Basically I don't know how to tell y'all this

so i was a 13 year old girl who saw a guy staring at me in church

He looked at me as if he had never seen such a beautiful thing

I just ignored it and after few days a got a request in my Instagram and yeah I recognized that this person was staring at me few days ago

I just accepted his request and suddenly I got a text from him

He used to text me everyday and we were so close.

he used to ask my pictures and he used to tell that I was beautiful.

we exchanged each others contacts and we used to talk to many hours.

I liked his voice.i felt like I want to talk to him more.

But after few days he proposed me saying that he loved me.

I guess I was blind and yeah I accepted his proposal.

We were happy for few days and suddenly he mentioned his ex.

He said that he had already left her and so on

I believed everything he said.

He started to ask my Instagram password and as he had whatsApp but always had doubt upon me that I used to text other guys

I felt that he was loyal to me so I gave him everything that he asked

I guess it was a bad idea. it was dumb me

it was 7th month and he started to ignore me day by day, I cried, I hurted myself through sharp things, it was really bad, I couldn't sleep each and every single night. one day suddenly he said that he will leave me and then yeah ge left .

i thought it was me who hurted him I blamed myself for everything

I loved him so much, my studies were down, I felt lonely everyday, I cried alone, I used to tell everything to God as I know he listens to the ones who are broken hearted

I asked for truth each and everyday

I begged for him to come back but he didn't

he started to confuse me as if he loved me but then I didn't understand that he was trying to take advantage of me.

so I never moved on and then suddenly a guy texted me telling me everything about the guy that I used to love and the words were ' he had a girlfriend before you came and he was cheating you from the beginning' This made me feel that I gave my all love to the one who never deserved it..

so yeah I decided to start a new beginning and to love myself and my God who showed me that my plans will. alwys fail and God has already planned a better future for me.

after 2 years On Christmas we met in church and I just ignored him . He texted me saying that I was his girl and now I am ignoring him he wants me back even if he's having a gf. I knew after that he actually played with me taken for granted. I never went back to him as he played with me.

I decided that I'm never going to love anyone until I feel that this person will never leave me or will never cheat me so yeah last but not the least ' I learnt something from my past'.