I'm in love with my bestfriend. Yes, common to everyone right falling in love with their bestfriend. I'm... a guy and I'm gay. I'm in love with Park Kihyun my bestfriend of 10 years but I keep my feelings to myself because he might think I'm not normal and I don't want to ruin our friendship because of it. So I keep it to myself , Park Kihyun is really attractive he's tall and buff , he's such a gentleman and he's really kind while I'm very quiet, cold, introverted and weird. Comparing myself to him he gets all the girl's attention sometimes I get jealous about it but whatever it's not like he'll notice my feelings and he can never find out. *ding ding* "Oh, Kihyun texted"

Park Kihyun

Hey hey loser🤪Wanna get lunch together? It's a Sunday after all

Lunch sounds great, I havent eaten yet either I'm starving

Me

Sure, where?

Park Kihyun

The usual place

I got dressed and headed out. When I got there Kihyun was already waiting, I took a deep breath and let go "You can do this Kim Jaehyun!" I walked in and Kihyun waved his hand indicating the seat, I walked towards the seat and noticed someone with him "Hey Jaehyun!" Kihyun spoke first before I could say anything "H-hey Kihyun" I looked to the side and greeted them and introduced myself "Hey! I'm Jaehyun!" "A-ah hello, my name is Ji-yeon" I smiled, Kihyun told me to sit and I did before I could do anything "Jaehyun, this is my girlfriend!" Girlfriend? My heart shattered into pieces. Girlfriend. He didn't tell me he was planning to bring his girlfriend along. This is awkward, my feelings are mixed around I feel sad, upset,angry and devastated but I just kept smiling in order to hide my feelings. The whole time was just Kihyun speaking to his girlfriend and me just sitting there playing my phone. "Hey let's go to the mall! It's been a while since I've seen Jaehyun anyways" I just nodded and followed them. From behind. I was just so sad I'm not sure what to feel. When we got to the mall Ji-yeon went inside to look for handbags while we stayed outside. "You okay Jaehyun? You seem off today" Kihyun asked but his voice sounded more concerned "Yeah I'm good. Say, Kihyun you mind me going home I don't feel so good" It was just an exucuse to leave. "But we just got here. Are you feeling feverish? You want us to bring you home?" I just wanted to leave and cry myself in bed. "No no it's okay! I'll be fine don't worry okay? Tell Ji-yeon it was nice to meet her and sorry for hanging out in such a short time" I feel the tears in my eyes already. "Sure. Take care okay? Make sure to call me once you get home" "Ok" I walked away and as soon as I'm out of his sight I ran and bawled my eyes out, I wasn't sick dumbass you just broke my heart. As I got home, I didn't bother calling him at all I laid in bed and cry until I felt no pain. After 2 hours pass by I was still crying but soon after I was exhausted, I went to the kitchen to grab water when my phone rang. I sighed and pick it up to see it was Kihyun.

"WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU OKAY? I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO CALL ME ONCE YOU GET HOME. IT HAS BEEN 2 HOURS I THOUGHT YOU MIGHT HAVE FAINTED OR SOME SORT"

"Dude, Kihyun I'm fine I was just exhausted when I got home and took a nap after I forgot to call you I just felt so tired"

"Do you have a flu? Fever? Cough? Let me come over and check up on you"

"KIHYUN HAHA I said I was fine it's okay I can take perfectly good care of myself man. I'll see you in campus so don't worry"

"If you say so, don't worry me like that ever again"

"I won't"

I hung up. He didn't even said goodbye yet. I was just. Tired. I need time to process and and accept this. After I cool down a little I decided to call Jung Hyesung. He's my classmate in campus I just needed someone to talk to.

*calling Jung Hyesung*

"Hey Jaehyun! What's up!

"Hey Hyesung! Wanna hang out tonight?"

"Did you cry? What happened? Are you okay?

"How did he know that?!"

"I didn't! Hahaha I just had a flu"

"Hmm, okay. Let's hang tonight but make sure you're feeling okay. I'm worried about you"

Hyesung told me he liked me last month. I didn't say a word about it neither did I reject him. I needed time to think about it but now I think it's time to talk about it during dinner.

I got to the restaurant that we planned to eat dinner at and I saw Hyesung sitting near the glass window. I walked up to him and said hi "Hey Hyesung" he looked up and was cheerful as he saw me "Hey Jaehyun!" I took my seat and ordered my food. The food came and we ate after we ate I brought up his confession as he was drinking "So Hyesung, about your confession. I like you too" "AHCK AHCK WHAT????" he chocked on his drink and panicked. Looking at him pancking and all I giggled and shushed him "Hey shush! Everyone can hear you!" I chuckled "Jaehyun! Are you for real?! JAEHYUN T.T" I panicked too and took my handkerchief in my pocket and handed it to him "Don't cry!!!" looking at him makes me feel so happy so I laughed at him "Jaehyun d-don't laug- at meh" I countinued laughing for a few second before I could calm down "I won't I won't" I chuckled "I like you Jung Hyesung!" Hyesung smiled so brightly and it made my heart warm. "Jaehyun... I like you too" I smiled "I know dummy"

After the dinner I got home and I really did feel happy but.. I don't even like Hyesung.. I sighed again. "I guess I was too desperate and I stupidly said I like him too" I was aware that I seemed desperate because I was emotional that Kihyun has a lover. Either way, now that I told Hyesung I like him too I have to find a way to truly like Hyesung. He isn't bad at all. But I never thought of liking Hyesung. Whatever, my main focus now is Hyesung.

After months of talking, Hyesung and I now are officially dating. We talked and went on dates, but I have been avoiding Kihyun, he texted me but I ignored it he kept texting and calling me but I ignored it. I only answered once and the conversation was pretty short cause I told him I was busy. I feel bad ignoring him but I just needed time.

A few months went by I woke up a little late for class I rushed everything. I showered for 5 minutes, brushed my teeth while dressing up. That was how late I was. I ran and drove as fast as I could. When I got to campus I was on time and I ran to class. I opened the door quietly and saw Kihyun sitting with Ji-yeon, I didn't really wanna sit with Kihyun at this time. I looked around and saw Hyesung I quickly walked towarsa Hyesung and took the seat beside him. "Hey babe" Hyesung turned to look at me and was startled and got shy. As I sat down he looked at me and smiled "Hey, I didn't know that you're in the same class" I giggled "I didn't know either babe" His face became red and I pinched his cheeks and called him cute he giggled and told me I was being cheeky

*ding*

Park Kihyun

Hey, who's that guy you're sitting with?

Me

Oh, he's a friend hehe, sorry for not sitting with you ;^p *blep* I'll sit with you tomorrow kay' ? °3°

Park Kihyun

:^p sure loser, how's your flu?

Me

Got a little better. Anyways Park Kihyun. Focus >:^/ it's class

Park Kihyun

hahahahah whatever have lunch with us

Me

ok loser.

I don't wanna have lunch with them ugh but I guess having Hyesung by my side will make me feel better

"Hey babe, wanna have lunch with my and my friend?" "Yeah, sure!" Honestly calling Hyesung babe... I guess I'm the top here huh? I wanna find out who's the top between us though. "Hey, wanna come over after class and watch some movies?" He brigthen up "Yeah, sure" After class is over we headed over to the canteen for lunch. While we were walking I told Hyesung "Babe... I think It's time to tell my bestfriend." "But what if they don't support it??" "Support or not, you by my side only matter." After walking a while we saw Ji-yeon and Kihyun sitting at the third table I just sighed inside. We walked over and Kihyun seemed a little off when Hyesung was with me. "Guys, meet Hyesung. Hyesung guys. AHAHA kidding. This is Kihyun my bestfriend and this is Ji-yeon his girlfriend" "Uh hi guys" Ji-yeon smiled "Your new friend Jaehyun?" When Hyesung wanted to answer I cut him off "No, actually we're dating." Everyone stayed silence for a while then Hyesung spoke up "We decided to tell Jaehyun's close friends haha..." The shock on Kihyun face was real, he didn't seem disgusted but he just looked shocked. Ji-yeon smiled so brightly and congratulate us "Hey!!! Congrats Jaehyun and Hyesung!! I kinda knew when I saw you pinch his cheeks ;) " I just laughed it off and teased Ji-yeon "Hey!!! Why were you looking ',:)" Ji-yeon got shy and denyed it. Hyesung and Ji-yeon seem to get along well I was happy to see that but Kihyun doesn't seem too happy. "Jaehyun, Can we talk for a second?" Oh no I don't know what to feel. My heart sank and I stood up and walk out to the rooftop with him. "Jaehyun, Since when? How? Is this why you have been avoiding me?" I didn't wanna answer it.. "Its been