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Lou Yao Yao wasted her life fighting over a man, only to find out he wasn’t worth it in the end. Because of this man, she accidentally killed her rival in love, and even ruined the man who had always been watching over her.

Getting reborn as her 20 year old self, there is still time to fix everything. Lou Yao Yao decided to live as a genuine vicious woman. After getting her hands on the loyal like-a-dog man, she would show that cheating couple what pure loving affection looked like.

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Author(s) :

Ruò Míng Yì

若明翼

Year : 2012

Total Chapters: 30 Chapters + 1 Epilogue (Completed)

“Because I love you.”

The moment she heard those words, the puppet-like Lou Yaoyao completely collapsed. Tears began to fall like a broken string of pearls, unable to stop.

Across the glass, Qin Zhi felt pain as he saw the tears fall from her eyes. He placed his hand on the glass window, wanting to wipe her tears, yet it was all but futile. In the end, he said with an aching heart:

"Yaoyao, don’t cry.”

But, how could she stop the tears? Lou Yaoyao cried until she almost fainted. Separated by the glass, Qin Zhi continued to console her in a gentle voice. That voice made her think back to a time where as long as she cried and make a scene, he would drop everything, no matter what it was, and come to accompany and coax her with that same gentle voice of his.

She had been a fool to have believed that they had only had siblings affection. She had been a damn fool to have caused him take the blame for her.

“Qin Zhi, why didn’t you tell me earlier?” Lou Yaoyao asked tearfully.

Qin Zhi just smiled.

He didn’t give her an answer as she knew what the answer was. Even if he told her, it would have been useless. Because at that time she had been obsessed with Chen Hao. In her eyes, there was no one else but Chen Hao.

Having understood this, Lou Yaoyao cried more tears.

The guard urged Lou Yaoyao away as the prison visiting hour was over.

Qin Zhi called Lou Yaoyao.

Lou Yaoyao held the receiver and leaned towards the glass crying and gasping for breath. She braced herself to hear what he had to say.

“Yaoyao, I cannot be by your side to guard you anymore. You must take good care of yourself. Don’t be so willful anymore. Do you understand?”

“Yes, yes.” Lou Yaoyao nodded absentmindedly.

“Yaoyao…“

“Yes, yes.”

“Don’t marry Chen Hao. Find a man who will truly love you. When you do find him, be good to him, and live a good life, understand?”

“Yes, yes.”

Qin Zhi continued to speak endlessly. This was the first time in Lou Yaoyao’s entire life that she didn’t find his lecturing annoying. She earnestly responded, even though she didn’t hear a single word.

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The guard warned them to speed it up. Qin Zhi finally gave Lou Yaoyao a profound glance, put down the receiver, and finally got up to leave.

Lou Yaoyao suddenly stood up and started hitting the window hard, despite the guard’s warning. She pointed at the receiver.

Qin Zhi sounded an apology to the guard and, once again, picked up the receiver.

Lou Yaoyao looked at Qin Zhi through the glass. This once handsome man had always paid attention to cleanliness, but after some short months, that man was no more. He had stubble that he seemed to have missed while shaving hastily. His face had become yellowish and unusually haggard, except his eyes. His eyes were still as brilliant as they were before. It seemed like the hardships of life had not affected him. As Lou Yaoyao looked, she felt a burst of sadness. Qin Zhi opened his mouth to hurry her up. Then, Lou Yaoyao said in unswerving arrogance, “Qin Zhi, you know that I am willful and selfish, therefore indulge me once again for the last time. Wait for me okay? I’m not asking you, I’m ordering you. You wait for me, or else don’t even think about having a good life after. You know that I can make one’s life a living hell!”

She was always a vicious woman. Forcing people to do the things and never knowing how to repent, nevertheless, she was proud of it.

At the beginning, Qin Zhi had not understood what she was speaking about. When he had figured it out, Lou Yaoyao had smiled, put down the receiver, and gone out.

At first, Qin Zhi did not understand what she was saying. When he finally understood, Lou Yaoyao had smiled at him as she. He put down the receiver and walked away.

After staring blankly at nothing for quite a while, Qin Zhi finally laughed. If she wanted him to wait, then he would wait. He resigned himself to the fact that in this lifetime, his life had fallen into this woman’s hand.

Lou Yaoyao cried for a long time until both her eyes were swollen like peaches. As she walked outside, the sunlight gave her a temporary blackout of vision.

“Yaoyao.“

Chen Hao, who was waiting outside, called out to her. He threw away the cigarette butt and smiled as he walks toward her.

He wore a white shirt with a pair of white tailored trousers. His handsome and delicate face carried a faint smile. Walking in the sunlight, the golden ray behind him looked dazzling.

Lou Yaoyao opened her eyes wide to face this man, she had looked at him many times, but this was the first time she seriously looked at him, thoroughly looked.

Chen Hao reached for her hand, but Lou Yaoyao shook it off with disgust and walked straight to the side of the car.

Chen Hao’s face stiffened but quickly resumed his smiling expression. He walked to the side of the car and considerately assisted her in opening the car door.

Once Lou Yaoyao sat in, Chen Hao circled to the driver’s seat and started the car.

Lou Yaoyao looked out of the window in a daze, as Chen Hao used the side mirror to look at her expression.

Lou Yaoyao, looking impatient, turned her head, sneered and said, “Chen Hao, you must truly despise me? Right?”

“Yaoyao, what kind of nonsense are you talking about?” Chen Hao was apparently surprised at what Lou Yaoyao had said as his face filled with astonishment. He turned his head to look at her with eyes overflowing with gentle helplessness. Eyes of a man who was helpless against the willfulness of his girlfriend.

Lou Yaoyao, however, wasn’t deceived by him, so she minded her own business and said, “How can you not despise me. I killed your beloved woman and child. How can you not despise me?”

Chen Hao knitted his brows and snarled: “Lou Yaoyao, what kind of nonsense are you talking about!”

“I talk nonsense? You know what clearly happened. At the time, all three of us were there at the scene. You know how Lou Qingqing died, don’t you? The one who killed Lou Qingqing was me, not Qin Zhi.” After Lou Yaoyao said everything on her mind, she dropped another bombshell, “I’m going to turn myself in.”

She had been muddle headed before, but after crying in the prison, her mind unexpectedly became very clear. She must not let Qin Zhi take the blame for her. Qin Zhi was now 32 years old, the prime of man’s lifetime. To serve ten years in prison in this rapidly progressing era meant that when he came out, the world would be like another universe.

Although she was selfish, she would not let Qin Zhi ruin his whole life because of her. He deserved to have a much better life.

Chen Hao was shocked by what Lou Yaoyao had said and stared at her in surprise. He was in shock for quite a while. He looked earnestly at her and found that she was serious. His eyes flashed with a hint of fury, but soon put himself under control. Using a gentle voice, he said, “Yaoyao, we are going to get married next month. Don’t speak of this kind of nonsense. You and I are going to get married. Lou Qingqing and I are of no importance.”

There won’t be a wedding.” Lou Yaoyao didn’t bother paying any attention to Chen Hao’s excuses. She mockingly said: “Aren’t you happy? You will finally get rid of me!”

Chen Hao was enraged by her speech, with a look of affectionate and wounded, he said: “Lou Yaoyao, in the end, how can I convince you of my sincerity?”

Lou Yaoyao just felt disgusted to the point of wanting to throw up, just not so long ago, she had —because of an argument with Lou Qingqing— accidentally killed Lou Qingqing as well as Lou Qingqing’s unborn child with her own hand, one corpse with two lives. However now, this man was actually talk about sincerity to the killer of his own child?

Lou Yaoyao felt disgusted to the point of being nauseous. Not too long ago, she—because of an argument—had killed Lou Qingqing and Lou Qingqing’s unborn child by accident, one corpse with two lives. However, this man was seriously talking about sincerity to her, the killer of his own child?

Lou Yaoyao suddenly felt sad for Lou Qingqing. They were sisters of the same father but different mothers. They had fought over such a disgusting man for more than ten years.

Oh Lou Qingqing, if you were to look at this man now, would you crawl out of your grave?

Perhaps… Chen Hao never loved Lou Qingqing?

The more she thought, the more disgusted she was. Lou Yaoyao really didn’t want to look at this man’s face at the moment, “Stop the car!”

How could Chen Hao stop the car? He looked over at her with his face still filled with great sadness, “Yaoyao, I know that you and Qin Zhe have always had a good relationship, so good in fact that it even makes me jealous. But that does not mean you can take the blame for Qin Zhe’s crime. I love you so much. Where do you place me in your heart? Have you ever even thought about my feeling?”

Lou Yaoyao was dumbstruck. F***! She should have figured out a long ago that this man simply had a problem within his brain!

“Stop talking. You make me feel disgusted! My brain must have been flooded with water to be in love with a man like you!” Lou Yaoyao was about to burst with rage. She looked at Chen Hao with hatred, “I will say it one more time. Stop the car!”

Chen Hao, of course, would not stop the car. The fair and handsome face twisted with pain and was on the verge of tears: “Yaoyao…“

Looking at Chen Hao’s face, Lou Yaoyao completely broke down, “Please stop talking. Whenever you open your mouth to talk, I just want to throw up!”

Chen Hao seemed repulsed by the blunt remarks. Thus, he forgot his pretense and looked at her with wide eyes and a stiff face. He’d heard about Lou Yaoyao’s vicious mind and malicious speech. However, Lou Yaoyao had always been fond of him so, naturally, she would not speak to him with such foul language. Now he had just discovered that this woman had such a vulgar mouth.

Lou Yaoyao was the kind of person that when she liked you, she would hold you up to the sky, but when she hated you, this woman would lose her mind!

If she had been smart enough, she would not have had such a bitter falling-out at this time. If she had been smart enough, enough to endure patiently, she would not…

The two of them were at a deadlock. Lou Yaoyao was not in the mood to look at him. Chen Hao took a few deep breaths and managed to calm himself down with great difficulty. He turned his head to show affection when the sound of a horn and the sudden screeching of brakes were heard.

At the corner of the mountain road ahead, a heavy loaded truck crashed straight into them.

The moment the steel reinforcement bar clashed against the forehead, time stopped. Twenty seven years of Lou Yaoyao’s life flashed before her eyes. An indescribable thought crossed her mind: This is such a tragic fairy tale with an extremely weird ending. Cinderella, the heroine, was stabbed to death by her vicious stepsister and then the fickle and heartless prince was about to live a happily ever after with her vicious stepsister. Unexpectedly, the prince and the stepsister were killed in a car accident. Furthermore, they died without a corpse intact! The situation was indeed a melodramatic (dog-blood) fairy tale!

Before she closed her eyes, Lou Yaoyao thought of her unwillingness and regretted everything: Poor Qin Zhi, it seems that you will have to wait for me until the next life!

Lou Yaoyao looked in disbelief at her own unfamiliar yet familiar pair of hands.

The hands were unfamiliar because the back of her left side hand previously had a shallow scar. Although her wound had been treated promptly, the injury had been too deep and in the end, left a small scar. They were familiar because how could they not be? Regardless of the palms size, the finger’s length, or the lines of palms, they were all the same as before.

Lou Yaoyao was a little confused about the current situation. When she opened her eyes, she found herself inside a hospital ward with a slight disinfectant smell. Wasn’t she supposed to be dead? As she closed her eyes, she could see the scene of the crash. The reinforcing steel bar clashing against her forehead appear before her eyes. That kind of fear and dread she felt at that moment, she never wanted to recall.

But, if she had died, then how could she be in this hospital?

Lou Yaoyao touched her own face in fright. She sighed a breath of relief, it didn’t have any scars or any bandages on, she wasn’t disfigured. However, this absolutely didn’t make any sense.

The puzzled Lou Yaoyao sat on the bed for a while. The nurse on duty saw that she had woken up and immediately called for the doctor to come. Lou Yaoyao —still not understanding the current situation— had to cooperate with the doctor’s examination while answering the doctor’s questions.

Eight out of ten sentences the doctor said didn’t get inside her head. After determining that Lou Yaoyao was healthy, the doctor gave out the diagnosis. “Miss Lou, congratulations, you may do the procedure for discharge today. However, you have been unconscious since yesterday, I suggest that you stay in the hospital another couple days for observation.”

“Thank you.” Lou Yaoyao politely expressed her gratitude.

As soon as the doctor and the nurse walked out, Lou Yaoyao immediately rushed into the washroom, she was staying in the private ward with washroom.

Looking at her face in the mirror, Lou Yaoyao was taken aback. As she expected, this was her face, only compared to her face then, which had been poisoned with cosmetic and was extremely pale, even though this face was fair, but appeared with healthy blush, and the most important was that this face was a lot younger than her own, it seemed to be only eighteen or nineteen years old.

Lou Yaoyao’s heart was throbbing fiercely, but there was also a rise of overwhelming joy from the bottom of her heart. Although she didn’t watch television much, she knew some hit dramas with transmigration themes, there’s also drama with rebirth to childhood and go back to the past. And even in web novel nowadays, the rebirth and transmigration theme was prevalent everywhere. In that case… with her current situation, she also went back to the past?

“Yaoyao.” Didn’t know how long she had stayed, Lou Yaoyao heard a voice from the room. She quickly repressed her happiness and sadness, and left the bathroom.

After looking at the person in the room, Lou Yaoyao convinced that she must have gone back to the past, if not, how could she see Aunty Liu? Both Aunty Liu and Aunty Lu were the family’s housekeepers, they were responsible for the family’s daily life. They had been working for the family for more than ten years. However, Aunty Liu had retired to live with her successful twenty five years old son. At that time, Lou Yaoyao had been reluctant to let her go.

Aunty Liu put down the things she carried in and looked at Lou Yaoyao for a while. Seeing that Lou Yaoyao’s complexion and mental state was perfect, she breathed a sigh of relief and said, “It seems to be nothing. Yaoyao ah, haven’t Aunty told you before? Next time, by all means, don’t be so impulsive. If something terrible ever happened to you, your mama would be devastated ah!”

Listening to Aunty Liu’s attentive words, Lou Yaoyao was moved. Ever since she was a child, she was not close to her Papa, and her Mama was a workaholic, so she used to spend more time with both of the aunties. Looking back, since Aunty Liu had followed her son to move to another city, they hadn’t met for two years. Although previously she took Aunty’s concerned words as being troublesome, this time, she didn’t want to refute. Lou Yaoyao fawned as she smiled, “ I know Aunty, you don’t have to teach me.”

“It’s good for you to know.” Aunty Liu also didn’t repeat it, too far is as bad as not enough, and also their statuses were different. She took out the toiletries from the bag that she brought and waited for Lou Yaoyao to finish washing her face and brushing her teeth. Then she handed over a small thermos box to Lou Yaoyao, in it was lotus seed congee that she had cooked. Lou Yaoyao was sipping it obediently.

too far is as bad as not enough (idiom, from the Analects): too much is as bad as too little; excess is just as bad as deficiency; to overreach the mark is just as bad as not reaching it.

lotus seed congee

lotus seed congee

Aunty Liu opened up all the windows to let the air in, then went to the bathroom with the bag. After a while, she came out with a plate of cleanly washed fruits while informing Lou Yaoyao that the company had an important meeting today; therefore her Papa and Mama could only visit her after they had finished.

Lou Yaoyao looked at the busy Aunty Liu, only felt that the congee in her mouth was particularly sweet. As for the matter of her Papa and Mama hadn’t visited her, she didn’t really care. She already had been used to, hadn’t she? After hesitating for quite a while, Lou Yaoyao finally still asked: “Aunty, how could I be in the hospital?”

Looking at the current situation, she really did go back to the past, but she really didn’t remember being hospitalized at the age of eighteen or nineteen at all. Listened to what that doctor had said, she had lost consciousness for a day since yesterday. This kind of important matter, however in her memory, there wasn’t any impression at all. Furthermore, after she had awakened, beside from being hungry, she also didn’t feel any unwellness.

Since there was a question, then ask it. In any case, she really was Lou Yaoyao, she didn’t have to worry about her identity being exposed and so on.

Aunty Liu also didn’t think that something was amiss, said: “Yaoyao don’t remember? Yesterday, you were having dispute with Qingqing, fell down from the stairs and lost consciousness.”

Qingqing, that’s exactly Lou Qingqing, her older sister of the same father but different mothers. Lou Yaoyao hanged down her eyes, her heart felt somewhat complicated. She had come back to the past, in that case, this time, Lou Qingqing naturally hadn’t died.

“Oh dear, Yaoyao, are you feeling any unwellness somewhere? Does your head hurt?” Looking at Lou Yaoyao who bowed her head, Aunty Liu anxiously asked.

Lou Yaoyao quickly comforted her, and told her the result of the doctor’s examination from a moment ago while at it. Aunty Liu, only then, felt relieved. Yesterday, after Lou Yaoyao had lost her consciousness, full-body examination had immediately been done, there had been no abnormality found. Although the doctor had persuade her that it’s okay, but Aunty Liu thought that the doctor was right, it’s better to stay in hospital for observation for several days.

As soon as Lou Yaoyao finished drinking the congee, once again talked a few words, Aunty Liu told her to rest more, put the things back in. At home, there were still a pile of things needed to be done, the most important was to make lunch for Lou Yaoyao.

The ward once again returned to stillness, Lou Yaoyao walked to the side of the window and looked outside. This was the city where she grew up, yet now it seemed somewhat unfamiliar. She unconsciously touched her left wrist, to find that her wrist didn’t have anything on. That’s right, she still hadn’t worn that thing, that chain bracelet that got her and Lou Qingqing into dispute.

In her memory, the dispute with Lou Qingqing and then fell from the stairs, this time —as a matter of fact— this matter was related to Chen Hao.

She remembered that soon after, it would be Chen Hao’s birthday. She had spent some thought trying to find jewellery as a special gift. After she came back, she immediately put it on the dressing table in her room. In the end, as soon as she finished eating dessert, she went back to her room, but to find that wrapped gift box had disappeared without a trace.

Both Aunty Liu and Aunty Lu had been downstairs watching soap opera, at that time hadn’t been on the upper floor. In that case, surely it had been taken by Lou Qingqing who was upstairs. She got extremely angry and quickly went to question Lou Qingqing. Both of them were having dispute on the staircase, some kind of pushing and shoving each other, in the end, both of them fell down the stairs together.

Fortunately, to avoid any injury, the house’s staircase had all been covered with thick wool rug, both person had nothing wrong.

However, different than that first time, this time, she actually lost her consciousness. Lou Yaoyao thought that it might be because of her rebirth.

After recalling the past matter, Lou Yaoyao also knew the exact time of now, only several months ago, she just had her twentieth birthday.

Twenty years old, the already twenty seven years old her, had actually gone back to twenty years old.

She didn’t know whether she should be happy or sad, being rebirth, before everything had happened, being rebirth, she could no longer see Qin Zhi any more, that Qin Zhi who was willing to take the blame for her…

As the matter of fact, she was also stupid. At that time, she shouldn’t have a bitter falling-out with Chen Hao at such time. However she had accumulate several months of guilt feeling, that sense of guilt led to inadequate rest, thus she had been on the verge of breaking down. She, herself, hadn’t known what she was talking about at all. Although she hadn’t been stupid enough to grab the steering wheel from Chen Hao, yet she had made Chen Hao distracted from driving the car, to the extent that the car crash had happened.

They said that the woman in love had a decrease in IQ. Lou Yaoyao found that after she was no longer infatuated with Chen Hao, her mind unexpectedly became a lot more brighter.

However, she should be grateful to Chen Hao, If not because of Chen Hao, she also wouldn’t go back to her twenty years old.

Only, after many sadness, she had come back, what about Qin Zhi? Would he continue to take the blame for her? She had said, demanded that he wait for her.

She didn’t expect that her thought before facing death would actually came true. She had thought then, Qin Zhi might have to wait for her until the next life, and now, look, was this not exactly the next life?

Lou Yaoyao, for a moment, didn’t know what should she do… Did she love Qin Zhi? She was also unclear, she had been fighting with Lou Qingqing over Chen Hao for more than ten years. In the end, after looking clearly at how he had conducted himself, her heart just felt disgusted, didn’t feel any sadness at all. But on the contrary, looking at how Qin Zhi had been suffering on her behalf, her heart ached that she almost wanted to die. Therefore, she actually did love Qin Zhi, right?

To think carefully, she didn’t remember deeply about her emotion at that time toward Chen Hao, but on the contrary, she remembered very clearly about her fight with Lou Qingqing very clear. In the end, did she love Chen Hao, or did she merely want to compete with Lou Qingqing? That was no longer important.

Being rebirth, everything had been reshuffled, all those tragedies still hadn’t happened, there’s still time to change.

She would not once again wasted all of her youth for Chen Hao —that slag man, also would not once again be incited by Lou Qingqing and accidentally killed Lou Qingqing, and even more would not let Qin Zhi took the blame for her.

Lou Yaoyao also thought about the words that Qin Zhi had said, he said that he loved her…

At that time, although she felt grieved and sad, her heart yet felt slightly happy. However did the current Qin Zhi truly loved her?

If did not love then?

Lou Yaoyao suddenly wanted to make a telephone call to ask about this matter in detail. However, holding a cellphone, she didn’t dare to press the button for quite a while, the cellphone had several missed calls and a couple text messages, all were sent out from yesterday and this morning by Qin Zhi. Lou Yaoyao opened the last one: Yaoyao, I will be back tomorrow, what kind of present do you want?

That’s right, this time, he was on business trip abroad. In the past, everytime Qin Zhi had gone on business trip, she would have asked for a great pile of gifts. He had never broken his promise. As long as she asked for, he would buy for her.

Qin Zhi treated her very good, had always been very good.

Therefore, she didn’t know at all, when he had fell in love with her.

The difference of age between them was five years, both of them had grown up together as childhood sweetheart. For her, Qin Zhi had been no more than like a blood related older brother. These years, he had been taking care of her in every possible way, a lot of more care compared to her parents. Many years of habit let her to never think about their relationship could be more. Occasionally, someone would envily praised her for having this “good older brother”. After being pleased with herself, she would soon forget.

Their pattern of getting along had never seemed to change. In that case, was she allowed to believe that at this time, Qin Zhi also had feeling toward her?

Even if there was no feeling, she would also let him fall in love with her! He must take responsibility for the words that he had said! Even if everything still hadn’t happened!

Lou Yaoyao stayed happy and sad at the same time for quite a while, until finally made a tyrannical decision. Anyway, wasn’t she a very selfish person? She didn’t dare to make a telephone call, afraid that she would be found abnormal. After hesitating for quite a while, she sent a text message.

I’ll be waiting for you to come back ——Yaoyao.