The wind seemed to be blowing stronger down at the famous Jandy Bridge and to the brown haired woman who stood on top of it,the sea that tumbled due to it was simply perfect.It was perfect for the step she wanted to take.With a large bottle of wine in her hand,her tear blurred eyes looked down at the only way she could forget everything that happened,to forget how much her heart ached in one night.In one night,she figured out that her mother and father who she wanted to go back to died during an attack laid on her pack.In one night,her only best friend who had supported her during her tough times was killed mercilessly by those who she eagerly tried to escape from and in one night,her so called mate who she thought she could rely on cheated on her with a slut and literally called her a crazy and mentally unstable virgin,a problem causer and a.... curse.He told her he didn’t regret fucking another she wolf and he told her that he regretted being paired with her by goddess Luna.She couldn’t hold back the tears no matter how much she tried.The pain,the loneliness,the truth,the guilt.It was all too much and the only way to stop it was to....die.She was homeless,she was cursed,she was being haunted and she was rejected.Her fists clenched and she threw the bottle of wine into the raging body of waters.Now it was her turn.Her turn to taste death,Lexiana Cathuwulf couldn’t handle it anymore.Sooner or later she’d be killed anyways by those who haunted her.She closed her eyes before sitting on the bridge’s side ready to loose balance and fall.She sucked in a breathe,her heart beating rapidly but she couldn’t turn back now.

Voice:I wouldn’t do that if I were you.

Lexiana’s eyes snapped opened as she gasped in fear out of the sudden and unknown voice behind her.Her head snapped back,the wind throwing her brown curls on her face making her sight blur.But it didn’t stop her from seeing the hoodied figure that sat on the large bench.The dark hoodie made it almost impossible to see his face or maybe it was because her vision was blurry.She couldn’t tell.

Lexiana:W-What?

She asked watching the dark stranger stand up heading towards her before resting on the bridge side with a large bottle of what seemed to be whiskey in his hands.She would have panicked but due to her partially drunken state and suicidal thoughts,nothing mattered anymore.

Stranger:It’s a long way down.If you wanna commit suicide there are better ways than this.This way will cause you excruciating pain.

His voice was cold,emotionless yet it sounded sexy in Lexiana’s ears.Judging by his voice if he was to remove his hoodie maybe he would be an eye catcher.

Lexiana:You do not understand.U actually deserve the pain so do not interfere.

Lexiana didn’t know why but she felt like as if her tone and voice,especially how she rudely spoke to him was wrong but she’d do anything to die.

Stranger:I do not but I do not appreciate someone dying in one of my favorite spots so get down...now!

His voice was authoritative and it sounded like if she went against it,she might suffer a fate worse than death.So without speaking any further she came down from the bridge though due to her drunken state she almost tripped but she held herself as she watched the hoodied stranger staring at her through the peering darkness of his hoodie,completely embarrassing herself by staggering.She staggered to the bench and sat down.Why couldn’t she even die in peace?She suddenly felt a presence next to her and she didn’t know why her mind brewed with anger that he destroyed her only chance of committing suicide.

Lexiana:You shouldn’t have done that.You ruined everything!

She snapped at him,tears that wanted to spill became anger.

Lexiana:I wanted to stop it.I wanted to end it.I don’t deserve to live and it’s all my fault!...it’s my fault.

Her voice softened as she fount herself crying again.The hoodied stranger watched as the strange woman poured out her feelings with an expressionless look of unconcern yet interest on his face.She intrigued him for some weird reason.She was shocked when she saw a familiar bottle of golden brown liquid stretched in front of her.

Stranger:Drink,it helps.

Lexiana thought about it she was already drunk,it wouldn’t hurt to have some more.She collected the bottle from his hand and the stranger couldn’t ignore the sparks he felt when they touched. ‘Strange.’He watched as she chugged the toxic liquid down her throat.He watched as tears slipped down her eyes as she drank.She breathed heavily immediately she set the bottle down.Feeling the burning effects of the liquid kicking in as she blinked repeatedly.

Lexiana:T-this is good s-stuff.

She murmured in her Now drunken state.She stood up giggling crazily while the stranger’s eyes were fixed on the beautiful drunk woman.

Lexiana:H-he c-called me a craz-zy vir-gin.How date he not understand why I can’t have sex with him,uh?

She asked the star who shrugged.

Lexiana:I hate,whoa.

She was about to trip but he immediately caught her before she could.In the process his hoodie dropped and Lexiana could clearly see the handsome god in her front of her.She felt lost in his beauty and his touch made her feel pleasurable sparks she had never felt before even with her mate.

Lexiana:Tell me Mr.Handsome am I not beautiful to have sex with?Do you think I am unworthy to have sex with because of my reputation?

She asked her hands unknowingly wrapped around his neck and his large hands on her waist.

Stranger:Wanna find out?

Lexiana was entranced,drunk and hurt so she had no idea what she was doing so she nodded her head.Before she could process anything she felt his lips crash on hers and She immediately returned it.His lips were so warm and she didn’t know why she allowed him kiss her but she wasn’t sure whether it was because she was drunk,he was hot or something else she couldn’t describe but it felt good.The kiss got deeper as he used his cold hands to reach under her top and caress her body.He couldn’t take it anymore he needed to ram his dick inside of her now.So he immediately grabbed her ass as she moaned wrapping her legs around his waist before he placed her on the bench to finish what they started.The once quiet bridge got disturbed by a virgin’s loud screams and desperate moans.Lexi knew she would regret this but she was already giving herself to him and it felt so right

Lexiana’s P.O.V

I gasped when he suddenly pinned me to the wall and used his hand to block my only way to escape.I looked at him,the fear evident on my face as a sheepish smile crept on his lips.That smile that any girl would have found seductive but not me.His smile was creepy and sent shivers down my spines but not the good kind.

Lexiana:Please sir I cannot do this.Please try to understand.

I begged this disgusting man who was supposed to be my boss.I should have listened to my instinct and left for home immediately I was done with my shift but I just had to listen to Everly and stay to work her night shift.Now see what it got me into.She must have tricked me and plotted with this scum of my boss just to get me into this mess but I won’t fall into his traps just like the other girls who worked here.

Mr.Black:Come on Lexi,it’s just one night.You must be craving for it since you haven’t had sex in a while after the last one with the unknown father of your pups.Just once and you’ll see you’d love it.

He whispered ,his hot breathe fanning my nape but it only made me disgusted and I refused to accept no matter what.

Mr.Black:Just once Lexi,give yourself to me and I’ll even pay you as much money as you want.Just agree.

His offer was tempting and my wide eyes met with his lustrous and motivated dark brown ones.MONEY.I was in need of that word just to take care of them.To give them a better life and let them forget the reputation I cursed upon them.I suddenly see him leaning to kiss me.I should do it.I should kiss him and get the money I needed.I wasn’t a virgin anymore and I’m a disgraced she wolf in the pack for having pups for a stranger who wasn’t my mate.I was even rejected by my true mate because of the trouble I always bring but I found myself turning my head away not wanting him to kiss me.I couldn’t do it,for some unknown reason I couldn’t betray the father of my pups even though he wasn’t my mate.My eyes which were closed snapped open when I heard him growl clearly frustrated by my stubborn ways.He retreated his hand and glared at me like he felt insulted.

Mr.Black:That’s It Lexi.I only allow women who can meet to my needs to work in this restaurant.So if you aren’t ready to accept to have sex with me then regard yourself fired from tomorrow.Now leave!

I secretly clenched my fists whimpering at how authoritative his voice suddenly was when I really wished to spit on his face.He was just like the others using the fact that I am a struggling mother with a stained reputation to get my body.I bowed my head trying to control my anger by shedding pitiful tears.

Lexiana:Sorry sir.

Was all I said before running out of his office while thinking of where I’d get a new job to take care of my little babies.No one would want to hire me knowing my terrible reputation.I suddenly Lear’s a bratty scoff at the behind me and I glared daggers at the blonde slut who caused all this.

Everly:Innocent much?Why bother refusing when you know you have no virtue left?Why deceive yourself?Just agree and quit acting like this wouldn’t help you and your bastards.

She snorted and out of pure anger I gave her a tight slap in her face.She had no right.I didn’t ask for her help and I didn’t want this.What do people see me as?A sex toy in need of money?Just because I did it once with a stranger doesn’t mean I’m doing it again.I’m a mother for goddess’s sake.

Lexiana:You shameless bitch.I never asked for your help.I do not want any of this.I’m fired now and I guess you must be happy since you can have him all to yourself!

I snapped before angrily brushing past her as she held her delicate cheek that I knew due to how hard I hit left a mark.One thing I couldn’t tolerate was when people dared call my children bastards.Yes they weren’t born the right way but I am a rejected mate so it doesn’t matter if I had slept with someone else but I do not know why after him I felt no pleasure in doing it with others.I walked out of the restaurant feeling the night chilly wind connect with my warm skin.This wouldn’t be the first time I’ll just have to get a new job....if I am lucky to find one.

Lexiana’s P.O.V

I knocked on the small wooden door of my apartment that stood in the far side of the thick woods where I stayed,a bit far away from the pack.I sighed seeing my visible breathe escape my mouth as I adjusted my coat to reduce the body biting cold.It would soon be winter and me loosing my job during that season wasn’t good for my little pups.I smiled at the blonde tall figure who opened the door for me with a smile on her plushy pink lips.Without a word I rushed in to feel the warmth of home.

Sasha:Welcome Lexi how was work?

She whispered.

Lexiana:They asleep?

I whispered back and she nodded her head.

Sasha:They were quite worn out after Pack School.

I understood that,today was Wednesday and on Wednesdays they’re always involved in anything that had to do with physical contact and sports.It was energy draining.

Lexiana:I really appreciate you staying late Sasha.I know I wasted your time...

Sasha:No you didn’t.I love taking care of your pups.It’s no problem,what are friends for?

She always said but I knew deep down that I was just burdening her.Sasha is mated to the beta of our pack so she actually had a lot of work in her hands especially when she was the second in command of the Pack School and even the daughter of our delta.She wasn’t even supposed to be around someone like me but she never cared.Her main concern were my pups.Even though they were considered bastards they were still a part of the pack and Sasha understood that.

Sasha:How was work today?Did everything go well?

She asked and I sadly sighed remembering what happened today.

Sasha:Oh it happened again?Didn’t it?

She asked knowing this wasn’t the first time.She sat next to me and handed me a cup of warm tea.It was like she read my mind.I needed something really warm to ease my tensed muscles.

Lexiana:Thanks.

I sipped the warm honey sweet liquid and felt it quench my thirst but when I digested it,it reminded me of someone.Someone I so wished I could forget.Someone that if not for me she’d still be alive till today.I immediately dropped the tea since it was only reminding me of her.

Sasha:How did it happen?

Sasha asked and I remained silent.Tje only that could be heard was the fire place that cackled.

Lexiana:It was the usual.My boss wanted me for sex,I refused and now I can’t go back there tomorrow since I am once again,fired.

I took off my jacket before throwing it on the couch next to me.I rested my head on the armchair I was sitting on looking up at the ceiling.All this was giving me a headache.

Lexiana:You know the funny thing Sasha.There are sometimes I really wanna say yes and I know if I say yes all my struggles would end and I’ll be able to take care of my pups but if I do it feels like I’m betraying myself,like...

Sasha:You’re betraying the father of your pups.

She took the words right out of my mouth and it took every muscle in my body not to cry again.All I did was nod my head as I felt her warm hands engulf mine.

Sasha:I understand Lexi,society is hard on you but just know that you still got me so don’t worry I’ll get you a new job.

I smiled before pulling her into a warm friendly hug.

Lexiana:Thanks Sasha really I will never know how to repay you.One day I will I promise.

I heard her giggled and felt her roll her eyes.

Sasha:It’s okay now you must be hungry.Let me go grab the leftover Mac and cheese in the fridge.

I watched her jump from the couch and head for the kitchen.Truly I didn’t deserve a friend like her.

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I creaked open their room’s door,slowly so they wouldn’t be alert because for normal werewolves my pups agility was a bit too high.By too high,I mean they’re too fast,too strong and too sensitive for pups their age.Makes me wonder if their father was an alpha or something.I peeked my head into the room and I smiled,warmth caressed my heart when I saw my lovely twin laying next to each other on the bed.Just the sight of them snoring away on the bed makes me forget all the bad things that happened to me today to look at the good side.The good side was the fact that I still had them though deep down I regret not killing myself that day on the jandy bridge.Yet if I had I wouldn’t have met him.Though it was just one night,I do not remember my wolf ever feeling so restless and excited before.I unfortunately do not remember him but my wolf did and she still yearned for him everyday.I do not even remember how it felt to loose my virginity because before I could feel the good sensation I passed out yet he proceeded to fuck me on the bridge’s bench.I might have passed out but my wolf was still wide awake.I crave for him,his touch,his scent,everything yet he wasn’t my mate.Oh how shameless of me?Yet I didn’t care.I’m really sorry my little pups.You do not deserve this.Goddess Luna made a huge mistake blessing a cursed woman like me with such beautiful and miraculous children.Not wanting to wake them up,I slowly closed the door.Nor letting out an ounce of breathe so as to not wake them from their peaceful slumber.