It's already 6:37 in the evening,, but I still can't sleep because something is bothering me. I keep thinking about a lot of things that make me feel like hell. I wanna close my eyes and relax my mind because I overused it today, I'm totally worn out. You know the feeling of being alone, and left behind by the person you love. He said, he loves me, but it turns out that he is just using me as a time girl because he is still not ready yet, for that love he was craving for. I am totally a fool for not thinking well if this relationship really works. You know the reason why I keep holding on to this relationship even if I am suffering everyday and every minute that I think about him, for the reason that I already promised him that i will never leave him no matter what happened. I was hurt when he said that he was abandoned with his ex-girlfriend while he was saying those words there is something squizzing in my heart. Like I wanted to love him more than that girl loves him and I promise to myself that i will never exchange him for a materialistic reason. Day by day my love for him is getting stronger like I already settle myself to him. I even give my full attention and love to him, i trust him more than anyone else in the world like my world is revolving with him. He didn't fail me at first he gave his 80 percent love to me and i see clearly how important I am to him. I saw who he really is, A boy that is full of dreams and motivation in life. One time he told me about his past, I was so amazed and captivated by him. He has the quality of the boy that I am looking for, He is not good at studying and he didn't finish his studies, but he is a hard working person he always tries his best just to be fit in his position. I never look down on him since I know that he is not a rich person instead I said that true love doesn't depend on money It depends how you love and take care of the person you love. He was awakened with the words i said he trusted like he knows me personally. I felt the warmth of his love and i wanna keep it forever. All of the sudden everything has changed when I start working in my first job. He changed a lot, he is no longer the person i know. He became so stone hearted to me he did everything that can hurt me. I never thought that he would be like this one day because I know how good and calm he is in 6 years we have been having our long distance relationship. In the blink of an eye all of the sweetness , love and care are gone.