*TRIGGER WARNING⚠ Suicide attempt and miscarriage*

My boyfriend and I broke up 5 years ago. We were on a long distance relationship

Of course I was very hurt, I was very upset because he cheated on me for someone that he said he would never ever like

I was devastated, Upset that he left me to be with someone new, closer to him to be precise. I fell into a deep depression, I felt like the world is against me so i developed bad drinking habit. I would go to a bar almost everyday drinking my pain away.

I always felt sick whenever i go drinking. there's this burning sensation in my stomach but i would always ignore it not paying any attention to it, i just kept drinking and drinking because that's my way to numb the pain I feel. One day I got so sick that I had to go to the hospital, That's when I discovered that I was pregnant.

Depression got the better of me, I keep rethinking every little bad things that happened to me. I want to continue living but at the same time i don't, I was having a hard time coping to everything that is happening. So I chose the easy way, I attempted suicide.

luckily my aunt found me in time, they rushed me to the hospital and I recovered. But i lost my child on the process

I cried every single night wishing to have my child back, I regretted it for several years. Every day I apologize to my baby that I didn't even get to see.

After 5 years I have moved on from everything, I traveled alone. Of course I also wished to have someone by my side, someone who is willing to stay and not leave me.

During one of my trips I went to an amusement park to clear my head it was my baby's death anniversary September 22, 20**, the ticket I took was the ride-all you can

I started with children's rides because I was a little scared, the experience was okay. I'm ready for the scary and dizzy rides

Of course I got in line, when it was my turn I was told I couldn't ride. I tried other rides but i was told the same thing "i couldn't", I was told there is a height requirement, and i was a little short so i just look for other rides.

i was getting bored because I stood in line and then they would tell me i couldn't, I tried again at another one and they said it wasn't possible, at that time i was getting annoyed "Why not?!" I asked hostilely. He replied that it is not possible for a child, only adults are allowed to ride. I replied that "I'm an adult even if I show my ID", then he laughed at me

I got irritated with him, i was about to say something when i notice other people were looking at me. so I just left because I didn't want to cause a scene

While i was sitting on a nearby bench cooling my head. I notice there was a guard near the bench where I was sitting so I talked to him, I asked what are the rules to be able to ride the adult one's because they wouldn't let me ride.

The guard informed me by saying "It's really not possible even if you're an adult ma'am because you have a child with you. Is he 5 years old ma'am?, he's as big as my son".

I was surprised by what the guard said because....

I don't have any child with me.

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And you guys made it to the very end of the story😁

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This is my first story EVER😆...and im proud of this accomplishment of mine....

Even if it sucks😗

Thank you guys for reading this story i hope you enjoy it..... Have a great day

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