Many things took effect

in my life, all these made me believe in only one thing........”the god”.

You must be wondering

how?

As the answer, these

things can’t be explained and expressed but can only be experienced.

Before telling the story,

i’ll introduce myself.

I’m oruru-chan. No, no, it’s not my real name. It’s

just a pen name.

It’s like i literally took

15 weeks to put this name on. I actually have a beautiful Sanskrit name, but i

guess i’m not that beautiful to carry it.

My pen name may sounds

like Japanese, but it’s not. It completely means golden light derived from

Sanskrit. You can’t find it easily.

Current age is 19 (in

year 2022 to 2023) and i mostly like to write scientific frictions and horror

frictions more than writing autobiography or something and i hate pure romantic

friction......

I guess it seems like i

had to write this as..um...as....er not getting the word!!...... ahh! Whatever

i would like to mention my friends which made a special bonding since i had no

true friends.........*sniffs*.....i am not crying...you are....maybe no, i am!

So my three friends

which i made in my entire life (till age 19 ^-^)

1 st is my little sam

san (again i won’t reveal her name \=-\=)

2 nd is my marvel friend

thor (haha....only she can understand this)

3 rd my other marvel

friend spiderman (*psss* she can’t understand that i’m talking about

her).......

Well..... my story may sound like friction..... but

trust me its true

There are few more

characters whom i can’t give out the name......

For this story...um...

let’s refer my name as matsya (it’s kinda hint to my original name).

So, let’s begin the story.

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This took place when i

was in 9th grade. When my whole class

talks about their grandma n grandpa, i just feel like left out...um...maybe cuz

we don’t talk anymore like we used to do or maybe i hate them. I every time

hide my true feelings in this case just to show my friend how i feel (i mean

fake feel) during their talks. And when i return home, i cry out secretly

without being unseen by my parents and sister. I felt like i’m just left out of

my relatives or maybe i’m that much weird to be consider as one.

I used to talk to wind

(don’t think i’m insane) cuz of lack of friend and of trust issues on humans.

Well talking to such

thing was natural, it’s kinda came out of blue.

How i ended up having

strong belief in “god”?

It’s like when i got hit

by my puberty, my mom was clueless about the tradition of the whole week. She

made the call to everyone whose contact my mom had. And no one said anything.

Even it’s said that such girls get gifts or something- something by their

relatives as blessing or whatever it was. I didn’t, why would i?

My mom barely remembered

some of them and performed it. My papa made the call to one of his junior and

he and his wife (they had a son of my age......my sister’s pilu bhaiya and my

loki) were the one to bring materials even at late nights and making flower

band for hair respectively. And i got my first gift from one of his junior (he

don’t know anything about it) it was half-saree material from..um...ah...i

can’t remember the name.......ha...kanchipuram!

this case..... i don’t

know why, but it made me feel like it was from some kind of super natural power

who did this. And eventually made me remember how many times that power helped

me and protected me.

All these case made me

to believe that : “when there is no one for our help, there he is, protecting

us like a guardian angel.”

And : “vasudhaiv

kutumbakam” {world is my family} i never got any help from my people but i

definitely got from strangers.

[i told you this cuz it

have a connection with the main story...]

--x--

The same year,

After taking shivaratri

vrath i got a dream (i’ll not describe the dream) and based on this dream i get

to know his name (Esh- i still blushed by thinking about his name). And his name is only known to my 3 friends and my sis and mom. It’s like

most of the time when ever girls talk the stuffs like love, boyfriend and blah

,blah it reminds me him. And the main part is : i thought it’s winne (again not

real name), cuz there are lots of coincidence which made me believe that it’s

him, like:# getting his notebook

while teacher distributes it landed on my hands and my notebook on his hand

\=_=.

# i literally dreamt him

more than 500 times =_=

# we don’t talk to each

other (even tho i wanted to be his friend). It’s said na “love starts from hate”

(it’s just a waste of time =_=)

his* you will get to know in later chaptersSo, i thought i had

crush on him and miss him.

In real i misses my

friend loki a lot.... we became friend in 7th std and the main

reason was he is south Indian and friend of my childhood friend harry

potter..hahha.....he had one more friend pega”sus”....He is actually sus.....

he had crush on me and i knew it...

It’s obvious from his

behaviour, the way he made loki talk to me for him and all...

Wel.... i miss them,

specially my loki bro a lot!

And i also had a friend

omegal.... ofc i’m not using his real name but he can understand if i say this=

“we spend most of our break time and arrangement periods in playground talking

about aliens and outer space.......” and giri anna*.....he and his

friend tanni always bring tamarind cuz i like it.

Anna* refers to brother in southern Indian language

It’s like got brotherly

and friendship bond from all of them.

One thing that i need

all is a best friend, i mean a male best friend have all characters of mine or

someone who is crazy about something (like me ^_^).

Till my 8th std i didn’t had any best friend who matches my flame. But in 8th std i met someone, someone who is very much crazy to be called as an alien. That

is non other than my best friend sam (nope, she is not male). We first met

during our class merge and i already got sense of her being alien.

--x--

How i made bond with her

It happened when we had

our first mann-ki-bat lecture, my class were sitting at the last of the world (ofc

in a room but i didn’t saw those people). I sat near a girl..... after few

seconds i got a alien sense from her, i looked at her. She was talking to some

of our senior sisters and looked at me (i’m pretty sure she didn’t recognised

me as the girl from b div). She was the most beautiful pure soul i met in past

few years. She smiled at me, i was sure that i have some relation with her but

can’t understand what. Then we talked till the show starts and then eventually

our educational minister (of that time) was giving lecture : “our favourite

prime minister blah blah blah blah....”

She mocked him at the

same time by repeating the same thing he said. We laughed... i didn’t laughed

like that in overall 2 years as i  did

that day. And we became friends (the normal one). (i’m sure she don’t remember

this, sometimes i think she have “the gold fish memories”)

After a year during the

starting on 9th std, i changed my section. There was 2 reasons :# our section use to get

back by 2 chapters as section a does

# i had fight with my

class friends (female one) at the end of 8th std# (this one is

optional)...... my sis also changed, so i did.

Again i met her (thank

god she was there). There was a girl who used to made tag along her as she is

some kind of “tail”. Seriously i hate that. yarr if she is your friend it

doesn’t mean that you will keep her in a bottle as some kind of gennie she is.

*aahm*..... back to the story\, i sat in the last bench of the first row\, cuz it

was so awkward to be in new section in old school and even everyone knows that

i was from b section. It was sam first who approached me during lunch time and

sri tagged along (she is the same girl  mentioned above). Few days passed by we grew a strong friendship and sri

was jealous of it.

I guess by the starting

of September sam told me that her father got transfer in nagrota (in j &

K). I was heartbroken but what can i do? I accepted it as the fate. And on same

month after few days she came to me with tears in eye. I was worried, i asked

her what happened. Ya..... she had a fight with sri, she told me everything.

I still remember her

words : “matsya, i’m not like what people think. They think i’m immature and

act crazy. But i’m not.” She continuous “shi told me that you said something

very bad about me, but i know you didn’t cuz i trust you and you are not like

normal peoples who talks on anyone’s back. Promise me you also won’t trust on

anyone’s words regarding me.” (i literally got tears in my eyes even now when i

typed this..... damn i can’t believe that someone can be that much blind in

jealousy).

The day she was to left

school i cried a lot cuz mom didn’t allowed me to go to school that day, as it

was half day at school.

Since she left that

place i was worried for her, as the new place was one of the dangerous place in

india and for her to get friends.

Thanks to god, she got

lots of friends.

--x--

I don’t know whether

it’s to be consider as 1st or not. At the first i get to

know that pega”sus” had crush on me and still i pretended like i don’t know

(haha....i must get Oscar for that acting).

And during the end of 9th std tanni, giri anna’s friend took help of giri to propose me....... (his

imagination was so, so, so creepy 3_3). He gave me a keychain a day before he

propose me. (i knew that he have something wild in his mind and i still pretended

like i don’t know...hehe oscar). Next day giri said everything in front of him

to me. My dialog was “ops, but

i already saw you as brother cuz you are my anna’s best friend.”

“but...but....”

I continuous “and i already

have a boyfriend” (obviously i lied).

After hearing this he

asked me to return his gift. (what the hell? HOW CAN ANYONE ASK THE GIFT BACK? WHATEVER I DID GAVE HIM HIS GIFT BACK... I DON'T NEED IT...*bleah*). and even he started cursing me.( WHAT KING OF IDIOT WAS HE? DON'T HE UNDERSTAND I DIDN'T WANTED TO BE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP..... AAAAAHHHH I WANTED TO PUNCH HIS FACE WILL ALL OF MY HORSE POWER.....THAT H*LLING IDIOT!!!!)

So, i took the keychain and threw it on his face. As the result he started

using abusive language. Giri anna got angry and started having fight. (i feel

guilty till now).

And they ended up being

enemies for few months. Neither giri talked to him nor he talked to him .  While i felt

guilty for ending them like this . ( BUT THAT WAS HIS FAULT!!)

Calm down girl!...... Calm dOWN..........

--x—

I got doomed

Somehow my classmates

get to know that i have a boyfriend (but they don’t know that it’s a lie). And

girls stared asking me about him =_=. And i successfully ignored them many

times. Later that same months i got 2 to 3 proposals more (I WONDER WHAT DID THEY SAW IN ME... NEITHER .I LOOK GOOD NOR I AM GOOD AT STUDIES...) Again i declined

them, and agin those crazy girls stared to ask me the same questions.

I

got headache by this and ended up taking the name of winne. (*deep breath*....

i didn’t knew about being doomed). After that i realised what i said and i was

in the situation of not taking that sentence back (i had/ i still have the

reason why i said his name. It’s like.....winne’s original name is my soul

mate’s name... I GUESS SO... I' NOT SURE EITHER.....hehe don’t worry even winne don’t know that i and sam named him

this).

Since

that day my ex class’s ( CAUSE I CHANGED MY SECTION) The mean girls (mannu and darshu. They are sisters) starts

teasing me with the help of mean senior sisters =_=.

The

hell i got doomed!!!

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