first time hearing their voices was fantastic.

they are causing me some trouble but the only ones I can relay on and consider them as my friends, so it is not a burden at all.

even I still live with my family, I am independent, I make money by myself and work so many part time jobs.

I know how old I am but it keeps changing through my many lives.

each one of my lives is so different from the other .each one was created by certain circumstances and people.

1st life: to be honest, this one feels the most realistic than the others.

i am a girl who lived with her parents for seven years and moved to Canada but she was forced to leave her parents side going to Korea, and actually joins a K-pop boys band and be the only girl that performs with boys at the age of 13.

2nd life: a girl who was thrown away by her family in the deep forest, but she, somehow managed to live, and once she was 7 years old, she started working as an idol in a American industry and meets seven boy who are going to save her for once and forever.

3rd life: a married woman who has a child named Taylor but as soon as she gave birth she was abandoned by her husband and decided to adopt a child and 2 and 3 instead of being lonely.

4th life: a teen girl who was raped by her "best friend" and became a single mom but with the help of one of her friends named zoufil that took responsibility of her child and decided to marry her and protect her forever.

5th life: my life as a YouTuber who has a lot of followers and in one of her videos she was seen by seven knights who will be friends with her.

6th life: instead of being an idol, this time I am a staff member at a K-pop entertainement and secretly learns the dance tutorials with the team which caused her a lot of trouble with her boss.

7th life ( and probably last one):I am a pretty normal girl, I study at middle school and I live with my family but miserably... so miserably.

so I really wish I could choose which life I want to live in, and it will probably be the first one.

I really feel that it is so normal, and I believe that every single person on earth has 7 lives as I do but each one makes their own. but the perks of my lives are that I got a lot of things to do.

the moment that I have to sleep in my first life, I already have to wake up in my second.

so it is too tiring for me and I need a lot of energy during the day so I can go through everything.

I might have enjoyed having a lot of them but I am not happy.

what are these weird noises am I hearing? what are these burdens?am I dreaming?

suddenly my body felt sore, I..i can't move, I am trapped in my own self...

I finally open my eyes...where am I? is that my mom? why is she laying in a hospital? her heart is so weak, no I can't lose her right now,i...i need her.

we are all gathered at the hospital trying to figure out a solution for mom's surgery.

the analysis.....i am going to give my mom my kidney so she can live.

the day of the surgery..i wish I can make it out of the block alive. I really wish I could choose.

I am sleeping again unable to move or speak or even breathe...

I open my eyes I am with my family, my mom is....fine she is healthy.

my dad is saying that we are moving to Canada, very far from our current country, we are leaving in 2 days, I didn't really feel sad cause I don't really have that much friends to miss, and I've always been a nerd so I didn't really interfere with any of my classmates.

we left for the airport early in the morning and gone for our flight.

I played my favorite bts music and tried to relax.

it was actually very though for me in my country so I really liked the idea of emigration.

finally arrived....

what?! am I taking another flight? and to..... to Korea? am I finally meeting my idols??! my dream is finally coming true.

I write a little list of my needs.

money.. check

bag of makeup..check

audition submission.. check

extra hairbands.. check

my lightbomb..check

5:30 pm at Incheon Airport,

this has to be a dream, soon I am going to faint from joy, I am really taking a moment to get into the situation.

I ordered an iced Americano and left the airport.

I first stopped at the K-pop industry to audition, I am so nervous already *taking a deep breath * let's calm down everything is going to be OK.

ceo: so you are aya also known as Kim hyeoyeon, have you ever worked for an industry before?

"yes I have been a staff for 2 years".

ceo: okay, so what are your skills that we can use in our industry?

"I can do both males and females makeup and also design clothes."

ceo: you are 13 years old, but can you bear all of the working hours?

"I have no problem, and I have an early age contract so you have nothing to worry about sir".

ceo: you can comeback next week for the actual audition, you will be staying at the trainees dorm.

I went to the dorm and so many thoughts came into my mind again 😥😥

will I be able to make it? how about working harder? I don't think I am the person that I wanted myself to be, but I am still young tho, right?

I surrendered from my thoughts and slept..

I open my eyes, I am literally still a baby, I am crying, I am so hungry, and I can smell dust....

I just realized I was thrown away by my parents..i am...homeless... and probably in a forest. am i gonna be eaten by wolves?

somehow, I managed to grow up and made it to 7 years old. I found out that I am so talented, I can dance, I can sing, and do a lot of other stuff, so.. I started working as an idol at 10 years old. I pretty much made a living out of it and bought my own apartment.

my life is all about dancing and reahersing and practicing vocals, it's pretty hard but I got no choice at my young age.

so I basically performed every 4 days, I didn't have any holidays or things that other people celebrate.i don't know when it's my birthday, one of my ex adopters once told me that I was born on 7th September of the year 2005, but who knows, it might be anytime, but as long as I am alive and living the best doing the thing that I wanna do, I don't care about these mini worries. my work is so though, I wake up as early as 6:00 am and go to the industry I work for, take a shower, and start getting ready as for makeup and clothes, and by the way, I had to wear whatever I was told to, even if I wasn't satisfied with what I had to wear or which makeup I had to put on, I couldn't argue with my boss, cause she was so scary and always bragged about firing me more than 10 times a day, so I kinda started being familiar with the way my industry was working.

boss: how's the preparations for the award show going?

"it's going okay m'am, we are about to finish learning the mushup choreography, we also finished preparing the outfits".

boss: this award show is the biggest in the country, so we have to prepare very well, and one of the biggest K-pop bands is going to be here, so behave and prepare well if you don't wanna be fired, does that sound okay?!

"y... yes boss!!".

that's how my life goes on and on. but tomorrow is the award show, probably I have never been more exited, I am finally meeting one of the reasons I woke up everyday, which is performing on stage, and also being seen by millions of people....

it's finally the day, I woke up as usual, but a little bit earlier, probably because of excitement, took a shower and headed to work. once I entered, the place was full of known artists, I couldn't believe my eyes, finally my work is paying off by probably getting attention from my hero.

I got ready and went to the rehearsal room...