My name is Vanshika

This is my story I'm not sure if I might publish it or not,but I'm writing it.

I was born and raised in Delhi.I am 24 years old single female. My parents are working in private limited companies both of them do not have time for me. I have a younger brother who always teases me on small things. He also started working this year in January. He thinks he can spend all his money by himself and never contribute a single penny in our home. Also I think I forgot to mention that my father's relatives have always taken each earning of his as their own so my father never gives us money to spend or get anything in our house. I started earning when I was 17 years old I always gave money at home from salary. I have never lived my life freely. I always feel burdened with all the responsibilities of my family which made me the person who I am.I am very emotional as the people I love hurt me a lot which has multiple times pushed me to cry all night or to hurt my self-respect 💔.

I have never been in any relationship I feel that because of past childhood traumas and ongoing family problems I would never be in a relationship. I'm very close to my mother, but there are times when she doesn't understand me and my emotions 💔.

My brother has matured over the years, but he tends to become a bully most of the time which hurts my heart as he is always argumentative and rude towards me .

I read somewhere that writing my emotions will help, although I feel that I got a flashback of my past trauma.

Guys I'm finally ready to share my own story .

kabhi kabhi Aditi zindagi m yoohein koi apna lagta h

kabhi kabhi Aditi voh bichadd jaye toh ek sapna lagta h .

Aise mein koi kaise apne aasuon ko behne se roke

Aur kaise koi soch le everything�s gonna be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi naa khushi aur naa mazaa,

Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa,

Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye, kaise hass de khush hoke?

Aur kaise koi soch le everything gonna be ok?

Kabhi kabhi to lage zindagi mein rahi naa khushi aur naa mazaa,

Kabhi kabhi to lage har din mushkil aur har pal ek sazaa,

Aise mein koi kaise muskuraye, kaise hass de khush hoke?

Aur kaise koi soch le everything gonna be ok?

Soch zara jaane jaa tujhko hum kitna chahte hai,

Rote hai hum bhi agar teri aankhon mein aasu aate hai,

Gaana to aata nahi hai magar phir bhi hum gaate hai,

Ki aditi maan kabhi , kabhi saare jahan mein andhera hota hai,

Lekin raat ke baad hi to savera hota hai..

Kabhi kabhi aditi zindagi mein yuhi koi apna lagta hai,

Kabhi kabhi aditi wo bichad jaaye to ek sapna lagta hai,

Hey aditi hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de, hass de tu zara,

Nahi to bass thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda thoda muskura..

Sorry after crying writing my past I started hearing and writing song 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️