It was summer that time when I first met Dion Ray Villamor. He's the son of the most wealthy business man, uncle Dan father's friend. It was his mother's funeral, I'm amazed by his braveness no tears nor any mark of sadness on his face, only a cold facial expression was shown. Everybody said that how can a child never shown a tears on his mother's funeral... But the next thing they said is he a monster? I'm speechless how can say that to a 8 year old boy? Who just lost his mother? But when my eye tried to look on Dion he disappeared. Maybe he can't take it anymore the gaze and whispered about him. I walked around and accidentally saw dion behind the big rocks I walk towards him but I stop when I saw him shedding tears silently...

is he just holding himself back?

Things that came up of my mind. I suddenly came back to my senses when I heard him.

Why? why does you need to leave me mother? what's worse why do you need me to act like I don't care? I hate it.

huh?

You're not the one supposed to be lying in there, just why??!!! Why does father need to betrayed you? And destroyed our family? Things become like this because of an outsider am I right mother?

Why do I need to hear this? It should be private. I just walked away and pretend I didn't hear anything, that's it.

who's there?! Huh?

that's we're our eyes met

I'm sorry I pretend I didn't hear anything, and you pretend that you don't see me bye.

Wait! You stay! How dare you eardrops and pretend I didn't see you!

Hayst do he really need to pretend to be brave when his tears are falling, ok I think he need some comfort.

I'm shan Eridian Shan Fuentes I'm the daughter of your father's friend and I apologize for ears dropping I didn't mean to. And I'm sorry for saying this but don't let others control you even if they are your parents. You do everything you want even crying you can do that because it's your own body your the one who controls it. it's normal to be weak your just a kid after all. Bye Dion

I left him and he didn't say anything but suddenly but I was shocked when he said loudly shan right? i will remember what you said, we will meet again

Smile

Sure.

That was our first encounter. I don't think he met what he said maybe he just got by his emotion. But I was happy to see his not holding himself back I see him from a distance crying and acting like a child well that's how a kid should act... But still

An outsider huh? Really that's a normal thing in a big family... But why are you not used to it?

My family the one they called “perfect” was just a picture in a frame. They don't even know what's happening inside our house when nobody wasn't around...

You bastard! You slept with another woman again?! When are you gonna stop doing such a disgrace thing?! Aren't you even tired?! I always fix the mess you did!

Can you stop nagging me?!

Why would I stop when your doing things again and again that can ruin our image?!

Your so annoying stop saying anything! Ha! just do your job as my wife and get rid of my mistress isn't that the thing you always do?

You shameless bastard!

Mom... Why you always let dad do what he wants? Why don't you get tired even though he cheats you all the time? Just why mom? Ah? She noticed me.

Shan? My daughter why are you in there? Go to your room it's nothing baby.

She gave me a sweet smile

Mom?? Can I asked you?

Later shan I just need to talk to someone just

a moment ok? Wait me on your room.

yes...(your gonna talk to that man again you will get rid of that woman aren't you? Your always like that)

Shan's room.

Shan?

Mom.

What do you want to talk?

Did father sleep with another woman again?

Oh shan did you hear that? that's nothing to worry about. You see mommy's gonna handle it.

Are you...are you ok with that?

She look at me like I asked something that shouldn't be asked

You know shan when your adult and got on my position but I wish your not you will accept it even if you don't want to. Because your life will be depend on your husband.You have to eat the shame and look to the future no matter how painful it is but you know? In the end no mistress will be left behind because in the end you are the legal wife who had the bow of of eternity and them? they are just toys that your husband will get tired playing on. In the end those mistress will be get rid by your own husband.

So? If I was in your position are you telling me to make it normalize?

She look at me weirdly...

Yes. If there's nothing else I should go now. You should sleep now shan.

Okay. Goodnight mother.

Goodnight sweety. don't worry I won't let any woman snatch our position in this household.

Don't worry mother even I, I won't let anyone take your place.

Aww such a sweet child I think you didn't not take after your Bastard father, I'm so proud of that.

Your the one I like the most mom

She smiled. I really like mom smiling at me even what she said something so hard to understand, Mom I know even if you didn't say it. It hurts you a lot every day that father slept with another woman. You cried on your room everyday, Telling why all this thing happened to you. I feel so guilty that I don't have the strength to comfort you. Rest assured I will build my own strength so no one can snatch our place.

That's what I think that time but god seems playing on me.

Let me introduce to you my daughter Lilian.

what???

Dad? Didn't I hear it wrong?

Shan let me introduce to you your sister lilian mary. You two are the same age

That's when my world fall apart.

H-huh? Dad you have a hidden daughter with another woman all this time? And your telling me we are in the same age?

Lucion Adrill Fuentes! How can you do this to me? And your daughter?! Are you not ashamed at all!

Can you fcking shut up and let me explain!

I can't control myself that time that I run away.

Shan!!!

Them screaming my name but I don't care anymore. Just why? Why all this things happening to me? Am I a bad girl?

It's still refresh on my mind even though that's what happened ago on my 5th bday.

A five year old child who can't accept the fact that her father had another daughter with another woman, The reason why her mother got into accident but maybe lord was still good on me he gives mother a chance to live for me. I hate my father how I wish for him to disappear with his bastard daughter.

Back to present

His child had been living with us and treating like a fine lady, ha! What a lucky. Everyday I always wonder how she can sleep soundly while destroying someone else family. But I can't put all the blame on her, it's her mother's fault for being a ****.

My lady

Ah? Yes

The master said we're going home.

Okay, by the way where's Lilian?

She's on the car already she's feeling unwell that's why master decide to go home.

What a bother

I will sit on the other car

B-but

I feel sick too I want to be alone

I don't want to sit with that father and daughter, they're so disgusting.

Well... Sure I will prepare it immediately.

Shan the butler said your feeling sick, are you okay?

The mister shouldn't not need to worry.

Since that thing happened I stop calling him father.

But...

I walk towards the car that just arrived

Let's go

Yes miss

Do your best to regret, Father.

The Fuentes mansion

Merlyn

M-miss

Is my mother upstair?

Yes but miss she doesn't want to eat again.

Ha? Why?

I don't know she's just staring blankly in the windows

Yes that's right after my mother got into accident, she totally lost herself. She doesn't recognize anyone anymore, even me.

Mom? What are you starting at?

...

The maid said you didn't not eat your lunch again.

...

Mom do you remember? When you said things like this we should normalized it? But mom, you know it's hurt me to see you like this. I can't forgive father. And the fact that all this time you're lying on yourself that everything was nothing on you. You know I'm just 8 years old to experience something like this, I wish you comeback to your senses.

Just then a tear's fall from my mother's eye.

Merlyn, feed my mother, I'll go to my room I'm tired.

Yes miss