My first real relationship started when I was a little younger than I am now, He had beautiful brown hair, and he made me feel things. Brendon was perfect. Or so i thought. My bestfriends at the time were Scarlett and Kandace, I thought they supported me. Well until Kandace told me she had a crush on Brendon, my boyfriend. Scarlett said she had a boyfriend. But the story changed everytime. Until she said she left him. That's when I noticed, how close Scarlett was getting to Brendon. I was okay with it at first, until he started flirting with her. Jealous? yes. I wanted Brendon to love me as much I loved him. But everytime our relationship was going good, Scarlett started flirting with him? its like she wanted to ruin my relationship. Kandace got over him and said that what Scarlett was doing was wrong, I agreed. They were so close that at school, they would partner up, And everyone thought they were dating? Even the teachers thought they were dating. That made me mad. Everytime I would confront one of them they would answer "Your just being dramatic, we are just friends its not a big deal" and that made me feel like I was in the wrong. They would cuddle and hug eachother all the time. I thought it was normal for boyfriends to flirt with there girlfriends bestfriend. So I accepted it, even though I felt like sh1t. I accepted it. Why would I do that? It got to the point where everyday I would avoid them, I wanted to leave but everytime i said i was breaking up with him or said I wanted to leave our friendship it was always "is it because of Brendon/Scarlett? your just being dramatic", I would ask Brendon "me or her?" whenever we fought, he would say "you?" and he would promise to stop talking to Scarlett, but in 2 seconds the promise was broken. I hated it. I hated that he would always be there to comfort her when she was sad but when I was sad he got mad at me for 'making Scarlett feel bad'. I wanted to off my self because of it. I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought they would say "your just being dramatic". I started zoning out and ignoring people. Soon Brendon and Scarlett starting talking about me behind my back. I knew what they were saying. It made me more insecure. Nobody knew I was upset until it turned into rage. I didn't mean to. but I snapped. Snapped like a twig. All the pent up sadness and anger. I snapped. I wish I didn't but I did. I yelled at Brendon and Scarlett, I told them how I felt, i told them that i knew what they were saying about me. But what made it worse was now I looked like a bad person, I cried all day. I loved him, I loved him alot but he didn't love me back, I wondered if he would answer the same when I ask 'me or her?'.