rin was lying on the bed and looked at the time it was 4 AM he thought it way time it happened

His door creaked as someone entered with a belt

rin looked at that person whom he called father as he raised his hand with the belt to hit him

rin closed his eyes and thought of a happy dream as he smiled and after a while his father went away locking the door as rin opened his eyes he did not cry or show any emotion as he saw himself in the mirror and took out a recorder to say what had happened to him that day, it was like his diary he hid all his casets under the bed and in the attic. He looked at his room so big but was filled with nothing just like him.

Rin saw the time it was 5 AM and tried to sleep and had thought about the time when it all had started he was seven a small boy, where each night hid father would take him to the basement and hit rin till not even a single tear would shed,the boy who never received love or appreciation from his parents and wondered why his parents hated him though a little boy he was quite mature for his age as he thought if he was not their biological son he asked his grandmother .

She smiled and told him that u are a lovely boy and u are mama's and papa's boy why would u think like that

But the fact was he tried all ways to gain appreciation from his father and mother but they would look at him in a disgusted way as though he were a monster and one night his father came to his room and handcuffed him and started beating him and rin cried and cried till he could not cry anymore, his father took him to the attic and locked him there as the boy kept screaming that he was sorry if he if ever did anything .

The next day his mother opened the room and rin ran towards his mother to hug but she slapped him saying not to come near her ,one day his mother was drunk and came to his room and beating him saying "why did i ever give birth to you, i feel disgusted while looking at you ,you are a piece of trash just like your father".

There wasn't a day that went by him suffering slowly, he envied his friends who had parents with love but when his friends ans classmates saw his injuries on his hands and face they would not come near him as the rumors would spread that he fights outside school and is a thug but still he use to smile to not be lonely slowly he couldn't feel his emotions when he saw people smiling or crying he would just aimlessly stare at them thinking why and how could they feel it when i couldn't

It was a sunday of 2009 when he saw his father killing his mother in the basement but he did not feel an inch of sadness and thought about all the things his mother did to him from then on he felt it was fine to kill anyone as long as he is angry or unhappy with them.

the next day his father being guilty started hitting him more by cruel means he would lock up rin in the basement but rin always thought that father's usually hit their children when they were drunk but his father would torture him for no reason he felt lifeless.