My whole body feels numb from fever. I feel like I am going to die from coughing blood all the time. I think grim reaper is at my doorstep now.

I sighed as the doctor's words echoed in my years saying ,"You will last one more year at most even after you go through operation. I suggest you think

Wisely", I lost my voice and my heart started to beat like crazy. I don't want to believe it. But the reality is hard to push away.

My vision blurred as tears streams down my face. I don't have anyone to lean on, no one to share my last wish with and nobody to cry on my funeral. If I ever get to meet with God, I want to ask just why am I this unlucky??

I am still so young to be dead. What's needed in the one's last moments?? Family?? Mine, was never a normal one though. I still remember when dad left this world in a tragic accident when I was still eight, mom seemed like she was waiting just for this day to come and left me behind with her lover the following year. Not only that, but I was left alone in that cold house, to dealt with loneliness, hunger, dark and depression alone.

But that last only for a month when an old lady, who was bent by her waist holding a wooden stick, her grayish hair tied up into a bun, a warm smile plastered over her face. She was dressed so plainly but something about her puts me at ease. She was like a warm sunlight to me in that gloomy cold house.

She was my grandmother. The day I met her all of my despair faded away and as the time passed, she was getting older and sick. She hid about her health from me. She kept me in dark and as I grew cheerfully all thanks to her my dreams also got bigger. I dreamt to be happy with her all my life.

Maybe I shouldn't have dreamt of happiness. Its just something cannot get my hands on. When I turned eighteen, she also left me due to lung cancer. At that time I did everything in my power to save her, but still I couldn't save since it was already so late.

I was alone, once again. In her last moments, with a calm smile the words she said made my head filled with a ringing sound and those were, "I am glad that at least, I have you in my last moments. Please live a happy life, my sweetie... Live like a true beauty", I just nodded hastily as I gave her veiny thin hand a light squeeze.

After that I have been on my own. I just turned twenty this year. I noticed that my breathing has turned normal and coughing has slowed a bit. I got up from the bed, my body still shaky. Walking towards the window felt like I have walked miles. After adjusting the curtains, I saw a full bright moon, stars twinkling as if trying to lift my spirits, a smile made its way on my face.

Just when my mood was starting to lighten, I felt a sudden burning sensation in my lungs and abruptly a nonstop puddle of blood started to flow from my nose and through vomit.

I collapsed on the floor completely out of energy. I feel so drowsy, my eyelids grew heavy. I tried to get up but couldn't just can't bring myself to do it.

My vision blurred due to tears because I know this is the end but still don't want to believe it.

Just like that I was dead. or so I thought??

"Lady, when will you wake up?", a young energetic and sobbing feminine voice made me sit upright with a jolt and my eyes now widely opened. The scenery in front left me in deep thoughts as I giggled to myself.

"Wow! Did I get a royal estate in Heavens??", I said as my eyes fixed on the girl who is standing before me in a maid cosplay dress giving me a look of surprise, with puffed eyes, tears still visible on her face.

"My lady ?? My lady is awake??", with a relieved smile, she wiped away her tears as she ran out of the lavish room mumbling something about Doctor.

Wait ! Doctor?? But I am already dead. Doctor is not going to be on my list now. A throbbing pain coursed through my wrist as I lifted my hand in air and saw my wrist all wrapped up with bandage.

Just then I realized that my hair was blonde?? Since when??

Shifting blanket from over me, I got out of that magnificent bed and walked toward the dressing table that also felt like that of royalty.

The reflection staring back at me wasn't me. It's a girl standing maybe in her teens ,with a voluptuous figure adorned in most silkiest dress , ethereal beauty that surpasses all the actressesI have seen, pale skin as if even a little scratch will be visible, oceanic blue eyes that were twinkling and sunshine blonde hair.

Taking a step back, in bewilderment I tripped over my own steps and fell on my back. "This is not me!", I stuttered as I stood up, my hands trembling.

Spotting the door, I sprinted out of it. The hallway that unfolded in front of my eyes seems endless as all the decorative curtains and the expensive carpet under my feet blurred.

I finally reached the end of path that divided into three ways. I took the middle one without thinking twice. Furthermore, I don't know why I am running like this, but I just don't feel like facing this reality. I just want to run away.

My foot hurts, but my mind is telling me not to stop. A group of three to four people along with that maid cosplay girl appeared right in front of me. My head is reeling like crazy, and I don't think I can handle these people.

"My lady?", I flinched at that mention and noticed they are all giving me a look of sympathy. It's making it even worse.

"I- I am not the lady you keep calling me, let me go", I stuttered all the words I had in my head.

"That Fever must've affected her memory, somehow ", a middle-aged gentleman dressed in gothic clothing said. I took a step back as I realized what they're getting at. I sprinted in the opposite direction as they all started to catch up to me.

After total of three hours of running I was still lost in that huge mansion. I couldn't get out of it. It was like an endless maze.

Finally, I decided to stop for a while as I found a dark old room that was quite rusty and seem like forgotten for ages. I took shelter in there.

As I entered in there, I locked the doors first and found a big family portrait just in front of me. A handsome man sitting on a rather antique wooden chair, a beautiful woman just beside him was standing looking like a real epitome of a real Lady, along with a boy who was young enough to be called as a 10 yr old and a little girl with a giddy smile who was around five to six. The dress code is rather weird.

 And from a glance people can say it's a happy family but in my perspective, it's a facade they are showing of a happy family, well it was quite relatable.

The old memories made my head throb as I took my step towards the portrait, on reaching there my hands instinctively touched the cold portrait, colors felt a little greasy on my skin.

My eyes glued to the little girl as I suddenly saw my past self in her. Even though looks are different, but the look in her eyes makes me want to empathize with her.

My vision blurred as I lost consciousness again. With a thud, collapsed on the icy marble floor.

"Hey! Won't you help me??", a melodic sweet voice called out to me forcing me to wake up, but I resist it but as all the memories of my death and waking up in that place in someone else's body rushed into my head I woke up immediately.

"Oh! You awake?", She said again as I looked around and saw a small cottage that was quite average, grassland as far as my eyes can wander, clear blue sky and wait! The same little girl from that portrait??

"Y-yeah, but where is this?? Am I finally in heaven?", I kept blabbering as she stared at me as if she just met someone she knew.

Instead of saying a reply she rushed to me and hugged tightly as if she would never let go.