Inn was sitting on a bench park sipping a coffee staring to nothing, just spacing out...asking herself why?why am I so useless in my every lifetime, why am I always left alone? Having no one to grieve for me when I die ... While spacing out she suddenly comes into her senses and spot a familiar guy.

Even though her mind is always floating with air, gravity will always happen when her heart recognise Jack, or Jacob or Kyle or Nathan well the names is different from every lifetime you know so maybe in her past life it's Jacob but now it's Jack. She saw Jack with a little boy holding his hand.

No doubt it's his son. I've always dream to have a happy family with him but I'm just so not qualified to be his wife in every life I have ... She said to her mind. Probably he won't recognise me how much I recognise him regarding of how I look it's terribly shabby. And even though if it's not, he never really pays attention at me in the past...

But then just how shocked Inn when the both of them are walking closely to her. What was that? What the hell are they doing? Are they going to approach me? Maybe if I run and hide I could hide myself from humiliation! As if I'm holding any pride!. Inn tells to her self, time's ticking but she's still struggling to decide... Just how fast the time is Jack and his son approach her.

The little boy drops a coin on the tin can beside Inn. It's her tin can to earn money as every beggar do. Inn feels humiliation in her every nerve, she never felt this feeling before in her every life! This is new and it's hurting her. She just look down and say thank you in a very low voice, she's afraid to get recognise by Jack. What  would Jack say if he sees me like this? A beggar sleeping in every park bench relying on every coin that drops by  the people who has the heart that is kind enough to be bother!?

He stops for a bit when he heard  Inn's voice, he always recognise Inn in every way because Inn is always making a way to get notice by him. Perhaps Inn thinks that he didn't pay attention but Jack always know how to notice her until now...

"Inn?" Jack asked with a low and gentle voice that made Inn feel so bad,humiliation, happiness, sadness all kinds of negative feelings you can think of are mixed in her heart.

Silence filled the atmosphere for a moment then Inn look up and smile.

"Hi, Jack?..."  Inn thinks that she will die sooner or later and she will be having a new life eventually so she takes this risk to say hi again to the love of her life for the last time, cause maybe fate will never let them meet again in this life...

"Jack let's go! I want you to look into this!!" a woman's voice from far away, but if you look closely you will see that it's a beautiful woman calling her husband to bond with her, pain starts to climb first in Inns heart. This feels shit!

Jack look at his wife and look back again at Inn and smile, he took a lot of money in his wallet and then he smile again and give the money to Inn then say "nice to meet you again Inn...see you around"

And then Jack carry his son and run back to his wife, tears came falling into her cheeks, down to her hand and falls to the money Jack gave her, she crippled the money out of everything... It hurts, here! This world is cruel! She said to herself and then she gets up and walk to the highway then BOGHSHHH!!

You're the cruel one Inn, you never let yourself to try, you always make your fears win! You always want to have an easy process because you didn't want hard but in the end you are always ended up having a hard life! Please don't just wish for a better life someday Inn, tell to your self that you will have a better life in this life without telling yourself later in your life!

Inn opens her eye's with the sound of a crying baby, I just remembered that I was hit by a car or truck? Nevermind omy God!! Am I pregnant? Did I survive the accident? What's that sound? I heard a cry of a baby! Inn tells to her self.

"It's not your baby Inn! You are the baby with another babies" I said, well I am the narrator slash her reminders. I'm always with her it's just I don't hold her decisions that's why she's always ended up dying as a poor little Inn with a super tragic unrequited love!

"Baby!? Me?!!"

"Another problem! She's more dumber now! How many failure are you going to make in this lifetime now?"

"You!! Nevermind! I see I died again... It's much better than spending jacks money"

"Are you not going to be serious? Not even tired? Even just once?"

"Tf are you saying?! Of course I'm tired! You know let's talk about it later because I'm having a nicer plan when I wake up."

"wake up? Here you go your lazy self! never get rid of it in every life"

"let me remind you that baby needs to sleep! How do you think my brain works huh?! I need sleep!now let me.....zzzzzz" she's asleep now, what a shameless baby I've got.

In another side of the hospital there's this angel Hayo talking to a grim reapers they are walking heading to the place where all new born babies are. One of the baby in hospital are dying and one of the grim reaper will take that little baby any minutes now, Hayo just walk with them because he wants to hold the baby for the last time since he is so soft hearted, as expected for an angel. And finally they reach the place and the baby was now struggling, and the baby dies just like that the grim reaper handed the baby to Hayo then Hayo kiss her ;

"farewell little angel say hi to God for me will you? Your journey will never begun in this place but maybe In heaven?"

Hayo handed back again the baby and the grim reapers left with the others, seriously? Is this what they called a VIP? The little angel is just feather weight why it has to be 4 of them? Hayo said in his mind and continue to examine the other babies and then he stop.

"She Reincarnates Again?!" Hayo said loudly, it was supposed to be said in his mind maybe he thinks loudly.

"Any problem?" I said.

"does she have infinity chances for reincarnating?" he said examining Inn's baby appearance.

"confidential! An all around angel should never be noisy at the life of a human who has a special contract!" I said with attitude, he never knows anything about how Inn remember her past life and it's better this way because he might freak out and it's 1 in 10000 a rare case.

"Ekkk! what secretive thing you are! Never mind it's a relief to see this annoying human as a baby she looks adorable for now!... Then see you little Inn in your next life" Hayo said and leaves this place. Hayo says see you in next life because they just get to see each other once in Inn's lifetime that's why perhaps it's in her next life.

15 years had past, Inn's life has been flowing fine. For the past 15 years she's been outstanding to all the battles in her life, she begins to be extra rather than the regular her. She participated in many extra curricular, or maybe every extra curricular she could find; chess tournament, quiz bee, art contest etc. She's more paranoid than usual, her greatest fear now is to fail and she's stepping on every thing that could make her.

It is a sunny day on a neighbourhood, it's new place for Inn because her family moved in another town for work. The summer is almost over when they move into another town, all the things are left for Inn to do is to review for her next school year in her new school. Everything was too hectic since they are still planning about the interior design of their house, the house was quite big but it's doesn't have any furniture yet, so the family is planning for it since they can't afford to pay person for planning it for them.

"Inn pass me that cup" Inn's father said to her, they are quite close than her mother. Inn's mother was strict and is not easy to get along with.

Inn took the cup and pass it to her father, Antonio smile's at her and goes back to his work. Maria then comes closer to Inn and pass a magazine. Inn and his father are sitting on a sofa while her mother is outside taking a parcel.

"Mom? Didn't I told you that I'm not going to be a model? I already told you that I already applied to some school here with great capabilities... This school you want me to have won't make me any future" Inn said to her mom. Her mom wants her to become a model while Inn wants to be a successful entrepreneur or a lawyer or an FBI agent..it's much better for her far from modelling since that's what she do in her past life but she encounters some issues and people started to harass her for that then in the end she ends being a beggar.

" you know how my dreams end when I had you! I only wish for you to continue my happiness yet you don't want it! What a shameless kid I've got!" Maria said then stormed out of the room.

Antonio pat Inn in her shoulder and said " don't mind her, continue on your dreams that's what  I want for you" and then he goes back to his work again.

Inn didn't reply and just space out. Things like that didn't just affect her, she experience many parents and this new parents of her is not that bad than the others. Besides it feels like this scenario is just testing me if I can hold on my dreams much longer, and I just don't want it to be longer I want it to be part of me.

...

"Okay REM this is it!"

"what's with you? Acting like a main character here, you just transfer school girl don't think too much! And stop reading those books! Makes you super OA"

"thanks for motivation it really change my life.." Inn said sourly. Look at this girl she's always showing her yuckiee attitude to me! Poor me! Sob sob

Inn was about to enter her new school, she enrolled in her dream school. Well it's not actually a dream it's just that she'd  been into every school and she never enrolled in this one before. Inn was grinning while entering the school thinking she's the smartest, I thought she's nervous? Is it just my delusion? Ohhh godd poor her, she's already swallowed by the main character syndrome in her books! Holy God! This is baddd.

"Hi!! You're new here?" a long haired pretty girl with a disgusting aura said, I think she's fake and she can't even hide it! Look at her eye liner it's not even placed properly! Inn thinks. I'm not going to have future befriending with her.

Inn pretends she never see the girl and walk through her.

All the student are already inside their rooms just waiting for their teacher. A loud noise are filling the whole room. They are all gossiping about last year, like it feels that they all already knew each other. Well based on Inn they literally know each other since kindergarten! What a pathetic kids! Inn said to her mind. Then while looking around in her new room planning on how she will have the very best first impression to her classmates she met him again, but now he's wearing a glasses.

Inn never meets her before in this life, she thought she wouldn't see that guys face again.

"Inn remember he is not the person you are inlove in, in your first life" I told that to Inn so that she will never fall in love with him again.

"I know, I just couldn't believe that he looks good with glasses"

If Inn finds this guy attractive again then the cycle will start again.

"That's Helix! I mean the guy you're looking at... Do you have a crush on him?" a girl from behind said, Inn turn around and saw a girl with a cute face and a short hair. She looks blooming and kind far from the  other girl in the gate a while ago.

Inn smile and said " no, I'm just looking to that girl" and then Inn point s at the girl she met a while ago.

"Oh! I thought you have a crush on him. That's Angela and she's the worst don't get close to her" the cute girl warns Inn.

Inn nods and look around at the room again, she's snob than ever! making herself an outcast in her every life. I chose to be an outcast REM! If you're going to tell these I'll get your job for you! Inn said. Look at her she's even bad to me her technical guardian for so many years!

After a minute their adviser enters the room and get rid of the noise.

"Good morning class! And please sit properly. I'm just going to have a few announcement before our class starts. The comfort room at left side are under construction so don't linger there! Last year some of the students here are making that comfort room as an hide out to vape! Kids these days what so cool about it? It's just making you unhealthy but if you really want to then I'll let you, I can always pay a visit in your funeral in the future.."

"Dead already Ma'am? Isn't it hospital first?" the guy who looks like an addict said.

"Don't joke with me Mr. Bagong-Ginahasa shave your hair or I'll shave it for you! Be thankful the school still let's you enter regarding how your hair made you look like an drug addict!" Mrs. Domingo said."that's all for our announcement today...maybe not. Class we have a new student! She's a transfer from city P, please miss introduce yourself "

Inn stands up and look to everyone I'm the room "hello everyone, I'm Inn Marine. It's my pleasure to meet you all" and she moves back to her sir.

"Thank you miss Marine, then miss Marine can you move to sit with Mr. Montero?"

Talking about which, Mr. Montero is Helix, and it feels not good to sit with him. I have a soft spot on that face that made me so in love with him in every life. What would I do? Am I going to do a ruckus here? No just there and ignore that guy! Yes! Inn told to her self.

She picks up her bag and sit beside Helix.

"Hi Inn, would you like to go with us in the canteen?" Helix asked, is he testing me? At my past life if I never approach him he will never approach me too!

"No, thank you"

"Okay. You're okay right? Feel free to tell me if there's someone is bothering you." Helix said then continue to listen in the teacher,

Helix was an active student but not as active as Inn, Inn can't just stay lay low for a day. She just can't wait to tell the whole world that she knows the lesson so badly! Well it's helps her to focus on something else than to listen on Helix weirdly approaching her.

"Very good Ms. Marine" the teacher said. The teachers know her name already because of her performance on her first day.

"A girl who know it all!" A girl said, no one saw the girl who said that but some of their classmates agree with her and laugh with her.

"stop now guys! it just make all of you dumb by laughing at dumbs joke" Helix said. Inn feel comfortable by how Helix acts,  but still I can't just fall again! I'm mistaken he's just a kind guy!

Time pass and it's already recess, Inn never goes out to canteen to eat. She dislikes crowd so she just review for another lesson.

"Are you going to fall for him again?"

"REM! Just because he do something good to me I'll fall again? You think little of me don't you?"

"Well regarding on your past life's maybe yes?"

"Get lost!"

"Uhmm... Inn have these I never saw you at the canteen"

"I said get lost!!" Inn shouted, she's dumb sometimes I already left you know.

wait that voice? It's not REM!

"Oh, sorry to bother I'll just leave"

I don't want to be seem ungrateful here! Inn turns around and grab Helix's hand and stop holding right away when Helix look at her, this is embarrassing! Is he going to ignore me all this life because he will thought that I'm so inlove with him and he already has a girlfriend and I will get beaten up by her because I seduce Helix? But i didnt seduce him! No this is the worst!!!

"Inn? Are you okay?" A gentle low voice wakes Inn in her thoughts.

"Oh! I'm fine! It's just I'm kinda filled with thoughts and shouts at you that's why I grab your hand to say thank you and sorry because I don't wanna be sound ungrateful cause I'm so grateful." And then she smiles awkwardly.

Helix fell into laughing and smiles at Inn "don't do that explanation again you're too cute to handle" Helix said and then leaves. Leaving Inn a blushing cheeks! No! I can't communicate with him again! I'm going to be unsuccessful again and I'm going to end up poor again! I can't risk this life! I wanna a change!

It's already midnight, Inn was scrolling on her phone watching videos,reading memes and also quotes. That one memes that made her rolling in her bed is "do you  know the reason why I don't want to have a boyfriend because I'm afraid you might think that we're having sex" it's not that funny on Western people but in Asians who has been so conservative might understand this fact. Sex before marriage is a large issue in some of the countries and if you are rumoured to have sex without marriage your name will be the chaser in every liquor they drink and you will be the main character in every auntie's story and that's how you don't want it to happen even though you don't care about other people you might get suffocated with those scenario.

Ting!

Who is this now? Inn ask to herself. After she goes home from school many of her classmates are adding her on social media. Don't worry they didn't add her because she's so pretty and they want to make a move with her, they add her because she's a smartie.

Inn clicks the friend request and it's... Helix?? He never adds me on any social media platform before! what's with him now! Inn ask to herself. She clicks accept and sleep.

...

"Hi Inn" the cute girl said and walks close to her.

Inn wave her hand and smile at the cute girl. The cute girls name is Samantha.

"Thanks for accepting me on my friend request!" said Samantha.

"It's nothing then I'll head to the room now do you wanna come with me?" Inn asked sam. It's the first time Inn asked someone to come with her, if she's not a bully in her past life she's an outcast first time to see her as an sweet girl.

"Sure!" Sam girl said high spiritedly

"Loser Sam! Are you going to make another dumb?!" Angela said angrily. What's this girl up to?"

"You don't care about it okay?" Sam said and left with Inn

They enter the room and sit in their own seats. The class started and Helix pass a small paper to Inn. Inn opens the paper and read what it's said - 'thanks for accepting me :)' . inn writes back and Helix reads it. - 'listen to the teacher please?

She's cute. Helix said to  his mind.

The second period is already done and it's a recess now. Inn took her phone trying to search for a part time, she needs to earn money for college and her mysterious hobby.

"Oh,you take out your phone can I  see you ig?...I wanna follow you that's why." Sam asked.

"Okay" Inn gave her phone to Sam to look at her IG. Sam looks closely and add it on her phone then stalk Inn for a bit then gasp.

"He follows you?!" Sam said looking so shock. Inn looks at it and she's shock at little bit but her fear starts to grow.

She can't understand why, but for the past few weeks she's been ignoring Helix, Helix seems to be more interested in her. Is that some kind of psychological phenomena? The more you ignores the more he is interested in you?! Good hell he is not going to ruin this life of mine right?. Don't worry guys she's just over thinking again as always.

Helix enters the place holding a milk, looking at Samantha and Inn's direction.

"Hi Helix! Is that for me?" Samantha said, is she doing the things I'm doing before? Like...no! It can't be.

"next time Sam! Inn have some milk it's perfect cause you haven't had a breakfast" Helix said and sit beside Inn since the third class is going to start now.

Sam left looking pissed but I think it's because Helix shamelessly took the seat to her.

"How did you know I had no breakfast?" Inn ask Helix suspiciously.

"What's with that suspicious little look? I've seen you writing something in your diary" and then Helix took a notebook in his bag and started reviewing. It's their first quiz at music and it's always about the definition of the word so it's quite hard. As for Inn she memorise it ages ago.

"By the way thanks! but you don't have to give me anything in the future and don't act like that in front of Sam" Inn said to Helix.

"Got it and your welcome"

"Okay class let's not waste time and start our first quiz" the teacher in music said and the quiz started.

...

In a chat message.

"Congratulations you've got a perfect score!" - Helix

"thanks, likewise" - me

"I didn't even got a perfect score what's with likewise" - Helix

"I mean congratulations too"

" thanks! But I'm not as good as you, you know!" - Helix

(seen)

It's good decision I can't let anyone ruin my goal and I also have biggest goal here, and my first goal today is hack into my mom's old school. Her failure in modelling feels like someone is planning it! I hate it when I'm blamed with the things I'm not the real culprit. Mom hates me because she thinks that its when she gets pregnant without marriage ruin her career but father said to me that before me her career is already ruined. I wanna know the truth because I'm quite force to do modelling!