No one knows what destiny hold, they let you meet the person whom you never thought or known, even if they are infront of your eyes.....

It let you meet them when you are on the edge of breakdown...to lift you up...

Same was with me.....

I, who am just a normal girl who love to stay in fantasy, as they were the only way to escape from the reality. I am also one of those people who are the target of today's problems.

Let's start with the starting......

When I was a child, I used to stay with a group of few boys in which I was only a girl well most of them were now changed some become intelligent, some sportsman, or some are not even seen now . I was close to them because most of them were my neighbour or classmate but still not my friends even though we all used to do was fighting, teasing each other as a child atleast they were better than those former female classmates I used to had and thanks to those dumbos my language, my body language nothing is ladylike * cold sweat*

With the passing time everything started to change. I separated from everyone as I promoted to the other class and with the increase in age I had to separate from them but there I got nice friends, girls and boys everyone is nice except few, but I still didn't care much about it after all not everything you receive is meant to be good....

But who knows with the upcoming time everything started to change, even though my friendship bonds started to get stronger with others and I started to felt comfortable around boys again like before with the sweetness bitterness come along I was

also started to see the real face of everyone, My parents increasing expectation started to become my burden, my friends started to tease me with someone name whom I didn't even desire but I let them because I didn't want them to invite problems for me...

What I hate the most is getting pain, feeling of getting abandoned where my depression started to taking place.

To escape from everything I started to read comics, I never expected that the person I didn't even knew would become that close to me but things were not in my favour and changed again. I lost everyone around me, either online or real life everyone started to leave . I again left alone, the fear started to getting over me, I was on the verge of breakdown, my depression again triggered

I used to cry silently in night so, I could smile again in the day like nothing happened

I used to sleep more but always felt tired, sleepy, lazy, and not having mood to do anything.. later on I started to express myself through the stories or poetries I used to write

Which was likeable to others as well but with the time I started to smile fakely and behaving like a carefree person but in real I was not even able to felt any emotion, I wasn't even able to cry, cry like a normal person but became a person with no emotions , I became the person who was well known with the feelings of getting hurt, pain, getting abandon , isolated from others.

Then the universe team up with destiny on the command of God and play a game with us.....

I met him in our supplementary class, he was from another section and I was from another .

Again, I was only girl between the three boys but good thing was all were my best brothers.

Can you believe he was always near me yet I never notice him that's where their game started....

He and I shared same interest in poetries, not only poetries, he is a best rapper, artist yet I never knew him before. Having the interset in reading on our first meeting I asked him to let me see his poetries, he hesitate a little and denied first but I gave him a offer that he can saw mine in return and he agreed. At that time he was looking like a cute little boy who is obedient to his mothers' word " stay away from strangers" *smiling while laughing*

To my surprise his writing style was nice and I also got little impressed by his poetries and not a single second taken by my business mind to pop out. Soon enough I forgot about that meeting and go back to my own world and same goes to him but after few days with the coincidence or a trap don't know but we met again and that was on sports event .

I was carrying-out my responsibility which I didn't wanted to do at all but because of my dear friend I had to stay and maintain the decorum of the grades in the field and there I met him again and remember our first meeting, we chatted a little and I finally asked his name again and with that I proceed to other areas since I had nothing to do with him and didn't stay there for a long time to attract unwanted problems. Both the times I didn't felt uncomfortable around him and there was something surprise happen with me but I neglect that. With that time flew....

Our another meeting bring something unexpected in our lives. We started to often met with each other after class in the gap of three-five minutes and talked about his songs and poetry, little by little he started to open with me after my one question I asked him but I felt guilty as I approached him with pure intentions of business however the question I asked in curiosity pushed me to trust him ,trust someone once more . Neither I expect him to reply as I asked him for whom he wrote them, with lefting me surprise he answered that. Nevertheless I begin to care for him against my own wish along with the comfort I felt around him was actually different. No-one believe if I say he was the reason I was able to sleep well from the day I started to talk with him , he became my medicine, without knowing my smile around him was real one , not the fake I used to do.

The feeling of happiness around him which I stopped feeling a long ago. little by little our closeness started to grew ...

I begin to attract towards him, his sweet voice which was not less than a sweet melody but till now I never listen my name from his lips.

The eyes of him bewitched me, I completely lost in them whenever I look, his breathing taking smile is so bright and beautiful, whenever he smile the worries of mine gone away and a smile appear on my lips too but there was something weird about him till now - his facial expressions they are neutral which made me worried about him unknowningly . He maybe the only person whose mind and expressions I couldn't read or see through, which confused me a lot about his actions then again I didn't wanted to get hurt again or hurt others so I started to put the line between us and only wanted to stay in friendzone because I didn't wanted to go through the same pain again and he might not like me either, after a long time I started to felt emotions and felt happy, but if he felt disgusted with my presence after knowing my feelings.. I would lose him too, he was my only friend now, I just wanted to cherish my friendship with him. He already had gone through so much I don't want to become greedy, I should be happy in that much only... That's what I was thinking at that time.

But universe doesn't accepted it and as we are just their chess pieces on their chessboard , it played their own tricks....

One day when he didn't come to school, I didn't know why I was so desperate to see him, with our unknown fate knew that he became my habit, my eyes finding him with so much desperation.

I got sick later that day with sudden headache and I didn't go to the school for days nevertheless fate decided something else when we again met I never, never expected something like that would happen which I was fearing a lot, the thing I wanted to never face, I wanted a peaceful life which became mess just because of twenty minutes. Our lives changed in just twenty minutes.

He shared his own story but some people didn't like us being together and with their poor mentality they thought bad about our friendship and with their intentions they successfully stained our pure friendship. with the things went like that we both break down in our own worlds . He met his worst whereas I in mine . I had lost the last hope of my life I ever had nevertheless my mind was full of his thoughts like what will happen to him? How he is? Is he OK? will he hate me now? will he feel disgusted ? why not he afterall I am such a bad luck in his life.