From the very beginning of my life, I was a kind, bubbly, fun and friendly person. I was always given attention from mom and dad including my elder sister. They gave me lots of things that I loved including stuff toys, books, foods, and etc. Until that changed when my father decided to leave my whole family and often visit me and my mother and elder sister. Nevertheless, from that day I never expected that my father changed his personality and his life. I never received what I wanted from my birthday and even his presence. From that day, I started to change including the things I do. Everything changed when my father had his own family. And that began with the trust. Because trust is the key in everything and life. Expect that the trust will be destroyed because if it happened, it will never be recovered anymore. That changed everything to me. I never thought that my family would be destroyed by my father’s stupidity. And from then on, I stopped communicating with him till he gets older. But I will never ever forgive a person who even cheated on his own family. He gave in to the temptation and to none other than himself he kept blaming us for not taking care of him and leaving him sick. I never felt an emotion towards to what happened to him. I’d rather accept the reality than having a delusional thought of complete family. He utterly failed to protect and provide his own legal family. Only he supported his outside family other than his legal family. And now karma is eating him slowly until he gets older. And for the plans of me and my twin sister, well it is our own responsibility to never tell our secrets because that will make him feel he is not responsible but yet I never forgave him even he asked me. A quote i made “Never ever let anyone bring you down and never ever expect anything from anyone who treated you like a trash” because one thing that will make yourself feel staying on your own family will make youu suffer more. I suffered for so many years. Even after what happened to me, I never got love from my own father but there was a teacher who made me feel like he’s a father to me. He dedicated himself to become a second father to me. He always taught me life lessons and everything in this cruel world. I asked if life is really cruel. He told me that it is really cruel and even if there are evil things forgive still because you never know you might be going through something that made you a “Villainess”. Because being villain is what makes you stand on your own and not to others. A villain will do everything that takes to become the strongest character on his/her own life. Neverr ever underestimate a villain’s ability because that will make your life fall.

Why is it important to have our own emotions? Because it is our own way to survive, grow and connect to others. They can also help us to act quickly in important situations. As what Mlodinow said, “Emotions play a hidden role in our behavior.” Emotions have positive and negative characteristics. Emotions can vary into different types such as happiness, sadness, anger, fear and etc. If you have positive emotions that means you can do whatever you like for example, riding a bike, fishing, playing games, and etc. If you have negative emotions, it can attract a lot of negative energy from others. Negative emotions such as anger, fear, frustration, despair, chaos, disappointment, annoyed and bitter. These negative emotions are commonly felt by people in different situations such as war, conflict, isolation and etc. As such I do have strongest three negative emotions that are: “Anger, Hatred and Revenge” because of what I experienced in my own family. These emotions always seek inside me to destroy the people I cherish. I became slowly a changed person because of these things that made me who I am. But this is not really I am. Even when I lived in a cruel and stressful environment, I chose to become kind still and never be negative towards others even myself. But that doesn’t mean I can change for people who made me into “Villainess” because I will not let them bring me down. I am still the known enemy of other people who made me into this. A villainess will never cease to have positive emotions regarding to what people made her become that. I will never forgive any people who made me into this, in fact I will still but I will never let them in my life ever again. Eventually, I will never let anyone in my life if they will treat me as a stranger again. Well if that person/people never have an intention to say sorry to me then I will never even acknowledge him/her. Because that’s what they deserve for treating me like a stranger and trash. Be careful whom you are choosing to be with because not all people will be like your vibe. If they treat you like nothing then leave them because they don’t deserve you. Just like Raiden Ei in the lore of genshin, she isolated herself to save her nation from yokais and monsters. She didn’t want to see another people to die knowing her own friends died so she created her own version of puppet and another puppet. Her puppet became the leader of her nation to make sure its in the safe place and never let people fear ever. But that doesn’t mean that it is always safe. Danger will always pass and it will never be stopped. Once it happens, it happens. But the truth will always prevail even though I lived in lies. Lies that made me isolated from everyone. From there on, I will be living in the dark that is where my comfort is.