Now I want you to imagine yourself in this castle full of happy people champagne and wine filling the room everyone celebrating the birth of the princess what could possibly go wrong wellll let's go 16 years into the future Hi my name is chaos and this is my life grew up in a family bursting with love so obviously I should be but where did it all go wrong when you look at me you see a picture perfect girl but what really goes on in my head now that's the tricky part I grew up very scared of horror movies but now my mind is like a horror show. Before 16 I was living in this world where I thought that fantasy was actually my reality well that was until I met people they helped to open my eyes to the ugly truth of life you know we all had a time in our lives when we believed that dreams were meant to be followed but now doing that is like chasing after the moon and expecting to catch it.

The worse part is the fact that the biggest dream killers in my life were my parents now that brings me to the question where did it all go wrong? well I actually discovered the most beautiful thing I could ever discover the ability to close your eyes and create your own world now you might think that my world is full of butterflies and ponies sorry to disappoint you it's full of heartbreak broken dreams and sometimes broken bones it might sound like Hades to you but it's actually my Paradise. My Paradise is actually the best reality for me I happen to be someone who prefers to see the worse possible outcome of things because there is no other outcome for me. They think they raised the perfect daughter heck everyone thinks so but the fact is that they know nothing about me they think that everything is under control because that is the illusion I choose to give them miserable life by day perfect life by night by night I mean anytime I sleep which is practically most of the time. Why do people even exist have you ever asked yourself this question have you ever wished that everyone will just disappear or at least you will just disappear well I know I have there was a time when I was actually considering disappearing, I was like maybe if something bad happens to me like you know if I cross to the other side they will finally notice that the picture perfect life they chose to believe was all a lie maybe they'll finally care I was at the edge of doing this when I met catastrophe the guy of my dreams now don't get me wrong he doesn't really exist he is the man of my dreams like literally in my dreams that was when life started to take a different turn enough take about me let me introduce you to the main character of this story.

WELCOME TO MY WORLD

You must think that this is what my Paradise looks like

well guess again

now that's more like it see, I told you my mind was a horror show but this is just a part of it I have different fantasies for different nights and moods but for now let's focus on the“Scaaary part”uuh I'm shivering already are you too well if you're a thrill seeker this will be a piece of cake for you. Let's get into it.

The main character in this section is obviously not me I'm just the narrator. Her name is Kaya and just like me she is sad, depressed and lonely but the difference is that ....hey can you stop making everything about yourself and just tell my story. Sorry I was Abit sidetracked there. She might be a sad girl but she is a good one well for now,no spoilers. She is very attractive but is too insecure to believe it she is like the most contrasted and undeciding person ever. She calls herself an anti romantic but at the same time a hopeless romantic is in love with the idea of love but at the same time hates it, you see she grew up in a family where emotions were considered a sign of weakness and cheesy (just like me) forget that I said that so she prefers to watch horror movies but does a lot of weird romantic stuff in her mind don't ask me about it ask her I don't know the details anyways she grew to find psychos and wackos interesting and intriguing heck she even aspired to be one but I can understand where she's coming from its like her defense mechanism to not show emotions because people will take advantage of the slightest opportunity they get to hurt people so she fell so deep in love with the concept that she began to act like one but of course it was all for show when it comes to the real thing she just shrinks I mean this is someone who dreams of ki.....oh no I've said too much this is someone who was given her first major job to kill a chicken and she couldn't which was an obvious disgrace to her family like she's in a family of serial chicken killers and she can't even take on the family business I guess the quest for approval drove her from her fantasy land of love to that of horror and of course her need to get revenge on all those that made her life that miserable you could say that this was the actual driving force so what actually changes a person from good girl to crazed cat I know I've told you already but there must have been something that pushed her to the extreme, I guess we'll never know. So what did dear Kaya do you know the saying if you want to go big start small you know there's no saying like that why you lying well I don't really know how the saying goes you know what I'm to say but instead of Kaya to start small you know with a chicken she started with a ...wait for it a turkey what were you expecting to hear a person ha she didn't quite get to that stage well not until stupid Sherri decided to prank our aspiring wacko. You see Sherri is like Kaya's archival and one of the key factors that contributed to this new found lovable side of Kaya.

So stupid Sherri had the bright idea of giving Kaya a blood bath for Halloween but as the saying goes “he who has the last laugh it shall be his last"now don't come at me for that you also don't know the saying I would say that this opened a new instinct in Kaya's brain one for killing. Now I want you to imagine this you're deep in the forest your phone is dead you can hear sound but you don't know where it's coming from or where you are going this is how Sherri must have felt right,Kaya was just having fun watching her suffer just so you know Kaya decided to sing haunting songs in the forest but the fun ended when Sherri stopped shrieking and the singing continued all she saw was a lifeless Sherri with her sockets pulled out and a stick sticking out of her stomach get it sticking out okay I know I'm not funny moving on it seems that someone just took away Kaya's trophy then it dawned on her“was I actually gonna kill her I couldn't have or could I or did I there was no one else I was watching the whole time the singing continued but this time it wasn't her then she began to panic and then the natural instinct is to run but the farther she ran the closer she came to the song and then the footsteps increased and then she felt something staring deep into her soul she felt it piercing and piercing and her heart kept on beating louder and louder and louder and louder and louder and louder wait why is your heart beating do you feel it too?

Guess what it was all in her head I can't believe you fell for it you never really changed yes you I'm talking to you you only fantasized about it but never actualised it.Were you expecting horror nah I'm sorry I only said it so that you'll read this besides wasn't that scary my weak heart couldn't take it and it gave out come on I wanna see comments like that encourage me, I'm just kidding.

The things that go on in our minds are enough to give us all the thrill we will need in this life like me personally horror movies have turned to comedy shows because the horrors I cook up in my head are unimaginable.. well imaginable you know because I imagine them,sorry Kaya I made it about me again.

Remember how I told you that my fantasies are kind of in sections well welcome to the love section uuh now this is where things get juicy just a warning if you're someone who finds love cheesy and is anti romantic then you'll probably barf through out the story. Okay let's get started the main character here is obviously not Kaya well because you know she's got an anti romantic romantic thing going on unlike the person I want to introduce to you who is full on delusional everyone,meet Diana. Now you see on the outside she looks like this calm collected normal person but on the inside she's all types of love crazy, she is sort of like a hopeless romantic yeah in reality but not in her mind because once the lights go off her life officially begins. Enough with all this boring talk let's get into her head. Long wavy hair, bright honey eyes, perfect shape and perfect height now this is how Diana prefers to imagine herself. There he is he's right there she would always say looking at her potential husband on the TV, you could say that it's fate or all that nonsense we see on TV but she actually met her dream man by coincidence without even knowing that he was the one, you know that celebrities always disguise themselves in public but still how could you not recognize him I mean he's your idol anyways he didn't even look in her direction or know she existed which was kind of for the best but guess what they met again.

You see she has this Oasis that she comes to to relax and clear her mind. Just envision this golden grass field with a lot of hills and the sun setting on it she would always go there to paint I may not have told you this earlier but she is an artistic soul and she takes every opportunity to appreciate beauty. Her dream man also happens to be a hopeless romantic and an artistic soul my guess is that she fell in love with him because she feels that he'll understand her better but things are not always as they seem. They met in the field but this time she actually recognized his voice but decided to pretend to not know him“it must be hard having people stare at you and suffocate you all day"she said. Suprisingly she had a decent conversation with him now y'all must be thinking aww she's so sweet well calm your horses that conversation only took her delusion to the next level. You see when she would dream of him it would just be two artistic souls living their lives to the fullest but now we're getting a not so innocent side why don't we have a sneak peek of what she's fantasizing about tonight.

There we are in the fieldtalking and laughing and then we continue to meet up by “coincidence"and then my biggest fantasy becomes a reality he fell for me yeah let's go with that scenario he tells everyone about us some are happy and of course there are some that aren't. He asked me to move in with him which of course I did you know most girls are in love with the idea of a man who can take control or has a bad boy feel that's why most of you are single because the only guys you'll go for are the ones in your fantasies. I told him that I would protect him and not let anything happen to him because before that time I had placed martial arts in anticipation of my delusion coming true I would always keep him safe and..pause hold on now that's not right we didn't pay to see this boring story show us the juice,oh yeah I'm sorry wrong scenario why don't we go with this instead we meet in the field he falls in love with this rather shy and innocent looking girl he looks innocent himself but this is where things get interesting “youre mine"he would always whisper in my ears ”baby,call me daddy I'm the only one who can touch you or hold you,no one else"this makes my weak heart fumble everytime. I want you to imagine this now we're in the room watching a movie he suddenly starts staring at me “do you want some popcorn"I said “no I want something else"what “you" I mean I fantasized about it a lot but I never thought of actually doing it my heart was racing I tried to escape from the bed by he pulled my leg and drew me closer I could feel his legs between mine I was scared he pinned me down and said “dont be scared I'm not gonna hurt you"you know what was going on in my mind “like hell you will you think I don't watch movies hell no" I tried as much as I could to get out of his grip, he kissed my neck and was proceeding down oh no you don't mister I don't know when it came out “you can't do it with me if we are not married"he paused it was funny because I wanted it but at the same time didn't want to go against my morals “ill marry you right now and if you're scared that it's gonna hurt don't worry I'll be gen....eh what em skip why don't we just skip to the part where you find out that all this never really happened yep I just found out myself after waking up just now but that doesn't mean that I'll stop I might just continue it on... narrator here I'm sorry I had to cut you off Diana but first of all I just want to say ewwwww I was barfing the whole time how do you deal with all that love emotional shit we really are different aren't we an anti romantic like me can never understand this cheesy thing called love, eh I need to barf the cringe out of my body excuse me one moment.