The sound of a cell phone alarm clock rang across the room, this being the only sound that would force my eyes open every morning.

However, today is more special than any other day. There is no need to run out of bed, wash your face, brush your teeth to run out and squeeze together with the people on the electric train. Today is Sunday and I don't have to work late, but I shouldn't sleep anymore

There is a place I need to go and my significant other will be waiting. Apparently, the most important thing now could be paying the rent for the room. The aunt, who owned the tower, left a checkbook with my name under the door.

"Botkawee, room 3¹¹."

There was only one Botkawee in the entire tower. My real name is derived from kawi (ka-wi) which are nicknames that have the same meaning.

I don't know where the inspiration for my name came from when I gave birth. Also, in the past, friends who were trying to guess why the inspiration used to make fun of this peculiar nickname all the time. But it's funny that I didn't want to change it once, I mean, it's been with me for thirty years.

What does a man in his thirties need? This is what I often ask myself. According to online social forums, I don't know much about other people, but I take my life as a priority.

First, I'm still single, and second, I definitely don't have enough shit to start a family with someone anytime soon.

(From: Welcome to adult life...horror. xD) Better to live in the present, now. I started by taking a shower and brushing my teeth before heading out front to ⁷Eleven. I bought three-foot-long cheese and red pork sausage to satisfy my hunger. Nearby, a famous chicken rice restaurant is open, so I never miss to go and order a special box to eat in the room again as usual. Now he just had to wait.

It's true that I woke up at ten, and the place I'm supposed to go to is scheduled at 6 pm, actually... I don't know how to make time go faster!

At four o'clock I opened the closet. I took the gray suit that I had just rented two days ago and put it on. Then check the neatness of my face and hairstyle.

Kawee: "You are handsome..."

After taking a good look at myself, I didn't wait any longer. I immediately grabbed my old wallet and beat-up cell phone and left the room.

She had plans to visit an important person in a luxury hotel, but before she got there, she still had to prepare flowers for her.

To be honest I don't know much about flower shop so I had to trust Google like always, it says there is a flower shop about a kilometer from here so I should turn left into the alley and I'll see a shop on the far right.

Google Maps says that. Without hesitation, both my feet began to walk down the path.

Although the work schedule is not very clear, I had to keep up with the important events that I had firmly planted in my heart. Taking into account the direction where I was going, I still had to take the subway and make a 6 stop and from there take a motorcycle to reach the hotel once more.

(From: Google making an appearance once again, this is from Bai Zongy's team) Well, we'll talk about that one more time, I think I should focus now on the flower shop.

Kawee: "Go straight for three hundred meters." My eyes stared at the map on my mobile phone, muttering excitedly. “A little further on you can find Sweet garden ”.

Reviews page , it says that no store has as beautiful a bouquet of flowers as this place. Also, the price for something cute and attractive is suitable for people with low expenses like me.

“Fifty meters more… ten meters more… go straight…”

My cell phone screen alerted me that I had reached my destination. " Here!"

I could only turn around while looking at the atmosphere around me, it didn't take me more than a moment to realize that I was in the place thanks to the sign that towered above my head, 'Sweet Garden' had finally arrived, but … '

Closed for today.

The owner and his crew went to see Avengers .

So they refrain from spoiling customers!!'

(From: I understand them, Marvel is a priority in my home xD)

What a pity!!

I understand that Avengers is the new movie that is showing recently.

Damn. Do I have to waste time looking for a new store again? Or will it be okay to arrive without flowers? Right now I think I'm on the verge of as I find myself debating whether to find another store or just skip this and move on to the next important point.

I am facing a crisis when my eyes focus on a small wooden sign with faded letters on the opposite side. It was an old place that seemed to be completely desolate, but since it had the word florist written on it, I didn't hesitate and went in first.

Ding~ Dong~

Pushing the rotten wooden door rang a bell hanging above the door, I guess this place must be a haunted house and full of Bangkok ghosts. Of course, only when my nose entered could I smell the damp smell of wood and old books. Despite the fact that the center was full of flowers and memories.

 Well, the smell really can't match the antiques in store cookware.

— "Hello" greeted the hoarse voice of an older man. I turned to look at him, since he was still leaning against the wooden counter. I examined her outfit and the way her face was unblinking. His age must be around 50. I don't understand, why wear a T-shirt with a SpongeBob print on it?

— "I don't know if the young man needed help with something" he intervened. Waking up from my reverie to the present

Kawee: “Uh…well, I'd like a bouquet of white roses. Will it be available?"

 - "White roses? Yes, do you want a small bouquet or a large one?”

Kawee: “Something medium size”

"How many flowers do you want me to bring?" How do you ask that? I don't want to argue with the old man.

Kawee: “What is the size you normally drive? I have very little experience in this."

— “Who are you buying it for? Girlfriend…adult friend or relative?”

(Del: This man asks too many questions… I would have gotten frustrated by now.) Kawee: “It's for a friend of a friend's friend, she's getting married. The important thing is that she doesn't know me." Having said that, I wanted to collapse and cry on the floor, thankful for the sadness you are facing.

Yes, your wedding. Today was the biggest day of the woman I've had a secret crush on since high school, but I was stubborn and didn't have the courage to approach her and before I knew it, she was already announcing her marriage.

I had no personal knowledge of the bride today so I relied on the connections of distant friends to help me. On second thought, I'm going to go toast a congratulations without even receiving an invitation. It's not like I wanted to go eat for free at the event either, I just had just determined that this might be the last time we see each other. My heart wanted to take the opportunity to look at her from a distance to say goodbye.

— “Human life is a tragedy.” I don't know how long I've been immersed in the thoughts in my head, but hearing the merchant's uncle I raised my head to meet his eyes.

Kawee: “Okay man. If there is hope, one must know disappointment."

— “Honestly, the person you like could be a good match for someone other than the boyfriend”

Kawee: “I used to think that way, but it seems too evil”

 I know the boyfriend through my work and only superficially and I know that they attended the same university many years ago. He became famous for his good looks but it is better to describe the fact that he is both flirtatious and authoritative plus he shows such confidence and what makes him famous to the point where everyone wants to come and meet him. I said it already…

Really! the world is so unfair

In addition, I recently saw that he secretly accompanied other women to go shopping at the mall. Is this the type of person who is going to be the husband of the person I like?

 — “Here is your fix.” A bouquet of white roses was spread before me, it seemed to me a great consolation.

Kawee: “Thanks, uncle wrapped it up so nice”

 I had used plain white wrapping paper, but it looks nice with about nine flower clusters attached. The guy hadn't put any other kind of flowers like in any other store I've seen, but it was just as good.

— “It is better to turn compliments into money.”

Kawee: “Oh man”, you make fun too. "How much?"

- "Three hundred".

Kawee: "Why is it so cheap?"

"Then raise the price to four hundred."

Kawee: “Three hundred is good, man. Favorable price.” I won't let you change your mind. I quickly took the money out of the wallet and paid. The wrinkled hand opportunely accepted three hundred baht notes with a smile. — “You are the first customer in many years.” Botkawee: "Wow, is that all?" — “Everyone wants to shop at the big store is across the street.” Botkawee: "So how does uncle live?" "Oh, I'm rich. This is just a hobby. The loss of uncle is not stressful.” This is the true way of life of the rich. I looked at myself, thirty years old. I couldn't even rent a house, just a bedroom. I was only able to pay my car payment for one year, then they took it away again. Currently working as a 'subber' , known to many as a subtitle translator.

(From: Another fan subber for fans hahaha)

The beginning was not so difficult. Originally, I was a translator just to gain experience and satisfy my fans of foreign series. Who would have thought that one day I would be lucky enough to be able to work on it? I made an offer to do the job more precisely and in a more formal way.

It was not only for series, but it also ended up being for the movies that were shown in movie theaters. At no point was it a big name film due to lack of prestige, most of the work that came through was short indie films, which, okay, is more in line with my visual taste.

Okay, let's forget about work, my nerves are eating me up.

— “This is a gift that I would like to give to my first client in many years.”

Kawee: "Oh, a gift." What surprised me was that after buying the flowers and paying for them, I also received a musical crystal ball as a bonus. It must be more expensive than what I just paid.

- "Take"

Kawee: “I can't accept it. It's such a beautiful thing and I don't want to take advantage of the guy."

A round crystal ball the size of his hand appeared in front of him. It consists of a transparent liquid part with glitter floating inside and the other part is a doll dressed in a white wedding dress but without a groom, standing next to each other, so it's quite strange.

—: "You deserve it, take it."

Kawee: "But..."

— “No, a gift is a gift, come on”

Kawee: “Thank you” after saying that, I didn't forget to raise my hands to pay my respects before saying goodbye for the last time. "Then I'll go first." It's time to go and it will be a long time before I have a chance to come back here.

But the second the door opened outside, her voice automatically stopped me.

"Young man, can I ask you a question?"

Kawee: "Yes."

— “If you could go back in time, what do you most want to go back and fix?”

Kawee: “Me?…”

"..."

Kawee: "I want to go back to college again and work up the courage to meet her."