul was wandering around, his spirit was lost, he didn't know what to do, and he didn't know where to go.
Suddenly, he saw a bright light, and his spirit was absorbed into the light.
Hao Li
H-hello? W-who's there?
Reaper
I'm nameless and I'm your twin sister
Hao Li
My sister? I-I never had a sister!
Reaper
Of course you don't, silly, I'm just teasing you
Reaper
Yes, but don't worry, your time hasn't come yet, you still have a lot to do on Earth
Hao Li
But how can I live without a body?
Reaper
Your body is right here.
Hao Li
It is? But I'm dead, how can I use it?
Reaper
I'm the reaper that came to take your soul, and I'll give you a new life, and a new body.
Hao Li
A new life and a new body? I can be a woman now?"
Reaper
Yes, you can, but there will be some consequences.
Reaper
First, your parents won't remember you, and second, your past will be erased, no one will know that you were once a boy.
Hao Li
Really? You can do that?
Reaper
Yes, I can, I'm a reaper, remember?
Hao Li
That's great, please do it, please give me a new life!
Then, his spirit was sent back to his body, his eyes were closed, and he was breathing, his chest was moving up and down.
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