He was mine, well at least I thought he was . I wanted him , but he was never mine to begin with. He was hers. I was nothing to him. I watched him endlessly thinking he will notice me. I can’t stand but watch him from afar, knowing I can’t be by his side. I cried knowing I can’t be next to him. Why? Well because she’s there . His girlfriend . I still like him even if he has a girlfriend. I know it’s wrong but I can’t help but love him. My greed is telling me he’s mine . How I deserve him and she doesn’t . I deserve him not she . Why couldn’t it be me, I couldn’t face the truth . I can’t help but like and be greedy. He’s mine in my eyes. I’m the one standing next to him. Not her. I deserve him. Well I did some moving on. Well tried at least , but I can’t help but look back at him. He always catches my eye. My friends say I shouldn’t but I can’t help it. He’s the only one I have eyes for . I tried to forget about him , whenever I do I have sleepless nights. Just like a few weeks ago. I tried to forget but I couldn’t sleep just staring at celling wondering how things would be if I was her. I wish upon the gods for him to be mine . All the love and care I gave for him. The moments whenever I saw him. He would stand out . He was there…. .

I needed him, my desperation for him. I tried to ignore the fact he has a girlfriend and that he would be mine so soon. 2 months have passed I couldn’t stop. I decided to avoid him . Whenever I saw him I would turn or go the opposite way . Even if I did that I still looked back hoping he was looking for me. He wasn’t . He was looking at her . Just how I was looking at him from afar . I decided enough is enough and decided to the better change . I got sleep most nights . Some I would write plots in my head thinking what would happen if he and I were together . I was healing from the one sided love . Or maybe so I thought . I met this guy , he was really funny but I didn’t know if my feelings were still there for my one sided love . So I decided to test it . I talked to the guy , my friend had introduced . I didn’t think much of him, he was cute but not as far as my one sided . I didn’t know how to feel. I felt miserable chasing after someone who couldn’t love me back. After one month, me and my “rebound” started to talk . As in talk I mean the talking stage . It lasted for another month or so I can’t remember but it was quick , time flies by fast. Soon I caught myself looking at “rebound” even if “one sided” was infront of me . I know I know this going by too quick . Who can stop my feelings ? Zeus ? I can’t help but fall in love deeper .

I fell hard .

He seemed in love with me too.

Will never know what’s coming , who’s staying and what’s going . Take the rollercoaster to find out . Who knows ? Let’s see when I get hurt ? I’ll cope when I know who’s staying . I want to get rid of them all . He’s mine , just mine no one else’s.

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...oh ! well cya soon ....