Do you love to read? Well I love reading when I was a kid, or so I thought so...

I've got the weirdest dream close to reality, there I was someone. I'm a spoiled kid, I'm simply spoiled because I've got no siblings and my mother died. My father only has his all attention to me other than work.

Clothes, foods, jewelries, newest things, limited editions, vacations all fell on my arms without hardships.

All of it made me so arrogant and confident even though I was so young people can already recognize my ruthless behavior and nasty temper. People are always sure to my future as a kid who has no respect to anyone and a person who only spins in money not until they're not sure about my future when..

I fell ill.

They're not sure about my future anymore because I'm not waking up, I've been bedridden for 4 years and what happened to me when I was asleep is beyond the outsiders imaginations,

I suddenly fell ill and drown in a crazy dream where I'm not my fathers daughter or someone's who only cared about pretty things...I'm someone who's down to earth and introverted person who revolves my world in just three things, taekwondo, video games, programming.

I've tried to wake up every time at that dream but I'm not waking up so I accepted it as a reality. I've learned many things there. And I became an adult there having admirers, pursuing college with my own two hands and ability, I'm pursuing all by my self.

I was so happy that time that I even forget who I am, I am going to graduate and accept a very promising award and then...

I woke up, I heard the sound of a machine next to me there I see my life line, I see my wrist with a patients bracelet. I saw myself wearing an hospital gown.

Tears rapidly dropping from my eyes. I don't know what happened but why am I back now in this life? I've already accomplished many things, what's more painful is I only accomplished them in my dreams but not in reality where I only sleeps while living my simple human life in a dream.

People in white gowns run into me, checking the, every part of me.

I am very confused at the moment, but I can't speak or articulate everything whats happening that time, all I know is that I'm Ynzelle again, and I've got long way to go.

I started to gain my memories of my childhood. I discovered that only 4 years had pass. I tend to ask myself how the heck it's just 4 years when I started to live in my dreams as an ten year old child and last untiI turned 21 Meaning in that in my dreams ten years had past,but here its just 4 years. So maybe the time at my dreams are faster and here are slower.

I just also realized that I think my mental age right now are much mature now because of my dreams, since everything is very vivid, all the hardships, all the problems, all the skills I acquired there, I remember them all like my real own memories...

Thats right, its my real own memories that only exists in my head, but I just can't help to crawl and cry, every night I was praying to god to put me back in that place, because I clearly despised this life now.

All my bad deeds, all my greediness. All of it. I can't stand the original me.

I get sad over time, I learned that I'm weak, very weak. Its not the same in the body in my dreams its strong and can turn people down in just a short period of time. I think its because when I was young I can't do anything but to shopping and be a spoiled brat.

I'm eleven years old when I fell into coma and its already 4 years and I'm fifteen now.

"Hazy stop being lazy and join us in the beach" martina texted me, she still wants me to go with her even though I refused ten times.

"not gon' happen" I replied and goes back in my computer, I was completing my project, it's a very modern software project where the inconvenience rate is low and the convenience rate is high. It would be good to present this in my dream company I was going to apply on.

I think after I graduated this is the start of the life I truly want to enjoy.

"you think we're going to believe your reasons?" she replied after 5 minutes.

I really didn't want to go to the beach with our batch mates!

I'm uncomfortable with it.

"prepare your things now!"

"we're going to get you!"

she texted me a few times more, after 10 minutes I heard car honks outside.

Gosh she's unstoppable.

And then there's a sound of door bell.

I got up in my seat and went outside my room to open the door for Martina.

"You little shit!" martina said and throw her self into me, squeezing me like a lemon who should be squeeze harder.

"I'm not going to produce juice tina stop squeezing me." I said, annoyed.

"I just miss you, you're such an unromantic person! - then she looks at me up and down- the heck is wrong with you Haze? I expect you to be in bikini's!" it feels like Martina is the one being problematic over me than me.

Without further ado she barge into my house and went straight to my room, rummage my cabinets and get my clothes out of...

I don't even know if I really had that bag? Or had that clothes?

Where did she get it?

Martina knows more about my things that I am. Maybe she's the real me or something. I was so shocked seeing her doing that to the point that I was just left there sitting while doing nothing when she's rummaging all my things.

"done!" martina said then she carry my bag and pulled me.

And then i find my self sitting in her boyfriends car with the others.

The trip was fun to be exact, all of our batch mates are complimenting me about the achievements I'm going to receive. I was pretty excited too about it, looking back I've had a hard time reaching it and here I am receiving compliments and congratulations. It was just like a dream.

The trip goes on as the location is quite far from our places. All of us enjoy ourselves like any better, we sang and eat and there's nothing we could wish for to feed our souls with so much happiness and alive feelings. It was fantastic.

We're still not in our destination so I took a nap first then after a while I open my eyes...

It was all white, should I mistake it for heaven? funny to say I'm dreaming because strangely I've never even dream in my life, It feels like its always days and works and nothing else. Strange that I'm dreaming..

But it feels so real.

I got up in the bed and look around, confused about the surroundings. Then I look down at my hands, dextrose??

Later did I realize the surroundings, its a hospital! I was about to get up when people in white started entering the room. They looked so surprised and happy.

About what?

This is so confusing where I am I?

I shove the people away and pull the thing connected to my veins, it hurts, its rapidly bleeding. They all started to stop me, but I was persistent in looking at my self, I was panicking at that time, they were all chasing me, I was running to go to the bathroom but I don't know where the bathroom are. Then I spot a mirror and then I get really shocked and falls down then everything is black.

I was living in this hospital bed for 4 years, according to my father I'm in coma since I was 11. So basically I'm aged 15 now or not. The room was well decorated and you would not notice if there's really a person sleeping in it for 4 years seeing how clean the surroundings are.

It was already a week since I wake up.

But you wouldn't want to know what happened in the past few days.

It was very chaotic!

When I look in my face in the mirror, I was stunned. I was so thin! my hairs are curly white, my skin are pale white too and I was very pretty.

To be honest I would literally call my self an angel, or a goddess. I've never seen someone so pretty as myself.

But yeah after I saw myself in the mirror I fainted. They said, It was because of the blood loss, because I pulled the dextrose on me, and I was bleeding pretty bad and I get to crawl outside.

But honestly I fainted because of tremendous shock. I could not believe what was happening that time, also I'm shock because I'm not me anymore.

Short girl, with a brown hair and clear brown eyes. Its shocking waking up in a weak body, but I'm tall like 170cm, I know its not exactly what it is but I just said it through my intuition.

After a while I woke up, I saw an old guy but he looks handsome though, he has grey hair, but he's handsome. I don't remember clearly but I know he's my father, I remember calling his younger him dad, I'm not sure cause why Hazy and I don't have dad but I've had memory calling someone dad.

"You're finally awake Ellie!" he said smiling warmly at me holding my face, well I guess its fine since he's just holding my face right?

"who you?" I asked in an unrecognizable accent. Who the heck just woke up and speaks into an accent that no one ever speaks off?

Well of course that's my accent cause I'm hazy.

All of the doctors and nurses including I called that teared up. The heck? Are they always this dramatic?

"Miss. Ynzelle can't remember even his father anymore" an old woman said, she wears a surprisingly maids clothes.

Who the heck wears maids clothes at this time?

"I'm your father Ellie, don't you remember me? I'm Franqoine Zerville. Your father" he said gently to me.

Wait! So the memory in my brain is right?

I've got a strange feeling where I'm not comfortable yet comfortable at the same time of the crowd. Eyes are all on me.

"really? then what's my name?" I asked with the same accent.

Then suddenly all of them started to tear up again, they're all looked sad.

This dream is so confusing.

"poor ellie she even forgets who she is after a long sleep"

"it must have been confusing for her"

some of them said that.

"you didn't remember anything honey?" father asked gently again.

I just nod, all I just want to do that time is to wake up in this dream.

"Your name is Ynzelle Zerville, you're my daughter"

Well this dream is really confusing cause its my first time having a dream and I get to have father I didn't have in my life, it was so confusing and its hurting my head. Take note the pain I'm feeling in my body and weak feeling its all feels real.

"why am I here?" I asked. All of them feels like they want to tell me, like they're literally eager but restraining themselves.

"well you're in coma in 4 years now honey, I was so scared because the doctor are saying you wouldn't going to wake up. I thought I'm also gonna lose you like what happens to your mom. It was really scary Ellie, I'm glad you're back and awake now." he said while tearing up.

And that time I remember all.